XI Strength and Ace of Cups

I'm getting so involved with trying to make handcrafted greeting cards that I go to bed before realizing that I forgot to work with Tarot.  But still spiritually focused though so this is a good thing.  Making cards is my future so spending time making them gives a boost to my future prospects but also to my spiritual well-being since it is proving to be so enjoyable and time-consuming at that.  I am essentially working all day and all night although my day job is not really work at all nor is it hard except where the boredom starts to become overwhelming but I am surviving.

I spend time at my day job dreaming and planning card designs and it is proving to be a useful exercise so I am happy with this.  I also think about all things spiritual so I am always striving to be connected to and with the world within and around me.

On Friday, November 26th I shuffled and cut the deck thus revealing:

XI Strength - a very beautiful card depicting a man and tiger performing at a circus, the
man is confidently holding a ring of fire and the tiger is pondering when and how to jump
through the hoop in order to please not only the trainer but the crowd as well.

Today, November 30th as I was looking through my tarot deck to find a few relevant cards I noticed that the:

Ace of Cups was between two cards of significance to me so I selected it as my card of
the day.

Flipped, Shuffled, and Picked Cards

Posting is again tardy and for that I do continue to apologize.  I find it difficult at times to get into any sort of rhythm or routine when working with the Tarot or blogging but I strive to find a means to work with Tarot and blog on a daily basis.

Since I last posted:

November 16th - 3 of Cups
November 17th - Guide of Coins, this card flipped out of the deck while I was giving it a shuffle
                         - Sage of Swords, this is the card that appeared after shuffling and cutting the deck
November 24th - 3 of Wands, I thought of this during the wee early morning hours, I do believe

Also, I woke up at 8:04AM two days in a row, last weekend I believe it was.

I never worked with the Tarot last night as I was thinking more about re-organizing my studio as I was not happy with how it looked or how it was functioning for me.  Making cards or thinking about card designs and making prototypes has been occurring almost every day and night so I really wish I could just stay at home and make cards rather than having to get dressed every day and go off to work.  I'm thankful for being employed but at the same time I would rather be working for myself even if it does not mean a steady or stable paycheque.

So this is how I have spent the last eleven days of my life and no worries as I always think in terms of my spiritual self.  Spirit is always on my mind and always with me.

Spirit and Energy

So I continue to sporadically take out my tarot deck and work with it here and there.  Over the last thirteen days I have only pulled the deck out five of those days.  But I do keep myself open to and in communication with the world around me, the energy and spirit that surrounds and moves through us all, the energy and spirit that is striving to move us all in the right directions that if we were to all listen those directions would make this world the utopia we all dream of.

November 5th - 9 of Cups - Serendipity
November 6th - 2 of Coins - Tai Chi (this card fell away from the deck while I was shuffling the deck)
                       - 5 of Cups - The Aftermath (appeared on top of deck after shuffling and cutting of the deck)
November 8th - XX Beyond Judgment
November 11th - 9 of Cups - Serendipity
November 12th - 4 of Coins - The Lighting Director

A Good Time and The Parade

These are the headlines from the two cards that revealed themselves to me over the weekend.  Interesting side note is that I consciously made myself aware of my mood as I worked with the Tarot and instead of feeling as if working with the card was a chore I turned it instead into a happy experience and these are the cards that came as a result:

Saturday, October 30th - "3 of Cups.  A good time.  Happy, comfortable times, together.  Quiet enjoyment.  Celebration."

Sunday, October 31st - "6 of Wands - The Parade.  Appreciation for those who stand up for themselves.  The courage of one's convictions.  Admiration, acclaim, pride."

Happy Samhain!  May the spirit of Halloween been good to all!  Blessed Be!

Guide of Coins

Last night as I relaxed and focused on Tarot for the few minutes I give to it, the Guide of Coins appeared on top of the deck after a quick shuffle and cutting of the deck of cards.  The Guide of Coins - "seeing magic in the mundane; spiritual fulfillment from nature; and finding joy in the ordinary".

Things in my life have been moving along quite nicely these past few days and I have become quite eager to get down to the business of making my imperfectly and beautiful handcrafted greeting cards.  The idea of looking for rubber stamps came to my mind this morning so I spent several hours looking at and eventually ordering about twenty or so different rubber stamps to use in my making of these imperfectly beautiful handcrafted greeting cards.  I guess the final tally is close to $300.00.

But I am comfortable with these purchases as I know that all of these stamps will be used and all the cards I use these stamps on will be sold to someone somewhere in this world we live in.  I am confident of it!

I am truly learning how to read and trust the tarot and the intuition I use along with it.  I posed the question concerning the logic and validity of making these purchases and the Guide of Cups was revealed to me.  "The Guide of Cups - messages from your heart and altruism".

Hhhhmmm. . .

Guide of Wands

"Guide of Wands - Feeling possessed by a creative project or inspiration.  Being inspired to help others.  Doing what's right."

This is a very fitting card as I am feeling possessed by a creative project because of an inspiration I can also say that I am also "doing what's right" because I am setting up shop, a proper workplace at home so my creative ideas for cards can more easily come to life.

We shopped for stuff to remodel the den this past weekend and the weekend that is fast approaching will be used to get things going regarding the remodel.  Really, it is just adding three shelves to the wall, a long table, and a storage cabinet or two along the same wall and then piling in all of my craft stuff.

The old desk and bookshelf will find new homes with other people and that will be that.  I look forward to having a more permanent and usable space in which to make my cards so I never have to take them out, put them, away take them out, put them away, forget what I was doing, lose my urge to make cards, etc.  This is a great and about time project and move on my part.

Knowledge, Learning, Growing and Understanding

Another weekend has passed us by and I did work with the Tarot however, I missed doing so on Saturday.

On Friday, the 7 of Cups made an appearance, it is labeled "The Bookstore" and concerns "choosing between different approaches; contemplating choices when you should be acting".

On Sunday, the 2 of Coins, a new card for me, appeared and is labeled "Tai Chi" and concerns "flexibility; "Going with the flow"; living in tune with your environment".

As I have read a little bit more about the Tarot as well as reflect on the cards as they appear each day my understanding of each cards meaning as well as how it reflects on and affects my life, I have not only a greater understanding of the Tarot but of life as well and how I fit into it all.

All of cards I am finding each day I work with Tarot all concern making decisions and taking action instead of daydreaming and thinking about everything, just spinning my wheels as life passes me by.  If I want anything in life or out of life I have to be an active participant in the grand scheme of things or I will be left behind sulking because the life I desire, the life of my dreams went on without me.

Learning and Enjoying the Tarot

On Monday and Tuesday October 5th and 6th I forgot to work with the Tarot so I chose 0 The Fool as the Card of the Day for both of these days as it seemed quite fitting for how these days played out.  On the morning of the 7th I returned to working with the Tarot and as I shuffled the cards and cut the deck my thoughts were with the elements: Earth, Air, Fire, Water and also Spirit and the card that came out on top was 0 The Fool.  Later in the evening of the 7th I again returned to the cards and the 2 of Cups came out on top.  This card is labeled "The Dialogue", a balanced relationship; being able to see things from the other's perspective.

The Thanksgiving long weekend saw us driving home to my family to celebrate the day.  On Sunday, October 10th I was able to work with the cards and VII The Chariot appeared, "Among the highs and lows of life, make sure to enjoy you enjoy the highs".

After arriving back home on Monday evening I shuffled the cards and XIII Death appeared, seeing this card startled me for a few moments but I understood the meaning of the card soon after, the card has a subheading of "Endings and Beginnings".

Much time passed again and it was not until Sunday, October 17th that I returned to working with the Tarot.  The card this day was the "Man of Cups", an emotional adventurer.  On the 18th the Youth of Cups made another appearance, youthful emotions.  The 19th had the 9 of Cups making an appearance, "Serendipity".  On this day I also caught a glimpse of XII The Hanged Man so I added this to this day as well and the Hanged Man represents "Living in the moment".  On the 20th I shuffled the cards and cut the deck and XII The Hanged Man was out again.

Last night, the 21st, saw the 9 of Swords appear, "Unquiet dreams".

As I reflect on each the card that reveals itself whether as a randomly selected card or I card I actually choose I am learning something from each of these cards as they appear individually and from the story they are unfolding before me when I allow them all to come together.  The Tarot is an amazing gift to have in my life and I am ever so thankful and grateful for the learning and enjoyment that it has brough to my life.

Randomness?

Again I have been lazy in working with Tarot and this must and will stop now.  Tarot must be and will be and is a daily activity for me, this is a connection, and a communication I must dedicate myself to doing each and every day!

Tonight my goal will be to go through the night without watching television.  I want to focus on Spirit, painting a card or two and perhaps putting a new card together and possibly adding a few rounds to my spool-knitting projects.  Ultimately, though my Spiritual work must be my primary focus.

Although shuffling and cutting a tarot deck appears to allow for randomness to occur I am always surprised at how often the same cards appear on top of the deck during each of my workings with Tarot.

For instance on Sunday, October 3rd the 6 of Coins revealed itself again.  This card also appeared on September 3rd and 11th.  On Monday, October 4, VII, the Chariot revealed itself again, last appearing on August 31st.

Another interesting thing I noticed is that the Man of Cups appeared on September 12th, the Guide of Cups appeared on September 16th, the Youth of Cups on September 22nd, and the Sage of Cups on September 29th.  This is something I should have paid more attention to but failed to as I was more interested in watching television and doing nothing.  Doing nothing is a problem  for me as I am finding myself to becoming quite the lazy person.  But the fact that four Cup cards appeared every five to six days is meaningful and in addition to this they are all Court Cards.

I will reflect on this as well as move forward with my Spiritual pursuits.

The Weeks Cards

I have been a bit lazy again about posting no excuses just busy doing a lot of what I deem to be and would call necessary thinking.  I am trying to make some tough decisions these days and think I have successfully made a few but time will tell how these decisions play out.

As you may or may not know I am endeavoring to set out on my very own RVing adventure something I have been wanting to do since my early 20's.  I'm almost to the point of throwing caution to the wind and doing it but am trying to hold back and do so in a logical and rational way but again time will tell how logical and rational I continue to be in the days, weeks, and months ahead.

I am pleased though that spiritually I am growing stronger and more confident with it every day.  I am experiencing a lot of things that I have not experienced since 2003.  I am glad that I am almost back to where I was back then before making a few wrong decisions and changing course in direction that ran against all reason and logic for the person I am.

My Spirit is what will keep me strong and capable of moving forward and succeeding in the pursuit of my RVing dream.  I give much thanks and gratitude to the Universe around me and all those that continue to assist and guide me through this passage through life.

Friday, September 24
II The Intuitive: "To be true to oneself, one must know oneself.  Looking within for answers.  Meditation.  Intuition.  Exploring that which is normally hidden."

Thursday, September 23, 2010
Youth of Cups: "youthful emotions, daydreaming, shyness".

Monday, September 20, 2010
Friday night revealed the 7 of Coins: "Chores. Resting after a job well done; contemplating life's cycles and changes; planning next move; clearing out what's unnecessary in your life to make room for something new."
Saturday, the 18th of September brought out V The Priest: "The best way to help others is to help them make their own decisions; wisdom; advice; a promise; a ceremony or ritual."

Guide of Cups

Guide of Cups:messages from the heart and altruism.  As I shuffled the cards and cut the deck several times as usual I was also thinking about "truth" and what it means.  Did my thoughts about "truth" influence the card that appeared on top of the deck after the last cut?

Additionally, how does carry an amethyst stone in my pocket influence my day and the thoughts I have throughout the day?  I do feel I am in a lighter and calmer mood these days so is this the influence of the crystals I picked up from the Crystal Ark?  Whatever the reasons I am enjoying my mood and the frame of mind I find myself in these days.  All is good and I continue to be and remain thankful for the life I have and the path I find myself on these days.

Sage of Wands and the Life of Pi

Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Sage of Wands

Last night upon seeing the Sage of Wands appear, I quickly read the description for this cards and moved on to other things.  After some thinking as I lay down to bed I did fall asleep but all of my thinking was caused by the "wrong" description I read regarding the "Sage of Wands" as this morning upon looking at the description for this card again I noticed that it was not what I read last night.  Last night, instead of reading the description for the Sage of Wands I instead read the description for the "Sage of Swords" and these two cards as you probably already know are very much different.

I was somewhat surprised by what I read last too as it did not really match the imagery of the card but nothing lost here although that description I read did allow me to think and come to some decisions regarding the RV so I am quite happy about owning an RV today.  So without further delay, last nights card revealed as I mentioned before is the "Sage of Wands" and relates to "wanting to change the world; changing your environment by winning others to your viewpoint; and critical acclaim and politics".


Thursday, September 16, 2010
Life of Pi by Yann Martel

I just finished reading this book and all I can say is what a great piece of work did Yann Martel put out.  This book is superbly written and an absolute joy to read.  I found it so hard to put down that I finished it in a little more than two, maybe three days.  I love books that almost read themselves.  The last book I read quickly was Dan Brown's The Da Vinci Code and I think I read this book in about a week or less.  The Life of Pi though is an incredibly well written book that I highly recommend one to read.  After a few days of absorbing this book I will return once again to Crime and Punishment.  Although, I am thoroughly enjoying Crime and Punishment I find it a little difficult and tiring to read, the tiring part is not from boredom but rather the way in which the book is written.  But I will push through and complete this book as well.

Although a few things are going on I am feeling rather at ease and quite comfortable with my self and the plans that I have so I will let things continue as they want to be and continue to give thanks for the life I have and the path the universe has me on.

Thank you and I bid you peace. . .

Ace of Swords

As I was shuffling the cards to randomly select my card of the day the Ace of Swords fell away from the deck so I took this card falling from the deck as a sign that it should be my card of the day.

The Ace of Swords is representative of an idea; starting to develop a plan or strategy.  I'm not sure how to take this card and the message I am being sent but I will meditate on it and see what I can come up with.  With just a few minutes of thought my eyes have been opened to the idea that perhaps my desire to move into and travel in an RV has not fully developed into a plan or strategy and perhaps, I need to step back and rethink things along this line.  In addition, related to subject matter of this blog, I have been wanting to come up with an idea of how I can further implement these things into my life and career and perhaps this Ace of Swords is a wake up call to do just that.

Do I have an idea and am I starting to develop a plan or strategy?  We shall see?

Thanks for listening. . .

Repeating Cards and/or Patterns?

As I worked with Tarot over the weekend a couple of cards reappeared.  On Friday, 0 The Fool came out and on Saturday, the 6 of Coins appeared.

The Fool relates to accepting and exploring one's sexual identity as a journey into self-discovery; beginning a new and exciting adventure; going beyond the limits of social convention; and being a non-conformist.  The 6 of Coins relates to dependence and resentment at being  financially dependent on another; charity; and an unequal relationship.  I will meditate on these card as well as the Man of Cups that appeared on Sunday:an emotional adventurer; tendency to want to emotionally rescue others; and being drawn to emotional crises.

Another thing that happened on Sunday morning was an image that appeared out on the street as I glanced out the window.  As I quickly looked out the window on Sunday morning I thought I saw a shadowy figure walking from the corner of Begbie across Carnarvon Street but as I soon as I acknowledged that I may be seeing things or even seeing something this shadowy figure disappeared into the morning air.  It was not a scary experience but rather seemed to be one on the verge of enlightenment until my thoughts got in the way.

I need to learn to just be and let things be without giving them thought or thought to them.

Changing Direction Through Tarot

Every day I try to work with Tarot and even though I am not successful at this I still continue to strive to find time for Tarot in my life.

Although I am sporadic in my efforts I hope I am passionate enough to keep this pursuit of Tarot in my life for the long haul.  Last week my last day of working with the cards was on Friday, September 3rd.  As I shuffled the cards, 0 The Fool revealed himself to me on September 2nd and the 6 of Coins on September 3rd.  Also, on the 3rd I pulled out my whimsical tarot deck and found the Queen of Pentacles and 2 of Cups revealing themselves to me from that deck.  Yesterday, Monday, September 6th XVI Revelation made itself known to me and I've seen this card from this deck once before.

As I reflect on these cards I know that I am been prodded to move in a certain direction in life over and over again as I have not made the change in direction yet.  Often times the cards repeat themselves over and over and this cannot be mere coincidence as I shuffle the deck and cut it three times before flipping the top card over so a much greater force is at work here.  And so it is that I need to muster up the strength and courage to move in the direction that these repeated cards are pointing in if I wish to live the life of my dreams or the life set up before me by the universe at large.

I feel like this change in direction will be forced upon me but in a good way if I do not muster up the strength and courage to change direction myself so I need to be prepared to make a change willfully or through the forces of the universe/cosmos as it is a change in direction I long desire to make but cannot find the will to do.

The universe/cosmos does work in mysterious ways so I will not and am not often surprised by events that take place or take shape in my life these days so I leave it at that and move on to other things and will write more later. . .

A Crow Pays Me a Visit at the Office

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

VII The Chariot, a young man on a skateboard holding onto two leashes as two dogs pulled him down a city street.  The young man's hat caught in the wind and flying off of his head.  Enjoying the highs and lo's of life but in this case pay special attention to and really enjoy the highs of the day, week, month, year!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

I wore my rings and shuffled the Tarot cards as I cleansed and cleared my mind of the day's mental clutter.  I cut the deck three times and then card VIII Justice from the major arcana revealed itself to me.  This card reminded me that sometimes justice is not always fair and that I too may be guilty of being judgmental and opinionated when I should not be.  We must all stand on guard not to trample on other people as well as give them the benefit of the doubt all the while remembering we have no authority to pass judgment on anyone and that includes ourselves.

I love the imagery on this particular card as it depicts a jailhouse or perhaps a prison where rows of cells lead up to Justice herself holding a sword in one hand and the scales of justice in the other; above her is a window where sunlight is streaming through.  The sunlight highlights the corridor between the cells and two outreached arms desperately trying to reach out to the other but they are unable to touch as the

distance is just a little beyond arm's length.

This past Tuesday as I was sitting here at my desk reading blogs and/or typing away at my diary/novel I happened to look toward the door and discovered a crow pecking at the carpet just inside the doorway.  If I knew the bird was healthy and that I was really alone in the office I may have allowed the bird further access into the office. 

But the bird looked quite battered, as his/her feathers were disheveled and a few appeared to be missing around the back of his/her head so I slowly stood up and shewed the bird out the door.  He/She retreated just off to the side in a corner and stayed there awhile.

Since, I was alone in the office for at least a few minutes not really knowing when my co-worker would return I decided to send some warm, positive healing energy to the bird.  I held my amethyst stone in one hand as I built up a little bit of energy as I connected with the cosmos and then I slowly released and sent this energy to the bird.  I spent several minutes doing this.  The bird appeared to be shivering, maybe a

little cold as it was pouring rain this day.  After a few minutes I left the bird alone and let him/her be.

Again I was at my desk and happened to glance toward the door again only to see that the bird had returned.  He/She was probably hoping to spend some time in the obvious warmth of the office but unfortunately I just could not let this happen so I again shewed the bird out the door and then watched him/her make his way toward the other side of the building and then watched as he disappeared around the corner.

This experience built up a lot of positive energy within me as I felt my whole body tingling and vibrating with a glorious amount of loving energy.  My aura was shining brightly and my emotions were running high and full of love, joy, and happiness.  Everything I looked at after this encounter with the bird was full of life, vibrating with energy.  This reminded me of the Celestine Prophecy and made me wonder could it be. . .

No Blogging But Spiritually at Work and Thriving

I have abandoned the blog for far too long and will strive to not let this happen again.

I have not blogged for almost a month now and feel quite bad about this as blogging is such a therapeutic exercise for me so I am not sure why I chose not to blog since the 5th of August.

The last time I worked with Tarot was on Saturday, August 7th and the cards that revealed themselves  to me were from the major arcana, XXI World and XVI Revelation.  XXI partially flipped over as I was shuffling the deck and so I decided to include it as my card(s) of the day for August 7th.

While reading the the blog rv-dreams.com I read this quote they had on their blog from Joseph Campbell:

"We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us!"

I like this quote a lot and I am trying do just as it says so that I can live the life that is waiting for me.  I am doing my best to be flexible and open to all possibilities as they and other wonderful opportunities unfold in front of me.  Life and time are not written in stone so I do my best to allow the future pages of the story of my life to remain blank so that my life unfolds as it should and not necessarily as I want it to.

I say this because I had planned to be in my RV by this time and yet here I remain attached to the life I am trying to escape from in order to live the life of my dreams but life has other plans for me and so I remain focused on my goal of RVing but flexible enough to allow it to happen when the time and conditions are right and that includes me.  Am I ready to life the life of a nomad?

Stay tuned as there is definitely more to come. . .

Multiple Entries, Crystals, moving forward. . .

July 14, 2010

8 of Swords - The Crowded Subway, restriction; being trapped by your own biases and prejudices; feeling lonely in a crowd.

July 15, 2010

4 of Coins - The Lighting Director, a position of power; wanting to control how others perceive things.

July 21, 2010

7 of Cups - The Bookstore, choosing between different approaches; contemplating choices when you should be acting.

July 26, 2010

7 of Cups - The Bookstore, choosing between different approaches; contemplating choices when you should be acting.

July 30, 2010

9 of Cups - Serendipity; satisfaction; everything is going well.

For the past couple of months I have been carrying in my pocket on a daily basis three quartz crystals that appear to be having a positive effect on my energy.  I carry amethyst, clear quartz and rose quartz.  Each of these is improving my positive energy flow as well as my mood and outlook on life.  I am feeling better overall as well.

This for me is a great plus and since my energy and mood are improving my mind is becoming more clear thus allowing the cosmic force to flow more freely in my life and provide me with the knowledge and ideas necessary to move forward.

And one thing I know for sure is that a crystal ball is in my future and I will indeed be traveling across this great continent in my trusty little RV Lucille Esmeralda Tokalot.  Of course she needs some TLC before we embark on this adventure and that TLC is just around the corner.

Thank you for dropping by. . .

Where does time go?

Two weeks have passed by since my last post and as I was reviewing my previous posts I noticed that I never wrote about my visit to the Crystal Ark store on Granville Island.

I'm not even sure when I visited the store but we did make it to the Crystal Ark and what a lovely visit we had.  Walking through a store full of crystals was a very uplifting and moving experience for me.  Although, I did not walk out of the store with a Crystal Ball I did walk away with a small bag full of clear quartz, rose quartz, smokey quartz and amethyst crystals as well as a small amethyst ball with a base.  I surely will return to the store to feel out and purchase a crystal ball that feels right for me but during this visit I was suffering from a bit of sticker shock.  The crystal that I felt most drawn too was priced (well beyond my discretionary spending money) at a cool $777.00.

As I said though I will go back to the store and pick up a ball before I embark on my RVing adventure of a lifetime.

Since picking up the crystals I have noticed a definite change in my mood and energy.  I try to always carry at least one crystal in my pocket each time I leave the house and boy does it ever make a difference.  I even noticed a difference when I left a majority of the crystals out in the living room when going to bed.  Over the course of a few evenings I noticed that my sleep was not very good and quite hectic if you can imagine.  Once I returned the crystals to my dresser I noticed that my sleep improved a lot.

Crystal energy is definitely effective in improving my life.

I was doing quite good with working with Tarot for many days but that has dropped off to almost nothing for the past couple of weeks.  I last worked with Tarot on July 8th and before that it was June 30th.

On June 30th the card that revealed itself to me was the Sage of Coins and on July 8th the card that came out was the 5 of Coins.  Both of these from the Gay Tarot, a great deck of cards for me, very comfortable in my hands as they almost feel like an extension of my own body.

Also, an update on the car accident I had back on May 31st:  the other driver accepted 100% responsibility so I will receive a cheque from the insurance company for the $300 deductible I paid when I had the damage to the car repaired during the week of June 7th.

Time does not really go anywhere but time does seem to disappear when we do not live in the moment and enjoy life to the fullest each and every day.  I am thankful for the moment I have right now and for the life I am living in this moment.  Life is good and I am thankful for all that is being provided for me in this moment and for this day.

Grace and peace to you. . .

Weekend Activity

On Saturday morning, June 26, 2010 I again woke up early as I usually do every day as sleeping in is something I never seem able to do and so it is around 6:30am and I am making coffee, getting comfortable and ready to work with the Tarot.  With my deck of choice these days and this seems to be my deck, the Gay Tarot in my hands I shuffle the cards, cut the deck a few times and turn the top card over to reveal the 10 of Cups - Ideal.  Attainment.  I love the imagery of the two men looking at the beautiful surroundings they are in as a little boy and girl play behind them.  Off on the upper right of the card is a new home with a rainbow overhead telling the story of the ideal situation this new family is in and that the attainment of their dream has finally come.

Last night, Sunday, June 27 we watched the documentary Religulous by Bill Maher and what a thoroughly enjoyable movie.  He is a doubter of religion and the Bible and makes a good argument as to why we would all and raise our hands to simply proclaim "I do not know."

Although I also have doubts about religion especially as it is practiced today I cannot go so far as to say that their is no spirit or energy in this world that affects us all as I have felt and experienced this energy in my life and am now only coming to understand and remember what this energy and spirit is.

Life is rolling right along . . .

as it should be.  I am pretty happy these days as I am getting more and more comfortable working with my Tarot cards.  In fact, one deck in particular is proving to be an ideal fit with me.  The energy between the deck and me is utterly amazing and I have felt it so easy to see the inherent messages in the images of the cards as I do with this particular deck.  The only other deck that I somewhat understand is Aleister Crowley's Thoth deck and that is only because I have been working with it on and off for the past ten years so this new deck is pretty darned amazing in my books.

The deck I am referring to is the Gay Tarot which I received as a Christmas/Yule gift from my partner - another wonderful and thoughtful gift that he has given to me over the years.

I have though worked with the "Tarot" deck as well, this is the tiny little deck that I impulsively purchased from Chapters a while back.  But the deck does work but overall the Gay Tarot deck is by far the best deck I now own.  But each of the four decks I have now are unique and wonderful in their own way so don't get me wrong when I say that the Gay Tarot deck is so wonderful as I do like to work with each deck and it just depends on my mood as to which deck I work with on any particular day.

Back on June 19th working with the "Tarot" deck two cards revealed themselves to me:

4 of Cups
Page of Cups

On June 20th working with the Gay Tarot I randomly selected:

XVII The Star - Spirit is real.  Hope. Serenity.  Clarity.  Having faith in an underlying or overlying Spirit.  A dream becomes real.

Monday, June 21 - Happy Litha, the summer solstice is upon us.  And from the Gay Tarot I randomly selected:

Youth of Cups

Wednesday, June 23rd again from the Gay Tarot:

XII The Hanged Man

The selection of crystals I picked up the Crystal Ark are full of great positive energy and I have been allowing that energy to flow into and around me to improve my mood and rid me of the negative energy that pervades my life.  As I let go of that negative energy I feel my communication with the cosmos opening up and improving more and more each day.  Although I do sometimes fall back into the negative habits and patterns for the most part and thankfully so it is a short-lived episode.

My life and dreams are moving forward little step by little step and I am so glad and happy to see my life progressing in the direction it is supposed to as I have been made aware of by my interaction with the cosmos around me.

How wonderful it is!

A Long While But All Is Good

Sorry to be absent for so long but my attention and focus have been on my RV for the last week and more and this is a good thing as I am working toward fulfilling my dreams and goals and as a part of this process I am growing spiritually and becoming more enlightened as well.

Fixing the RV will allow me to give more attention to all areas of my life once it is done and I all moved in and traveling down the highway.  By having such focus on the RV I have also cleared my mind a little and as a result I am more aware of and understanding of how I will survive on the road without a typical or stable job so-to-speak.  Making handcrafted cards makes a lot of sense and will be my main focus in attempting to earn a living on the road but as I make cards I will also be growing and becoming stronger spiritually and psychically speaking so my ability to survive on the road will also be enhanced by this spiritual and psychic growth.  As I make cards I will also practice my ventriloquial abilities and improve the voices of both Edith and Eugene so that they too can come out and perform and earn a few dollars to support our travels.

Last night I was dreaming of as far as I ca tell with my thoughts first thing this morning about my partner and I traveling by RV to visit his brother in Ontario.  In fact, I have had several thoughts if not daydreams if not dreams about my partner and I traveling quite a bit in the RV together so who knows what the future will bring.  My goal of traveling and living in an RV are out there and I will be doing so soon enough but having my partner travel with me is something I have not given much thought too but it would seem that the cosmos has additional plans for me in this regard.

On Friday, June 4th I randomly selected the 9 and 10 of Swords out of the Gay Tarot.

Sunday, June 6th - 2 of Swords (Peace) from the Crowley deck.

Monday, June 7th - XIV Temperance from the Gay Tarot.

Thursday/Friday, June 10th/11th - Ace of Cups

Sunday, June 13th - Guide of Coins form the Gay Tarot

So although my focus has been on my RV I am also given some attention to and communicating with Tarot as well as the Cosmos so I am learning and growing each and every day.

Thanks for visiting. . .

How Can You Look At It?

The weekend was great as we had lunch with friends and enjoyed a symphony concert on Saturday.  Sunday was a bit of a lazy day but the day was great spiritually and energy-wise as was Saturday.

Saturday's cards were:

Crowley: Queen of Cups
Tarot: King of Pentacles
Gay: IV The Emperor

Words that stood out were: benevolent despot, fecundity, and adept.

Sunday's cards were:

Rider: Ace of Pentacles
Gay: 6 of Cups
Tarot: VII The Chariot
Crowley: Ten of Wands (Oppression); Eight of Wands follow up card to questions raised by the 10 of Wands.

Words that stood out were: felicity, augur

Monday, May 31, 2010 literally started off with a bang.  Around 8:25am as I was getting close to where I go for my day job I was involved in an accident.  As I was approaching an intersection the light changed from red to green as I approached it in the right-hand lane.  I was maybe 20 metres from the intersection when a driver changed lanes to avoid being stuck behind another driver turning left.  Had this driver checked before coming into my lane the accident could have been avoided.  He was driving a an and the front passenger door of his van connected with the driver's side front fender of my car.  My day became filled with a fog and I left work around noon and headed to a collision repair shop to get an estimated and book an appointment to have the car repaired.

The other driver claimed that I hit him but I challenged him by suggesting that it was he who had changed lanes and hit me.  A witness came forward thankfully as she saw the entire accident unfold and knew it was going to happen.  I filed my claim and gave my version of events the other driver will do the same and the insurance company will decide who to late fault on between our stories as well as what the witness saw as an impartial third party.

The car goes into the shop on Monday for about four days.

On Monday while at home I tried my best to relax and mingle with Tarot.  I was surprised as I drew two cards that I was not expecting to see:

Crowley:

10 of Cups (Satiety)

 and because I was surprised and not expecting this card I selected another one and:

Ace of Swords

Yesterday, Tuesday, June 1, 2010

III of Wands and/or Queen of Cups

Last night I woke up because I was not able to get comfortable enough to sleep as my back has been sore for a couple of days and when I took a look at the time it was 1:11am.  I was immediately filled with a vision of the III of Wands.  So I closed my eyes and tossed and turned for what seemed like forever and eventually fell asleep.  The alarm spoke at the usual time of 6:30am and I was none too excited to hear it or even think about getting out of bed but of course, I eventually did.

I then remembered that last night I shuffled the Thoth Tarot deck in preparation for randomly selecting a card this morning so I sat down, breathed slowly and deeply trying to relax as I shuffled the deck again, cut it several times before flipping over the top card, the Queen of Cups.

III of Wands -- Crowley titled this card Virtue.  Established strength.  Success after struggle.  Pride and arrogance.  Realization of hope.  Nobility.  Ill-dignified:Conceit.

Queen of Cups -- Represents the the watery aspect of water.  A woman who reflects the nature of the observer, dreamy, tranquil, poetic, imaginative, kind yet not willing to take much trouble for another.  She is much affected by surrounding influences, therefore more dependent than most other cards on good or ill dignity.

The descriptions for the cards is taken from the little white book included with the deck.

III of Wands -- taken from the Gay Tarot -- Leaving the nest.  Seeing progress.  Something or someone you have nurtured must now strike out on their own.

Guide -- taken from the Gay Tarot --  Messages from your heart.  Altruism.

And finally from Tarot by Running Press:

III of Wands -- You are very good at putting talents and skills of others to their best use.  Be specific about what you want and don't be misled by well-meaning friends.  This is not a lonely time.  Use the strength of those around you--teamwork brings luck.  When reversed: Stop struggling!  Stay focused and don't be intimidated by know-it-all's.  Ask questions.  Take time to clearly define what you want.

Queen of Cups -- Remember that life is about more than your day-to-day job and worries.  Take time to examine spiritual beliefs.  Don't get bogged down by trivial details or the demands of others.  When reversed: Those around you are acting stuffier than normal.  Pay no attention.  Take time to rethink matters, especially your eating habits.

I accept both of these as being applicable to my day.  Yesterday, I was having some doubts about my goals and hence my future but instead of dwelling on these negative images I kindly asked for guidance and to have a clearer and more decisive idea about my goals and the future I am planning for myself.  I believe I woke up with answers and am pleased to feel the support, energy, and guidance of the cosmos and energy that I am an integral part of and I give my sincerest thanks!

Birth Card, Card of the Year, and More. . .

Yesterday while I was reading Tarot Journaling written by Corrine Kenner I came across on Page 17 this:

"You might like to focus on a single card at a time, such as your birth card. . ." and when I turned to the page she referenced in the rest of that entry she provides information for finding ones birth card and also makes reference to a card of the year so I calculated my Card of the Year for 2010 to be:

X Wheel of Fortune or Wheel of Life or Simply Fortune.

Using that same formula my birth card also referred to as my personality card and in some cases and additional card can also be calculated and it is referred to as the soul card.  This happens when the result is a two digit number that can be reduced twice.  For example when I calculate my birth/personality card I come up with 29, that number is too high so I add 2+9 and get 11 or XI Strength.  As you can see I can then add 1+1 and get 2 or II The High Priestess or The Intuitive.  Only the Major Arcana cards are used alongside these numbers.

So if I remember correctly my personality card is XI Strength and my soul card is II The High Priestess or The Intuitive.  I will cross reference what XI is in my other two decks and edit this entry to provide that information as well.

So for 2010 I am looking at the Wheel of Fortune/Life.  If I listen to the cosmos, my intuition, and also make the right decisions this should be a year of cyclic change and good fortune for me.  And considering that 2010 is now five months along I can say that so far the year has been good and is getting better all of the time and I give my most humble and sincerest thanks to everyone and all that is involved in providing me with this blessed year.

Tarot Journaling and Crystal Ball Gazing

I'm currently reading these two books and how wonderful they are.  I have learned so much about life in general and more specifically about my own.  Corrine Kenner and Uma Silbey have crafted their words and books very well and I have been moved by what I have read.  Although, I am still new and inexperienced in the worlds of Tarot and Crystal Balls I find that I have not only been moved but changed as well.

In "Tarot Journaling, Corrine Kenner on page xxxiii under the title of "The Benefits of Tarot Journaling" she writes:

"Journaling will help you live a better life.  Believe it or not, the simple act of keeping a journal has been scientifically proven to reduce stress, tension, anxiety, and depression---and researchers have shown that people who keep journals are better able to fight off opportunistic infections, so they get sick less often.  A research psychologist at the University of Texas at Austin, James Pennebaker, found that regular journaling strengthens immune cells, called T lymphocytes.  Joshua M. Smyth, Ph.D., associate professor of psychology at North Dakota State University, found that journaling decreases the symptoms of asthma and rheumatoid arthritis."

She goes on with:

"When you keep a tarot journal, your mind, body, and spirit will benefit.  A tarot journal will help you sharpen your intuition, discover a new rapport with ancient symbols, and expand your worldview. . Before long, you will see growth and progress, both in your tarot readings and in your everyday life."

Although, I do write I am not specifically writing a journal but this is not my point of why change has taken place in my life.  I rather attribute the change in my life to what I have read in the two books that make up the title of this blog.  I am changed by the mere reading of these books and for that I am thankful.

On page 17 Corrine Kenner talks about personalizing your journal and one suggestion she makes is "to create a mandala---a circular design, like a stained glass window or a snowflake---that symbolizes spiritual wholeness."

I bring this up because a few years ago at Christmas my partner gave me a gift certificate to a tattoo parlor and was I ever excited about the gift but I thought long and hard and meditated on what kind of tattoo I should get before coming up with a "Daisy".  But before rushing out to get this tattooed on my body I gave it a lot of thought and maybe 6, 7, 8, maybe 9 months after Christmas I finally got my tattoo and it was the "Daisy".  The reason I chose a Daisy was because it represented my connection with the Divine, the Spirit, or the Energy of life that not only holds us all together but it also links us to everything on this planet thus representing the "spiritual wholeness that Corrine Kenner writes about in her book.

On Page 125 and 126 of her book Crystal Ball Gazing, Uma Silbey writes:

"So much of the time we find ourselves doing things we don't want to do.  We may be working in jobs that we had to take, behaving in ways that don't bring us happiness, being buffeted around by the needs of those around us rather than responding to our own needs.  Many of us, for one reason or another, are not doing what we want to do but what other people want us to do.  Circumstances may have forced us into situations that we dislike, but we stay in them to survive.  Sometimes we don't even trust our own perceptions and feelings, especially if they seem to be different from everyone else's.  Our behavior, sometimes even our thoughts, are so dictated by cultural, religious, familial, and other forms of conditioning, that it's not surprising so many of us don't know what we want.  For one reason or another, we have stilled our own voice so long that we don't even hear it anymore.  It hasn't disappeared, though.  It's there waiting for us if we can identify it."

Also in the next paragraph she writes:

"This crystal ball meditation can very quickly bring your own voice to the forefront."

I cannot wait to find and hear my own voice again.

May we all break free of the conditioning that closes most of off from life and our roles and purposes in it.

Take a peek at these books here.

Until next time. . .

Out of Body Experience

This morning when the alarm went off I had a very jarring waking experience as if I had been slammed back into my body, if you will.  I am quite certain that I had an out of body experience (OBE) just before waking this morning.  I had thought I could not remember my dreams or experiences but as the day moves forward I see a picture of myself in what would appear to be a meeting of sorts.  The clearest picture is one where I am in a conversation with someone (perhaps, my partner) about having to move along with my writing projects and that is where it ends as the dream was cut off by the alarm.  I also get a sense that several dreams and/or experiences involved my RV or RV's in general.

As I work with Tarot I am getting a repetition of cards appearing in my mind.  The 8, Queen, and Ace of Pentacles and two new cards, the 5 and 10 of Swords.  I intuitively feel that I need to move forward and quickly so with moving into the RV.  I get a sense that I will be on a more solid and stable footing once I move into the RV and depart the lower mainland.   My mind is often filled with images of me making cards in the RV and not only making the cards but selling them as well.  On a couple of occasions now I have also seen images of myself discussing the prices of my cards with several different individuals.  We are looking at the contact sheets I printed that contain scan and photos of a variety of different cards I have made and ready to sell.  I am quite pleased and humbled by these images.

I discovered another store in Vancouver where I may be able to purchase a crystal ball and perhaps a few spheres and/or stones such as amethyst, rose quartz, and smoky quartz just to name a few.  The store is called the Crystal Ark Cottage and is located on Granville Island.

So tonight being a Friday night I may perhaps stay up a little later and pull out a deck of my Tarot cards and do a simple spread with nothing in mind when doing so to see what the Tarot wants to show me.

One of my favourite shows is also on tonight - Medium, the 7th season finale airs tonight.  Another related show airs before Medium but I not watched more than a few minutes of it but perhaps I will try to take a look at it during the off season.  The show is called the Ghost Whisperer.

I think I mentioned that I finished reading the book Mediumship a few entries back and just to maybe mention it again that I enjoyed the book and have put a few exercises into practice and am very pleased with the experiences I am having as a result. 

I am now reading Crystal Ball Gazing.  I am finding this book very informative and find it to be a great addition to my library of new age books.  As I read this book as with Mediumship I have discovered that I need to delve ever deeper into the world of spirits and energy that other dimension that is just out of eyesight so I can. . .the words escape me but it is just something I know I have to do. . .

I just hope I can find a crystal ball locally or locally as can be done and avoid having to buy one online, sight unseen.  I like the Uma Silbey, the author of Crystal Ball Gazing feel a need to look at, hold, feel, communicate with, and know the crystal before buying it.  I look forward to visiting the Crystal Ark Cottage very soon to see what I can discover.

Until next time. . .

Tarot Cards Revealed

Monday, May 17, 2010

As I hold my smallest deck of Tarot cards I usually pick up several cards with one hand and let them drop back onto the rest of the deck being held with my other hand.  As I do this I notice that the deck appears to split at a certain card several times in the process as I do this several times.  Today, two cards appeared:

Queen of Pentacles

8 of Pentacles


Wednesday, May 19, 2010

As I mentioned in the previous entry above I play with my smallest deck of tarot cards almost every day and in the process one or more cards appear to reveal themselves to me and this morning was no different and three cards kept appearing as I went through the deck today.

Ace of Wands

10 of Swords

8 of Swords

My hunt to source out a crystal ball locally is not going very well but I am not dismayed as the the crystal ball that is right for me will come along when the time is right.  As I read, study, and meditate the stronger I feel the need to actually hold and feel the crystal before I decide to buy it as the ball and I must be able to feel and communicate with each other before I leave the store with one.  This can not be done if I order one online.  I thought it would be okay to do so but after reading about how to choose a ball and meditating upon it I know that this cannot be be done online so I must be patient and allow the crystal ball and I to come together at the appropriate time.

I appear to be having visions if you will about the spiritual world and/or another dimension.  Last night after closing my eyes briefly in order to just "be" weird images came into my mind that were beyond human understanding as they were quite surreal and fantastical but enjoyable enough to see.

XI Strength

Confronting problems, strength of will.  Urged to control negative impulses such as jealousy, anger, and spite, and instead to direct this emotional energy into more positive expressions in order to overcome obstacles to happiness and fulfillment.

This is a very fitting card for me not only for today but each and every day as I am sometimes overcome with and overflow with negativity.  Thank you to the eternal cosmos.

Ace of Wands

New beginnings, creativity, and inventiveness but warns against false starts, motivational problems, and frustration.  If I have done my homework and planned well I should expect to see that my creativity, enthusiasm, innovation, and ambition will help me in achieving what I desire. 

However, the opposite can also be said if my timing is wrong or my initiative and commitment wain.  If I have planned poorly and have over inflated expectations I will be overcome with disappointment and frustration.  Tarot, Collins gem, Stuart, Rowenna (2005, 129)

And also today can be seen as a good day to start new enterprises or beginning a journey and that I could also be frustrated by not having answers to the questions others ask.  Tarot, Running Press, Dennis Fairchild (2002, 78)

The more I meditate and communicate with the eternal cosmos the stronger the feeling is that I should quit my day job and instead focus on my own little business desires such as making cards, Tarot, Divination through Scrying, and Ventriloquism.  I need to take a chance and risk on myself and see whether or not I can survive on my own.  As I mentioned before where I work pays the bills and there is no arguing with that but it is unfullfilling and really holding me back from finding the success I desire.  I would rather be laid off and have a chance at getting a small severance package and being able to collect Employment Insurance but that does not seem likely at this point.  Quitting the job is something that is in my control and I can easily do it but then I have nothing to fall back on and then must work feverishly to get my own little business enterprise off the ground so I can at least try and earn a few dollars from it.  When I think about doing this I see myself working from my RV and having good results from doing so.

Meditation is a great way to start the day and I have sat down two or three days this week doing it 10 -15 minutes is all I get through but surprisingly I can clear my mind out rather well in this short amount of time so I look forward to entering longer meditational periods to see what can happen.  Even with doing such a short meditation I do find subtle changes in myself such as being a little bit my positive about my life and day to day living.  I a becoming more patient and tolerant with other drivers on the road and I am listening to and trusting my intuition a little bit more and finding good results from doing so.

So for now that is what I have to say for this 13th day of May, so long for now. . .

Review of the last several days. . .

Saturday, May 8, 2010

As my partner was getting a haircut I was waiting for him in the Food Court of the Aberdeen Mall.  I was reading and meditating as best I could in the busy mall.  My concentration was quite superb considering all the people milling about the mall.  I finished reading the book about Mediumship and started to read Crystal Ball Gazing.  Both great books for those who have an interest in either of these subjects such as I do.

At 12:03PM I was flipping through the Collins gem Tarot book when the Queen of Cups revealed herself to me: sensitive, mature woman, intuition; unreliable woman, unstable character.  Capricious.

Also, strong thoughts and overpowering sensation: Quit my job!  Quit your job!  Quit the job!  Quit, quit, quit. . .move on. . .the time to move on is now. . .the time to move on has come. . .

Monday, May 10, 2010

Spiritualism, Mediumship, Tarot, and Divination/Scrying

I've been fussing over how to earn money without working a regular day job so-to-speak and each time I glance at "Help Wanted" ads nothing jumps out at me.  And as I was looking at one last ad in the tv/film/video section a thought came to mind that I just need to focus on improving my skills set of writing a blog as well as in the area of spiritualism, mediumship, tarot, and divination/scrying and I will well established in my skills so that I can easily quit my current day job and go to work in the metaphysical world using my skills and passions to pave the way for me to financial freedom.  No the road will not be easy but I will be doing what I love most and that will be my greatest asset.

Each time I see an RV of any type on the road I know I am on the right path in my desire to be doing the same.  A truck towing a large fifth wheel just drove by the office and immediately my mind was filled with great feelings of joy and love.  Even coming to work today as the train was traveling along the Lougheed Highway I glanced out the window only to see a small Class C motorhome cruising down the highway, well it was in a line of traffic stopped at a light but hey to me it was cruising down the highway none-the-less.  Awesome and so sweet to see.

I've been thinking about purchasing a crystal scrying ball for some time now and I think I am close to making a purchase but I first want to visit Dragon Space on Granville Island to see what they have in that area as I do vaguely recall that they had what I believe to be a crystal ball on the shelf many months ago.  So a crystal ball is definitely in my future.

11:00am Tuesday, May 11, 2010

I was looking out the door at work watching a robin and a crow looking for food when out of the corner of my right eye I could swear I saw a little faerie standing  no more than a couple of feet away from me. She had long golden hair and a beautiful full length dress/gown.  Crazy?  Probably not, just a sure sign that my journey is progressing as it should.

Yesterday, I was contemplating all day about the possibility of renting some retail space across the street from where we live but as I go about the day today that thought has been blown away by the wind.  Today, my thoughts are on focusing my attention on my passions and pursuing them with a vengeance for lack of a better word at the moment.  I think my energies are best spent on the things I love to do and that is all about the paranormal and RVing with the hobbies of handcrafted cards and ventriloquism coming along for the ride.

As I sit here in the office I call my prison cell (my day job) my deepest thoughts and feelings and best guess at what my intuition is telling me revolve around quitting my job so I can focus my energies elsewhere.  When I allow this thought to proceed and evolve I see a great abundance of positive energy surrounding me and my life situation vastly improving.  My writing improves, my blogs are read and I actually earn an income from my blogs as well as my spiritualist pursuits.  The RV is my home and the highway is my destination for it leads to all places and the blacktop never ends so my journey is one that is in constant motion and surrounded by much positive energy and the white light of knowledge, wisdom, and protection.

 Wednesday, May 12, 2010


The day is starting out pretty okay and although I have a bit of a headache I am feeling pretty darned good today.  The sun is shining, the air is warm, and life is good.

The Ace of Cups revealed itself to me: happiness, deep relationships, creativity; watch out for: emotional upsets, insecurity, and anxiety.  Sensitivity, self-awareness, and intuition, creative outpourings or spiritual experiences are also indicated.

As I am looking to purchase a crystal ball I have searched the internet to see what I could find and so far if I cannot source one locally that is I may purchase a crystal ball from Allegheny Candles and New Age Shop.  Vancouver is unfortunately not kind to new age stores of any kind and most stores that may carry just a few items of interest to any one interested in New Age products always seem to close down.  So I may need to purchase any stuff of interest to me online or go without.


Tonight the International Spiritualist Alliance is meeting in New Westminster and I must decide whether or not I will go and check this group out.  They are having an Open Circle-an evening of self-awareness with a relaxing guided meditation followed by a fun exercise to try your mediumistic abilities.  The also meet on Sundays.  So I will allow the day to decide for me and I shall know by this evening whether or not I am going.  Next Wednesday, May 19th they have a demonstration of Mediumship so I need to think long and hard about my desires to learn about this subject on my own or through joining a group such as this.

Off I go to get on with my day. . .thanks for stopping by. . .

Two of Pentacles/Coins or Page of Pentacles/Coins

Last night as I lay down to bed the clock struck 11:00PM and I was immediately struck with an image of this time representing the card for the coming day - today.  At first I took this two be the Two of Pentacles but the Page of Pentacles has also come to mind so I am in a bit of a quandary as to which card should be my card of the day.  Perhaps, both cards are representative of my day and as I reflect on this and allow what I read about each card permeate my mind the two cards are in fact my card of the day.

Neither card bothers or disturbs me in any way so I accept them both as having importance this day.

The first reading I made of the Two of Coins (Collins gem, Rowenna Stuart, 2005) talks about fluctuating fortunes and prudence where it points to possible problems and setbacks it also points out that these can be overcome by the strength of my character and adaptability.  So I must guard against loss of focus and self-confidence.

Again referring to Collins gem, the Page of Coins points to scholarship, good news, and creativity.  This is quite apt for the focus of my day as it points to creative of psychic arts as this card points out.  I may also be the recipient of good news and or financial improvements.

So all in all I am quite happy with these two cards representing my day today.

When I look at the Running Press' Tarot, The Complete Kit, I read that I need to let go of something old in preparation for new opportunities and I must keep my eyes and ears peeled for opportunities.  I must also act with integrity if I am to find success.

As I was reading "Beginner's Guide to Mediumship" written by Larry Dreller and published by Wesier Books, 1997 I came across the term Spiritualist and was reminded of a business card I had made for myself that described me as a Spiritualist so I did some research on this.  My research has led to an amazing discovery that Metro Vancouver is home to a couple of different Spiritualist churches.  In fact, the International Spiritualist Alliance is only a few blocks from where I live.

In reading information about these churches I am inclined to pay the church near my home a visit either this weekend or the following Wednesday as I do very much like the atmosphere that this institution appears to have.  I believe that matters are progressing just as they should be and I feel pretty darned good about it all.

I slept through the night almost until the alarm so I got out of bed and took the alarm out of the bedroom so my partner who also was stirring could sleep a little bit more.  Although, I thought I slept well because I did not wake up through the night I have since discovered that I was very active with the Spirit World last night.  I do not have any "real" proof that this occurred but I have a hazy feeling that I was not alone if you will and perhaps even experiencing an OBE (out of body experience).  Am I bit crazy?  Perhaps, but this is my story and I'm sticking to it.

Thanks fro being here and until next time I bid you peace. . .

The Queen of Pentacles

The last few days I have been working with Tarot but not through reading cards or by randomly selecting a card for the day but rather through holding the smallest deck of Tarot cards in my hands.  I read the description for the Fool and have a pretty good understanding of that card for now.

The other card that has made its self known to me is the Queen of Pentacles.  This card has been on my mind for a few days now so I feel no choice but to mention and write about this card since it has taken a firm hold of my mind as of late.

The Queen of Pentacles refers to me perhaps doubting that I can live up to my responsibilities but also asserts that I need to believe in myself without looking for approval from others.  I should realize benefits from this if I work independently in my own way.  I must also be persistent and stay focused by not letting others scatter my energies or sway me off course.

This is a very accurate card as of late as I have lost my focus and it is not because of any one else and is solely the result of my multiple personalities trying to take me in ten different directions.  I need to focus on the goal at hand and that is to get into an RV and live life the way I most desire.  Crafts are a means of achieving independence on the road.  I need such tangible items such as my handcrafted cards and perhaps the spool-knit toques to succeed in the RVing lifestyle and way of life.

In addition, I need to polish up my resume and post it on my blogs and website so that I open myself up to opportunities that are out there waiting for me to make myself known to those who could use my talents to improve their situation.

I will not give up on ventriloquism, Tarot cards, or mediumship but I do need to focus on building products that practically sell themselves if I expect to survive on the road.

I also need to fine tune my writing skills and learn more about blogging so that I can improve my blogs and website and attract a loyal readership and possibly earn a little income in the process as I would like to continue working on a book I have been writing over the past decade or so and possibly publish it through whatever means make most sense come the time to publish my work.

As I read blogs related to RVing I often serendipitously come across an entry that really appeals to me in some way such as this one : Life on the Open Road.  The entry is titled "Sacred Dirt" and is dated May 28, 2007.

I now have another destination in my mind for my not too far RVing excursion.

So as I continue on my journey I must bid you a so long for now and lets get together soon. . .

Tarot Decks Under the Full Moon (Wind Moon)

Last night during the Full Moon, the Wind Moon, I took three of my decks of tarot cards outside to be energized by the Full Moon.  The night was windy and cool but not uncomfortable.  I held each of the decks individually in my hands and said a small blessing as well as give thanks for having the cards in my life as well as to the divine conscious for blessing them with the energy of the cosmos.

It felt great holding the unwrapped decks in my hands and the night was electrifying.  Each deck will have its own purpose and place and I will do my best to work with them and Tarot so that my knowledge and interpretation of the cards only grows stronger and more intuitive as well as being beneficial for all of humankind.

Crystal Ball Gazing, Beginner's Guide to Mediumship, and Tarot for Writers

The other day I ordered a few books from Amazon.ca.  I am increasingly finding myself on a path that I was avoiding in some respects because I never thought it to be feasible path for me to take but these past few days more like weeks have seen this path take on more importance and prominence in my day to day activities so I am going to dabble in it to see where it leads.  The books I purchased are: Crystal Ball Gazing, Beginner's Guide to Mediumship, and Tarot for Writers.

Some time last year I visited a store called Millennium at a local mall and I was drawn to a crystal ball and stand on display.  I resisted the urge to buy it on the spot vowing to think about it and return should I feel it was a wise purchase.  A couple of weeks ago, my partner and I were at the mall so I decided to take another look at the crystal ball only to discover that the store was closed and out of business.  I have searched online since then looking for a similar crystal ball and stand but cannot find it anywhere.  Sacred Mists has similar items but nothing that speaks to me.  The crystal ball stand was I think made from a resin.  The crystal ball was cradled by hands and the energy emanating from this ball and stand was very powerful.  But, alas I no longer know where to look for or find this exact crystal ball and stand.  I am at a loss as where to look, what to do, or how I should proceed as I really believe that this particular ball and stand are the best fit for me and I do not want second best so-to-speak.

I've had dreams where I was reading tarot cards and gazing into my crystal ball while traveling around the continent in my trust RV, Ms. Lucille/Esmeralda.  I feel a strong connection to the divine cosmos and myself through working with the Tarot and eventually crystal ball gazing.  I have been fascinated with these areas since I was a child and so I will continue gaining knowledge and wisdom in these areas as they are one of my biggest passions.  Making handcrafted greeting cards is somewhat of a passion as well but not nearly as strong as the occult so making cards will be my job, an enjoyable one at least and tarot, crystal ball gazing, and mediumship will remain my passions.

Tonight is a full moon so I will unpackage all of my Tarot decks and connect with each of the decks for short time throughout the evening.  The 2010 Witches' Calendar calls tonight's full moon, the Wind Moon and according to that website:

"This is a good time to work on magic related to new beginnings. Looking to bring new love into your life, or conceive or adopt a child? This is the time to do those workings. It's the time to stop planning, and start doing. Take all those ideas you've had brewing for the past couple of months, and make them come to fruition. "

So I will stop planning and start doing.  I will finally consummate my relationship with the Tarot.

XII The Hanged Man

Today's card, XII The Hanged Man is well-suited for today as it reflects my mindset today and the fact that I am at a cross-roads so-to-speak.  I am deciding to embark on a new path although, realistically speaking it is not so new but more of truer following of the path I'm already on.

Transition, sacrifice leading to fulfillment.  But for me it is more about being a wake up call to get off my butt and truly practice what I preach.  I'm talking the talk if you will but not going that one step further and walking that talk as this card also warns about personal stagnation and resistance to change.



I must truly put my priorities in order and begin to truly pursue this path I set out on so many, many years ago.  I need to dive in head first and allow myself the joy and pleasure of experiencing life for what it truly is.  I will let you know how I make out as I will do my best to post daily the happenings of my metaphysical/spiritual pursuits.

Last night I was awoken several times by movement about the condo.  Although, I saw no physical presence to be alarmed about there was definitely activity going on about the condo while we slept.  I am certain now that I have reflected on this that we had immense spiritual activity taking place in our condo last night.  After getting out of bed this morning I could definitely feel some residual energy about the place that was not there the night before.  Nothing to be alarmed about but rather something to take notice of and pay attention to when it happens again and happen it will.

As I think I mentioned before I own four tarot decks and have only opened and used one deck - the Thoth Tarot Deck: Ordo Templi Orientis deck by Aleister Crowley so my mission moving forward is to use each and every deck.  I love the history and symbolism of the Tarot as well as feel a strong connection to it so I need to do these decks justice and crack open the three remaining decks and let them communicate and work with me as they want and I want them to.

For some time I felt reluctant to use the decks at home but this feeling has subsided and has since been replaced with the energy and knowledge that the time to use them is right and is now rather than later.  I am ready to start and tonight may be just the time to open up one of those decks and allow the cards and the energy they offer make their presence felt in our home. . .

Queen of Wands

Queen of Wands - I must keep my feet planted firmly on the ground.  I need to ensure that my goals, ideas, and dreams are solid and achievable and not just pie-in-the-sky pipe dreams or I will surely encounter disappointment and depression if I pursue an unrealistic dream or goal.  I must also make sure that I do not take any unnecessary risks.  From the book I see that I need to believe in myself and be not afraid to take the lead.  Also, I can expect to receive answers when I discuss things out with friends/lovers.  I am also encouraged to write letters, make calls, and send faxes.  Dare to dream. . .

Trust and Faith in One's Self

I realize that it has been some while since I posted here and I do apologize for that but it is not because I have forgotten about this blog but rather life getting in the way.  Not that life really gets in the way but rather that I have too many things on my plate to be able to manage them all well.  I have had experiences with the Tarot between my last entry and this one but I do believe that I failed to record the cards chosen on any of the days where I may have in fact been in communications with the Tarot.

Today though, the Ten of Cups came out of my mouth as I was coming to sit down and do an entry so today's card then is the Ten of Cups.  Having this card come to mind feels very good and upon reading the brief description of the card I do indeed confirm my good feelings about the day.  Yes, I still read the descriptions as I am still learning to feel, live, and know the cards as a part of me.

The Ten of Cups represents achievement, commitment, and good marriage with just a hint of tenseness in relationships and disruption thrown in to spice things up a bit.  I cannot relate to the unhappiness that can also be represented by this card because overall I am not a truly unhappy kind of guy, not today at least.

I am not sure what to make of the idea that has come to mind lately about quitting my job but I somehow feel that this is related to the direction my life is supposed to be taking these days.  Back when I was younger doing such a thing would be an easy undertaking but today however, I feel a bit uneasy about taking such a risk.  But when I think about the risk I would be taking I hear a little voice in the back of mind telling me to trust myself and to have faith in my abilities to support myself with or through my own resources.  I look at myself and I see that yes I do have things going for me but it is the fear of taking that first step that is holding me back from up and quitting a secure job.

Trust and faith are what I need to believe in myself and my abilities. . . I can do this. . .

Wicca, Tarot, Metaphysics, and even Christianity

Monday, April 6, 2010 Tarot Card of the Day is the Three of Cups – abundance, celebration, creativity and also potential for selfishness and relationship problems.

Wednesday, April 8, 2010 Tarot Card of the Day is XIV Art - unification of opposites, balance; inner change, transformation, alchemy, a quantum leap; creative power.  Also from Rider-Waite XIV Temperance - self assurance, capability, and harmony but also could denote discord and impatience.

As I continue to work with Tarot I am moving forward with fulfilling many of my dreams and goals.  This journey began many years ago and has been a journey of reckoning for me if you will.  I have had to delve into my deepest consciousness and learn my true identity and deal with things that I never thought I would have to deal with but I have survived.

Wicca, Tarot, Metaphysics, and even Christianity for that matter have all played a role in my successful journey to this point in time and I am sure will continue to play a role as I move forward with my life anew.

As I reflect on my journey I gain a better understanding of where I have been, who I was, where I am going, who I am now, where I will go, and who I will be when I get there.  Although, I must admit that the journey is all encompassing and a destination may never come to be.

As I move forward in my life and as I uproot myself from life in a stick and brick home as well as remove myself from stable employment and income I will strive to live and learn and travel the roads of my dreams for as long as the journey will last.  You see I am in the process of transitioning from a "real" home to a home on wheels.  I will be living my life from the comforts of an older but beautiful and trusty little RV I call Ms Lucille or possibly Ms Esmeralda.

For now my destination is unknown.

Dandelions

As Spring makes its presence known Dandelions are popping up here and there.  Where many see a terrible weed I see a beautiful and under appreciated flower.  I love the bright yellow flower and even the jagged leaves below.  The weather is not perfect for this time of year but I love each day the same whether the sun is shining or the sky is filled with clouds and rain.  Each day is a wonderful blessing.

Today the Tarot card that revealed itself to me is from the Major Arcana and is the number 5 card, the Hierophant in the Crowley deck or The Pope in the Rider-Waite Deck.

Crowley describes the cards as divine wisdom, inspiration, stubborn strength, toil, endurance, persistence, teaching, help from superiors, patience, organization, peace, goodness of heart, and occult force voluntarily invoked.

From the Collins Gem book "Tarot" the key themes are conformity and good counsel.

Last night I was also thinking about my first cautious approach into Wicca.  Not long after I started my job in 1999 one of the people I worked with discovered my interest in it and soon brought a book for me to borrow that really peaked my interest in this alternative spiritual realm.  The book I still have as the person that lent it to me was let go from the company, not her fault I might add so the book sits on my shelf ready for me any time I need it.

It is title "Wicca" and was written Vivianne Crowley and published in 1996, follow the link below for more information on the book:

Wicca by Vivianne Crowley

Soon I purchased another book on Wicca and it was written by Scott Cunningham and what a great find this book was.  It simplified Wicca for me and allowed me to pursue and study it as a Solitary Wiccan:

I then purchased a few more of his books as well:

Great simple books to read and follow.  And of course, you can also go it alone using these as reference guides much the way I did it myself.

Then my spirituality evolved and now I blend many different spiritual paths into my own form of practice and study and my life is much the better for it.

May you be filled with much success in your pursuit of your own spiritual needs.

Until next time I wish you well and may all enjoy the weekend ahead!

Life is wonderful!

Yesterday's card and today's cards:

March 30th - 7 of Wands - Valour - courage, daring; impact; taking risks; no compromises

March 31st - 2 of Cups - Love - receptive love; happy relationships; emotional exchange.  I surrender to life!

When I reflect on these cards I cherish what they mean to me and how reading and thinking about the meanings of these cards affects my life and the influences they have as I move forward.

I find myself on a new and uncharted path and so far I am enjoying the journey.  Yesterday or the day before I read a news release about a singer and in this article they reference a statement he made on twitter and what caught my attention was a quote he values from Martin Luther King Jr.

"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter. M.L.K.Jr.”

I also value you this quote and maybe reading this quote is what made the 7 of Wands card appear to me yesterday.  The card is about standing my ground and remaining true to my energies and MLK's statement reflects my beliefs and values in life.

May we all make a stand and let our voices be heard when things are important to us and threatened.

The cards  and book I most refer to are for the Crowley Tarot - Thoth and if you would like to learn more about this book and deck of cards please check out the links below:

TAROT: MIRROR OF THE SOUL [HANDBOOK FOR THE ALEISTER CROWLEY TAROT]

Thoth Tarot Deck: Ordo Templi Orientis

Tarot cards Revealed

Friday, March 19th - XX The Aeon (Crowley) and Beyond Judgment (Gay Tarot) and II The High Priestess (Crowley) and The Intuitive (Gay Tarot).

These two cards represent my Personality and Soul cards.

Sunday, March 21st - The Knight of Cups (Rider-Waite) - easily led, new opportunities, and creativity.
Monday, March 22nd - all cards because its my birthday.
Tuesday, March 23, Wednesday, March 24th, and Thursday, March 25th - CONFUSION!
Sunday, March 28th - XVI The Tower - drastic changes, unexpected events, and new life.

I was hoping that I could peruse my tarot cards a little more at home or at work but it just does not feel right at all to do so.  The energy is all wrong for me to try and work with tarot at either of these places any more than I am doing now so I must remain satisfied with this set-up I have now and work toward something better once I live in the RV.

I will return to reading and studying the books I have on Tarot and go from there.  The Tarot is strong in my life so I will not lose what I have today so I can rest assured that Tarot will work with me until such a time exists for me to really pull out the cards and do a few working for myself and others.

That's all for now. . .

Yesterday and Today's Card Is. . .

XVII The Star - serenity, renewal, and hope.

This is a very positive card symbolized by calm and serenity especially after a tough period.  As the Collins Gem "Tarot" book states "one in which the Querant's true beliefs have been severely tested.  Confidence, hope, inspiration and attainment of cherished goals will all be features of the Querant's life."

This is somewhat true and significant about what I appear to be going through these days and the dark clouds are giving way to brilliant sunshine.  The Star is definitely a card that suits my life over the past couple of days.

Time Can Pass by so Quickly

So many days since my last entry.

On Friday, March 12th the card that revealed itself to me was from the Major Arcana, XIX The Sun - success, joy, and achievement.

On Saturday and Sunday, March 13th and 14th the card was again from the Major Arcana, I the Magician - confidence, good communications, and practical skill.

On Monday, March 15th the card that came to mind was another from the Major Arcana, XV The Devil - bondage, self-delusion, and anger.

Today, the card is not from the Major Arcana and is instead from the suit of Cups as in the The Three of Cups - abundance, celebration, and creativity.

I can say without a doubt that each of these cards is very fitting for each and every day they came into my mind and I also have no doubt that the same cards would have been revealed had I randomly selected them from my deck of Rider-Waite Tarot cards.

And just to review that during my two week vacation in Boston and New York although not actively working with Tarot in any sort of way I did in fact feel Tarot at work in my life during that wonderful vacation.