The Four of Pentacles and Bringing Balance Into Your Life Through Faith

Another relaxing day even though we were out and about for someone's haircut, a walk around Steveston, an afternoon coffee and pastry and our weekly grocery run.

Spirit Is and today's Pagan Tarot Energy is the "Four of Pentacles: Our Witch is shopping - a very pentacles-oriented task.  She's using the money she earned to buy food.  She doesn't look very happy and she has an awful lot in her cart.  It seems as though something else rather than realistic need is driving her behaviour.  Fours represent stability.  But stability can become extreme.  In her case, fear of running out of food is causing her to buy too much.  If he goes much further, she could start hoarding and become selfish and greedy.  Everything needs balance.  Buy enough food but have faith that you can get more... you don't have to hold on so tightly."

Think about balance and better yet having faith is the message of the day.  Faith holds everything together and brings much needed balance into our lives.  Especially faith based on experience, something I'm reminded of today after weeks of stress and anxiety and patience wearing thin, today my faith is renewed because I've experienced the love and support of the universe many times over the years and this moment in the here and now is and will be no different than those experiences of the past.

Thank You Spirit.

VII The Chariot and a Healthy Ego

Another wonderful day welcomes me out of my slumber-the Sun is shining brightly and nature is in all her glory.  Thank You Spirit.

I had a good day yesterday even though I had to create a bit of a mess in order to fix and make something look better than it was.  I’m speaking of my RV of course, such a great learning experience in the sense of gaining knowledge and talents I didn’t have before as well as Spiritually where I’m becoming a much stronger Spiritual person and more focused on Spirit as a whole rather than just myself.  But it was much too hot to work too far into the afternoon so I quit working on the RV around 2pm and came home.

With the air conditioner turned on I enjoyed a late afternoon of relaxation and Spiritual connectedness.  This became a quiet evening that included a walk along the river again-a beautiful evening for it.  Again, Thank You Spirit.

Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is “VII The Chariot: Among the highs and lows of life, make sure you enjoy the highs.  At the top of one’s. Seizing an opportunity.  Having everything under control (barely).”

I also read that this card also represents a healthy ego-where strength and self-assuredness make for a winning effort when tied to concentration and faith in your abilities.  So with this in mind I will release my healthy ego and let it rule the day.  I see my goal is at hand and very much within my grasp, a little bit more time and effort and I shall no I am in fact already living some of my dream to a degree so just plod along I will to continue living my dream life.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Spirit Is My Life

A new month is upon us.  On Monday, I have a day of training with Elections BC.  I’ll be updating the Voter’s List for the Province of British Columbia as a Door-to-Door Enumerator for a couple of weeks.  If I survive this position I will take up the role as a part-time Office Support Worker through April and into May.  A nice way to be involved in the political/democratic process.

I slept fairly well and I just lost my faint memory of one of my dreams as I got to thinking about it.  I vaguely recall some young people...hhhmmm...I get a sense that it was a good dream...but I do remember having a bit of a frustrating day trying to watch streaming videos yesterday afternoon.  It took me almost three hours to watch a 42 minute episode of a television program I wanted to watch...argh...it got better with the next few episodes though...Thank You Spirit.

Speaking of Spirit, “Spirit Is My Life” is something I picked up on while trying to relax yesterday afternoon and this really makes sense as I’ve felt a great deal of peace and security over the last several days.  Having said that, I need to stay singularly focused on my true dreams and goals otherwise I’m fighting against the wind all for naught.  I cannot keep shifting my goals and dreams from one thing to another or I’ll never live life to its, to my fullest potential.  No more fear, faith and trust are all I need along with a little courage and perseverance.  Thank You Spirit.

Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the Youth of Swords: Curiosity.  Research.  Computers, e-mail.  Immature communication.  Spying (or "hacking")."  I must admit that this card is not speaking to me in a way I understand.  I’m at a loss for words here and feel like I missing the obvious.  Maybe that’s the point of the card, I’m looking to hard, relax and let Spirit speak to you and do its work.

Thank you Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Faith, Trust, and Courage

I was feeling kind of blue again upon awaking but meditating for a few moments with crystals in my hands and thinking about and talking with the Goddess and God soon dispelled the blues from my mind.  I was soon reminded of the comforting motherly figure who visited me in my thoughts and dreams last night and how I need not worry and cause myself stress about my present situation of being unemployed and under a small burden of debt. 

All is right in my world and I am in a good place is what I now feel with my heart and soul.  I am on the right path.  Three words that kept repeating over and over in my mind were faith, trust, and courage.  Faith, trust, and courage.  Faith, trust, and courage in myself.

Thank You Gracious Goddess and God.

And good luck to everyone on the east coast having to dig out of all that snow.  Be careful and keep safe and warm.  Blessings.

Spirit Is and Today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “Guide of Coins: Seeing the magic in the mundane.  Spiritual fulfillment from nature.  Finding joy in the ordinary.”

As I shuffled the cards outside on the deck birds were singing and nature was full of life.  No sounds of the city to be heard. . .for a quick moment in time nature was all that I knew and felt—the river flowing to meet the ocean, the birds greeting the morning in song, and Mother Earth wrapping her arms around me in a loving embrace.

Trust, faith, and courage. . .

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Faith

We had what I’ll term a “busy day”.  Mid morning we met my brother, aunt, and two uncles for breakfast/brunch around 11am.  We sat at the Knight and Day Restaurant at King George Blvd and 96th in Surrey until 2pm eating, visiting, and chatting and having way too much coffee.  We made it home and relaxed until our next scheduled event between 6:30 and 7pm at Taverna Greka here in New Westminster to join 12 or 13 others for dinner and to celebrate our friends 39th birthday.  Both food and company were great.  We left this event around 9:30, maybe 10pm.  We made it to bed around 11:30pm after relaxing a bit after our long five minute walk home.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is “XV Self-Hatred: The trap to avoid for all minorities.  Unconsciously accepting societal norms.  Low self-esteem.” 

I must always strive to be myself and not become part of the societal flock that is blind to the fallacies of the life they/we all lead.  I must believe in myself and my desire to be a craft’s person and a totally self-employed, self-sufficient individual living my life my own way and not by or according to another person's standards or expectations.  I say this because our birthday friend showed everyone the card I made him and the card and I received rave reviews.  I have talent and I must have faith in myself and what I can and desire to do.  I’m an RVer, craft’s person, ventriloquist, spiritualist, writer and traveler.

Thank you Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Belief and Faith

I slept very well last night so well in fact that I slept right through the night.  I was having weird but good dreams I guess involving our friends and neighbours downstairs. Then I started awaking and the dream faded into nothingness.

We have been experiencing a slight bug problem for th|e past several weeks and may have discovered why last night when after dinner and a shower I started cleaning out another cupboard that seemed to be housing quite a few bugs.  I discovered their breeding ground and home in a box of “red River” cereal.  At first when I peered inside the box I just noticed that the cereal was clumpy but then movement – aaahhh bugs.  So we emptied the cupboard entirely and washed it down leaving everything out overnight.  I put the things away and have not seen any bugs this morning.   Maybe they’ve taken up residence somewhere else.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “7 of Wands: Fighting the wind.  A quixotic struggle.  Winning against the odds.  Confrontation.”  I need to hold my head up, high, my courage strong, my will never-ending and my desire ever strengthening so I can overcome this ‘quixotic’ struggle once and for all.  I need to believe and have faith that I am succeeding, that my dream is alive and well and I’m living it this very moment.  My home is my RV most of the time and this home I’m in now is my refuge, my fortress, my security blanket when times get tough and I need to feel my partner next to me.

Thank you Spirit.

Blessed Be

What the Heck?

I must have been dreaming over the past several days because I could swear that I've blogged many days since the 3rd but that is the last post I see.  What was I doing if I didn't actually write the posts that I thought I wrote since the 3rd?

So since my last post I have not worked a single day for the new employer that hired me.  I called the local office in my area and they seemed surprised, confused and not at all interested in what I was telling them.  I called and managed to talk with the contact person who's name I'd been given but he stated that he was not the person in charge of new hires or their training and would email the parties responsible and they'd call me the next day.  Well, the week is coming to a close and I called on Monday, should have heard something on Tuesday and Friday is just a sleep away.  I'll call the human resources department of this company and see what if anything I can learn or get going in regards to my employment with this company.  I have a feeling that I'll be moving onto other opportunities.

I gotta have faith in myself, my dreams, and my goals.

Since last Friday these are the Tarot cards that have visited me:

Sunday, November 4th - XI Strength
Monday, November 5th - 3 of Swords
Tuesday, November 6th - Man of Swords
Wednesday, November 7th - III The Protector

and today's visiting Tarot card is the "4 of Swords" and yes I'm resting up and taking a time out this weekend.  We're going to visit Victoria on Vancouver Island.  This will be a nice little mini vacation so I can recharge and revive my faith in myself and my plans for the future.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Gainfully Employed But. . .

. . .it feels so wrong.

I like the company that I found employment with however being employed in this way or in such a manner feels wrong to me.  A certain part of me is happy as I am fullfilling the expectations of others but another part of me feels like I'm selling myself short by not following or fully pursuing my dreams.

This morning as I looked for and found my watercolour pencils and tested out a few colours I was filled with happiness and joy in knowing that this was me, this is what I enjoy doing yet I'm trying yet again to satisfy the expectations of others at the expense of dashing my dreams yet again.

Don't get me wrong though, I understand the need to be employed however I wish that employment to be for myself, me employing me and not having earn my keep through working for someone else, as in this case, a corporation.  It is a great company but again I'm not working for myself and again am putting my dreams on hold to satisfy others.

With that being said, I see this employment as temporary as I cannot fathom putting my dreams on hold for another three or four years in order to meet the expectations of others.  And in addition, the Tarot cards I've been visited by over the past months point to the need for me to have the courage to move forward for myself and yet here I am folding under the expectations and needs of others.  I need to rebuild my courage and stand up for myself and my needs and deal with the consequences as they come.  My needs have to be my priority.

It's so difficult to talk with anybody as everybody seems to be tied into telling me what I need and should be doing and that my dreams are unrealistic and it's better to look for work and do that instead of following my dreams.  I believe in my talents and abilities however my faith and trust in myself dwindles when others challenge and badger me into following the rest of the herd.  I need to have faith in myself and the courage to live my life for me.  I really need to be the author of my own life.

HELP!

Yesterday's visiting Tarot card is the "Man of Cups" and today's is "II The Intuitive".

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Trust and Faith in One's Self

I realize that it has been some while since I posted here and I do apologize for that but it is not because I have forgotten about this blog but rather life getting in the way.  Not that life really gets in the way but rather that I have too many things on my plate to be able to manage them all well.  I have had experiences with the Tarot between my last entry and this one but I do believe that I failed to record the cards chosen on any of the days where I may have in fact been in communications with the Tarot.

Today though, the Ten of Cups came out of my mouth as I was coming to sit down and do an entry so today's card then is the Ten of Cups.  Having this card come to mind feels very good and upon reading the brief description of the card I do indeed confirm my good feelings about the day.  Yes, I still read the descriptions as I am still learning to feel, live, and know the cards as a part of me.

The Ten of Cups represents achievement, commitment, and good marriage with just a hint of tenseness in relationships and disruption thrown in to spice things up a bit.  I cannot relate to the unhappiness that can also be represented by this card because overall I am not a truly unhappy kind of guy, not today at least.

I am not sure what to make of the idea that has come to mind lately about quitting my job but I somehow feel that this is related to the direction my life is supposed to be taking these days.  Back when I was younger doing such a thing would be an easy undertaking but today however, I feel a bit uneasy about taking such a risk.  But when I think about the risk I would be taking I hear a little voice in the back of mind telling me to trust myself and to have faith in my abilities to support myself with or through my own resources.  I look at myself and I see that yes I do have things going for me but it is the fear of taking that first step that is holding me back from up and quitting a secure job.

Trust and faith are what I need to believe in myself and my abilities. . . I can do this. . .