The Desert Is Calling and the 5 of Wands

Another month down and only ten more to go before 2013 is officially over and done with.  Not too far off at all, is it?  I had a weird night of sleep or lack of a good night’s sleep, feeling a bit off, possibly grinding my teeth.  But now I am awake.  For some strange reason even knowing that I can likely squeeze out another hour of sleep I always decide to get up as tiredness is still upon me.

Yesterday was a decent enough day, I hit the gym, did a little meditation, worked some energy into several decks of Tarot Cards and then felt drawn to the desert yet again.  I’m feeling a need to visit and live in the desert for awhile.  At one time I felt as if I was homesick and I wanted to return home again but it is more than that.  I feel as if there is something I need out there in deserts of Arizona, New Mexico, Nevada, California.  The place that really grabs my attention is I think called the Valley of the Monuments.  The desert is calling and I need to heed that call.  Firstly, I will visit the desert of southern BC.

Thank You Spirit.

Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “5 of Wands: The Hockey Game.  The project meets resistance.  Testing one’s ideas against others.  An enjoyable struggle.  Competition in the marketplace.”  The first thing that came to my mind upon seeing this card was participation and co-operation.  And last night before going to bed I looked at a certain website and mentally noted that I need to look at this site a little more, give it some thought and participate in the forums and groups it supports, some groups that I joined but have done nothing else with.

Also, I get a sense that I need to patch-up a certain thing and get mobile in order to grow and earn a living the way I most desire to.  So I’m hoping that the weather improves a little, as in dries out for more than an hour so I can get some work done outdoors and beautify my home on wheels so she looks good and is a proud little RV as she carries me on down the highway of life.  Got to get a move on!

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Being Organized and Focused and The 3 of Swords

Yesterday was a decent enough day.  I relaxed most of the day except for a quick trip to my RV to assess and decide on a plan of attack to get things done.  I took many photos of inside the rig but the only thing that crossed my mind while in the rig is the need to clean her up—get rid of all of the scrap wood and unnecessary items that are needlessly overcrowding the small space of my RV.  Anyway I did not do any of that as I need to break down some of the pieces and figure out where I can dispose of the wood scrap and other garbage.

We had a decent meal and quiet evening last night.  Dreams are nothing that I seem to remember, fleeting images are passing through my mind but nothing I can grasp onto and say, “Yes, that was my dream.”  I slept well though and awoke earlier than I thought I would, nothing wrong with that, I suppose.

Thank You Spirit.

Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “3 of Swords: The Wreckage.  Feeling heavy-hearted after an emotional storm.  Feeling hurt or betrayed.”  This is not the message I’m receiving from this card, rather it is more the sense of my need to do more diligent thinking and planning about my approach to the finishing touches on the rig as well as my with my current employment situation and the need to focus getting on top of filing my taxes.  Being organized and focused.

Thank you Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Become a Recluse For a Spell

Not sure what kind of sleep I had, I slept had another dream I wish I didn’t however it was what it was.  Perhaps, messages from my subconscious mind that I need make note of and use when making certain decisions.  Or simply fears working their way through and out of my mind.

For many months now I’ve been feeling the need to get away and be on my own for awhile and this is how I feel today—the need to get away and be on my own.  I feel like I need to be a recluse for awhile—a period of self-reflection, meditation, cleansing, magick, knowing, arriving...

Thank You Spirit.

Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is “IX the Hermit: To fully understand something, sometimes you must escape it.  Gaining perspective.  Solitude.  Study.”  Yup, I need time by myself.  I get into my RV, drive to a secluded forest service campground and simply “be” for a spell, then come back into the world and live my life, truly live my life with renewed hope and enthusiasm—with a Divine twinkle in my eye.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Endings are Beginnings

Got into bed well after midnight, likely closer to 1am as we hosted a small Oscar’s Party with a few friends and my brother and the last stragglers left close to midnight.  We struggled through the night to catch the show in its entirety as we were live streaming through the CTV website that likely could not handle the number of online viewers.  We do not have a TV cable subscription and were lucky enough to have a Canadian station stream it live on their website.

Other than the connectivity problems, the show was enjoyed along with dinner and dessert--Lasagne, my take on a Spinach Salad, and Lemon Squares, my dessert masterpiece apparently.

Thank You Spirit.

Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is “XIII Death: Endings are beginnings.  A phase of life is over.  Allowing time to mourn.  A part of yourself has outlived its usefulness.”  And taking into account my horoscope and it’s alluding to taking flight and soaring like an eagle I must break free from the chains that bind, separate myself from the status quo and move forward knowing that the future is mine to grab hold of, the future I dream of is attainable and just around the corner.

Faith.  Belief.  Trust.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Timelessness

Yesterday was kind of a lazy day yet we did a couple of things done-a grocery run for tonight’s dinner and appetizer and wine for last night’s dinner.  Last night we met up with friends for dinner and it was a very pleasant evening had by all!  The wine flowed, conversations were lively, fun and entertaining, the food filled a need, and dessert provided a sweet finish to an evening we all seemed to need and appreciated—a timeless evening.

Thank You Spirit.

Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “8 of Coins: The Factory.  Skill and mastery.  Tedious, repetitive labor.  Slow and methodical progress.”  I also like another bit I read from the book “Keywords for the Crowley Tarot”, Weiser Books, York Beach, ME, 2001, written by Hajo Banzhaf & Brigitte Theler “Lean back and let time work for you.”  And the word that came to mind when this card appeared is “patience”.  Good things will come with a little patience.

Timelessness happens when we do things we are passionate about.  Time slows or disappears altogether as we allow ourselves to become so immersed in what we are doing that “time slows down maybe stops for a spell” and we experience...what (we) can never be put into words and simply have to experience and know what we feel is real and something beyond ourselves and human comprehension...

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

10 of Wands - Thoughts of Travel

Had more strange dreams through the night—camping outside but coming to and then opening a door after crossing a grass field with people all around enjoying the sunny day—a slumber party of sorts where I arrived late at my own place and having to knock to be let in by my partner.  Bizarre.

I slept well otherwise.

Had an easy day, the excessive wind and rain kept me indoors all day so I did some touch-up painting, hung up a ceramic butterfly (inspired by Gaudi) we picked up in Barcelona last year, and danced around a little as the incense and candle burned, a little purification of self and space—felt really good to do that.  I’m comfortable with life at the moment—present day awareness with knowing my future is being created by me as I reaffirm, confirm my goals and dreams so I can send unified energy and thoughts out into the universe so my life is more well written, a little more planned and hopefully a little less chaotic and directionless.

Thank You Spirit.

Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “10 of Wands: The Burden.  Responsibilities.  Obligations.  Overcommitting yourself.  Realizing that burdens are a part of life."

I still get a sense of travel from this card and I guess it is a reminder that my travel will not be easy and maybe more burdensome that I’m thinking it will be—a little nudge asking me if I’m sure that this is what I really want to do—a lifestyle filled with as many if not more risks than rewards especially compared to what I have right here, right now, in the life I’m living in this, at this moment?

I’m ready for the future that unfolds before me, knowing that it is the future I desire, the future I live with purpose and mindfulness of the blessed life I live.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

The Rider Tarot Deck and X Wheel of Fortune

One month to go and I’ll be celebrating another birthday.

I had a few dreams last night one in which I was providing directions to a woman about how to get downtown and where to park.  I was trying to think of the streets and walk myself through the directions when a screen lit up before me and I could see the streets of Vancouver in real time and life size.  The woman then seemed to transform into my sister.  Then I think the next couple of dreams revolved around my RV, one I’m fuzzy on but in the other I was installing receptacles and running the wires to where they had to go. 

And related to my RV is this thought, these thoughts and ideas that I can somehow teach myself to be a mechanic and work on the RV myself, changing the oil, flushing the radiator, changing the air filter, installing new spark plugs, etc.  Very strange thoughts and they filled my mind again yesterday as I mucking about the RV.  Perhaps, guidance from my future self.

Then upon awaking, the thought of using the Rider Tarot Deck came to mind so I did my morning routine and grabbed the Rider Tarot Deck.  Thank You Spirit.

Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “Wheel of Fortune: Destiny, fortune, success, luck, felicity.”  Also, “increase, abundance, superfluity”.  I think I’m transcending the negativity I’ve thrown out it to the world over the past decade or so and I feel like I’m beginning to radiate more love and compassion into the world.  I feel more in touch with the universe, with Spirit, with the Divine Forces of Nature, with Earth, Gaia.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Thought Less

I’m at a loss for words today.  I just “am” and I’m satisfied with that.  I feel content today.  I had a decent sleep and awoke when I was ready to, I suppose.  My thoughts were nothing in particular, no glaring thoughts came screaming at me as I awoke to the conscious world and my mind is clear and totally at ease this morning.

Thank You Spirit.

Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the”6 of Cups: Happy Birthday.  Fond memories.  A gift given in friendship or love."  I’d say that no memories have coming rushing out of the deep recesses of my mind for me to reminiscing about however, I could be wrong but I can honestly say right now, at this very moment, I have no thoughts, I dare say that I’m in a thought less state this morning.  It would appear I have nothing to think about!

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Open My Eyes - VXI Revelation

I was doing my own thing yesterday when my partner called suggesting we go downtown, renew our passports, watch a movie and have dinner.  I was out of the house at the time working on my RVing Adventure so I had to race home, shave, eat lunch, and be ready to go rather quickly.  I did it, got home and shaved and was starting to eat when my partner came home from work.

We made it to downtown Vancouver between 1:30 and 2:00pm had our passport photos taken twice, time is ticking as it took awhile for the second ones to get printed—camera problems apparently.

Then we hustled down to submit our passport renewal forms with photos—oops the photos were not dated by the retailer—thankfully having the receipt was good enough-$87.00 later for each of us and we were on our within about an hour and we had an hour before movie time.

We had a quick coffee, tea and snack before the movie, “The Impossible” starring Naomi Watts,  Ewan McGregor, and Tom Holland.  My partner wished to see it more for the Spanish influence in the making of the movie more than anything else and seeing one of his favourite actors also may have had something to do with it as well.  I like the movie, it was well done, acting was superb, especially Tom Holland, great young and upcoming actor.

After the movie we decided to walk to pub we’ve been wanting to try for a long time but the timing was never right or it was closed but tonight we lucked out and had a decent meal at “Moose’s Down Under”, an Australian inspired restaurant, bar and grill.  The food was average to good but loved the atmosphere and the server was friendly and cheerful.  We’d probably do back.

Slept alright last night but awoke early as I did not appreciate the dream or dreams I was having, one seemed to want to stick around for awhile.  But I’m feeling pretty darned good after awaking in a bit of a funk, so thank you Spirit.

And before I forget the Moon looks amazing in the sky these days, haven’t seen her in awhile...

Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is “XVI Revelation: “While it is usually best to tell the truth about yourself to those who are close to you, it can be a painful experience.  A necessary destruction of the status quo.  Having to tell someone an unwelcome truth.  A new idea which upsets others.”  I need to open my eyes and see through the illusion.  I need to see through divine eyes and deal with whatever pain, hurt, and guilt that may come with the dawning of this new day.  Turning things upside down may be the best way to move forward with a clean slate and a new and fresh outlook at what is possible.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Will The Real Me Stand Up!

I slept okay, awoke and then my mind was taken over by swirling thoughts and worries that I thought I had overcome but alas they still haunt me.  My thoughts and worries are reflected in today’s card as is the way I often feel lately.  I’m doing my best to meditate and relax and focus on love and compassion and looking at the world through divine eyes so I pass no judgements and simply allow others to “be” including myself and so as not to allow all that is wrong in the world bring me down or affect me in a negative way.

So I am struggling with life and doing my best to allow love and light into my heart so that I become a better person and thus resonate that with the rest of the world.  The best way for me to do this is to be me, allow the real me to shine brightly in the world, no hiding behind masks or false facades, I simply need me to be me!

Thank You Spirit.

Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is “XV Self-Hatred: The trap to avoid for all minorities.  Unconsciously accepting societal norms.  Low self-esteem".  I am a good person and have a lot of love and talent to offer this world.  My goals and dreams are real and achievable and I need to keep them alive and allow them to come to life for me.  I deserve to happy and have the life I most desire.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Youth of Wands and V The Priest

7:48am.  It may be a gray and rainy morning but what a beautiful day it is.  My sleep was long and peaceful, my dreams albeit unremembered thus far were quiet, serene and full of life.

Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Cards are the “Youth of Wands: Focusing attention on something.  Reaching for a goal from a possibly unsteady foundation." and “V The Priest: The best way to help others is to help them make their own decisions.  Wisdom.  Advice.  A promise.  A ceremony  or ritual."  These two fell away together as I was getting ready to cut the deck and make my selection.  I guess they did that for me.

I realize that my goals and dreams and my insatiable desire to go after and fulfill them as soon as I can is putting on maybe a wee bit of a wobbly foundation from which to do it but I realize that I’ll need to ask for advice and assistance at some point because I can’t do everything on my own.  Some needs that especially concern the RV best be left to the experts.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Sunday Evening Thoughts

10:30pm and we are relaxing at home after taking in a few exhibits at the Museum of Vancouver this morning.  We enjoyed ourselves as we entered the world and mind of Tobias Wong, a designer, artist, a freethinking human being who tried his best to cast aside labels and definitions of either himself or his work.  We then browsed remnants of neon signs that once filled the streets of Vancouver, some worked others didn’t, rusty flaky paint on a few, while others lit up the room.  Then it was onto the sex exhibit and where sexual education takes place in the world, classroom, bedroom, on the street.  Lunch at Las Margaritas, coffee at Caffe ́ Artigiano, then homeward bound.  We had a good day hanging with our friend.

What I wanted to actually write about is the “10 of Wands” and what the image on the card evokes in me and that is travel.  Every time I see that card and its image I think travel.  I appreciate the interpretation of this card as well as the aspects and imagery of this card in other decks however this particular card from Gay Tarot really awakens the travel bug in me.

With that being said, it is likely that when I get onto traveling in my rig, my RV, my home on wheels the road is likely to a long hard haul with many a bump along the way.  This card appearing as often as it is provides me with a message that I need to be courageous and up to the challenges that will come with my decision to pull up my roots and drive away from the comforts of the life I’m now living.  Here right now my life is comfortable and relatively easy and relaxed but this will all end as soon as I pack my belongings and set forth on an adventure that is risky and full of the unknown.

When I get the RV back into relatively good shape I should come clean with owning her and wanting to set out on a road trip to test the water so-to-speak.  I’ll need to play my hand carefully and by ear and just go for it and see where the cards fall as I can no longer afford to keep this a secret any longer.

Thank You Spirit.

And I can also say the same about the “3 of Wands” as I’ve finally realized that it’s me that I’ve been nurturing and alongside of myself, my partner has also been nurturing me for the eventuality of me having to strike out on my own.  I’ve grown up some, still need to learn from making a few recent mistakes however I’m as ready as I’ll ever be to strike out and live a bit of this life on my own and under my own steam and responsibility.

Mind you having said all of this I may only take incremental steps in this new direction but the steps will surely grow ever larger the more I strike out on my own in my trusty little rig.  Maybe I’ll make my summer home at the Shadow Falls Campground out towards Harrison Hot Springs.  It’s got full hook-ups and it’s close to home.

Gotta do it!

Shadow Falls, here I come!

Woohoo!  Yee haw...

I need to keep focused on love, compassion, caring, nurturing Spirit, reminding myself that I cannot run away from anything and instead I must be heading toward something.  I need to be open-minded and honest, full of integrity and forthrightness and know that I’ve wanted to RV all of my life and that all I am trying to do is simply fulfill a dream of mine the best way that I can.

Thank You Again Spirit!

Getting It Done With the 10 of Wands

We made our drive out to the Township of Langley yesterday morning for our friends' birthday lunches.  Two friends are celebrating their birthday’s next week and conveniently they know each other and a total of nineteen people joined the two of them and their respective spouses for lunch at the Olive Garden – decent and good food but I would say it is overpriced for what you get.  Then my partner and I took a little bit of walk around the shopping district and found ourselves a new table runner for our new coffee table.  We came back home and then headed out for a quick walk around the 'hood and had an afternoon coffee and donuts at Tim Horton’s before coming back home and relaxing for the rest of the afternoon.

Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “10 of Wands: The Burden.  Responsibilities.  Obligations.  Over committing yourself.  Realizing that burdens are a part of life."  But all of this is leading to a life (my life) I want to live and lead.  I need to work hard to get where I want to be because I’ve made and luckily learned from my mistakes.  I’ve also broken free from repeating bad habits and behaviors and see my future much clearer than I have in the past.  I see my future and what it holds for me if I strive and work hard to get there.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Tender Loving Care and the 3 of Wands

Had a difficult time sleeping after awaking and then beating myself up over the things I should have done but didn’t do and how things would be so different now.  I lost a couple of hours of sleep doing that, thankfully, my tiredness and sleep overtook my thoughts.  What is done is done and I’m stuck here in the present as it is.  I need to accept the state of things as they are and move on, finding ways to build on my talents and possessions and make things work for me.

I have things I’ve always wanted to have and must ever be thankful for this.  I’m blessed with an RV and two ventriloquist’s puppets.  Sure the RV is old and a bit run down but as the phrase that came to mind this morning states, all she needs is a little bit of “tender loving care”.  I can do that, my horoscope and Tarot Card of the day re-enforce this idea and need for love to come pouring out of me, my heart and soul.  Love, work on my desires, goals, and dreams with love and sureness in my heart and I will succeed beyond measure.

No fooling myself though, it will be tough work and likely filled with many ups and downs but it so worthwhile because I’m doing out of love, love for myself, my partner, my family, my friends, and this wonderful world we live on.  Love.

I knew that today’s visiting Tarot Card was going to have an impact and boy does it ever.  Thank You Spirit!

Today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “3 of Wands: Leaving the nest.  Seeing progress.  Something or someone you have nurtured must now strike out on their own."  I must strike out on my own.  It’s time.  These last several weeks have really come together and made a difference in my life.  Wow!  I never thought about how much impact “love” could have on this world until this morning.  I’ve simply gone through the motions of “love” and not really “loving” as I should. 

Thank You Spirit! 

Thank You, Thank You, I cannot Thank You Enough for what you have done for me today.  Thank You Spirit for being in my life.  Thank You for Your Continued Presence and Guidance and may all that I do be out of Love and Harm None.

So Mote it Be.

Blessed Be.

Mysteriousness and XVIII The Moon

Awoke with haunting of repeating patterns and bad habits in my life.  I hope that this is the last time I think about them.  I must move onto better and brighter things and being debt-free is one of them.  I’m not sure how long it will take but I’m going to do everything I can to pay it off as soon as possible.  I want and have no debt in my life is what I must focus on.  Debt-free is what I am.  Got to keep this in mind always.
Thank You Spirit.

And now on with today’s visiting Tarot Card, “XVIII The Moon: Sexuality pulls us into a different, non-rational world which is sometimes frightening, always creative.  A sense of mystery.  Creative ideas which gestate in the subconscious.  Sexuality or sex".  I hope those creative ideas that gestate in my subconscious are making themselves known to me so I can put them all to good use in getting my life in order just the way I want it to be.

I’m taking my life on the road as soon as it is or as I soon as I make it possible and to do that, I guess I need to make it a priority.  Life on the road is what I most want and desire so I must strive to bring this to fruition.  Life on the road heading nowhere but always arriving somewhere.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Happy Valentine’s Day. 

Awoke after a decent night’s sleep that was very peaceful and loving.  This morning is a feel good kind of morning.  The air has a nice freshness and warmth to it and is welcoming too!  I feel great when I go outside for a few moments every morning, taking some deep breaths and simply allowing the time to be.

Today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “Man of Swords: Man of Swords: A rational, scientific approach.  A thorough investigation.”  And the phrase that came to mind when I first looked at today’s visiting Tarot Card is “Go For It”.

I think this phrase is linked to my rediscovery of a website that advertises RV related employment and in this case the advertised jobs are for camp host positions where they are looking for singles or couples to fill these openings.  I wonder if I could throw things together in life and my RV and be comfortable enough to do something like that!  Something I must remember to keep in mind and at top of mind.  I’ll print off a few pages from this site and try and keep it somewhere visible as a reminder of what I should be doing for employment as a wannabe RVer.

I'd like to also say thank you for all of the comments I have received now and in the past.  Unfortunately, I somehow deleted a few of the comments by mistake.  And I apologize for replying to some using the wrong name.  Thanks Again for Reading!

Thank You Spirit!

Blessed Be.

Under the Weather and Confused

Today I awoke when someone beside me was having a nightmare and I could not get back to sleep.  Awaking at 6:30am is alright but my partner had a difficult time sleeping last night and kind of kept me from sleeping as well.  So here I am trying to get on with my day, feeling a bit under the weather.

Today’s visiting Tarot Card is “XV Self-Hatred: The trap to avoid for all minorities.  Unconsciously accepting societal norms.  Low self-esteem".

This is what I wrote back on January 21, 2012:

“Collins gem suggests being trapped in a situation that is hard to break free from but recognizing one's bondage can also lead to actions being taken to one's self from that bondage.  The key is to focus on the positive, positive goals and what not that point into the right direction.  The key is not to deny the bondage or the weaknesses that it is pointing to!  I've allowed myself to sink too deep into what society wants of me and how society defines who I am and the person that I am expected to be.”

I’m still here in a world that does not accept square pegs struggling to find my way, to live life within the constraints that I’ve allowed to contain me for so long but I can’t do it anymore.  I’m in desperate need of new and ever changing surroundings and must somehow make it happen with what I’ve got, my meager talents and broken down, old, and dilapidated RV.

One thing I should make note of here is that I’ve trained myself, if you will, to come up with a single word or short phrase to describe the Tarot Card as soon as I see it and today’s one word description of “XV Self-Hatred” is “confused”.  Being under the weather and confused make for a great combination, I must say.  Should prove to be an interesting day.

Oh, please leave comments, if you wish.  I’d love to hear your input or contributions to what I write.  Thanks in advance.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Dreams Within Dreams

Dreams within dreams, an experience I do not remember having and a little bit off-putting but not really, at the same time.  I dreamed that I awoke to use the bathroom and came back to bed however, I then awoke from that dream but was still dreaming of a guy or was it a seal performing in a pool.  He was trying to play what I would say was basketball and he and his coach were trying to figure out a way of getting him more lift out of the pool in order to really shoot some hoops then I actually awoke from that, well kind of, maybe as I then was thinking about travel and the “10 of Wands” appeared, then I opened my eyes and it was two hours later than I thought it was.

So I’m not sure where my mind is at the moment but I am quite awake and in an odd state of mind.  I worked with Tarot and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “10 of Wands: The Burden.  Responsibilities.  Obligations.  Overcommitting yourself.  Realizing that burdens are a part of life."  I need to focus my energies if I really want to get out there and travel the roads of North America, if that really is my goal.

When the image of this card from the deck I’m using came to mind while I was dreaming I immediately thought of travel as this is thought, the idea the image evokes in me, plain and simple travel.  So seeing the 10 of Wands makes me want to travel however it is also sending me other messages as well, those of responsibilities and obligations, lack of focus, trying too hard to reach my goals.  I think I need to sit back and relax a little and just let things be, including myself.

One step at a time...no worrying...believe in myself and my abilities...tackle my dreams and goals with courage and conviction and forever strive to reach the “pot of gold at the end of the rainbow”.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Direction In Life

I had a very comfortable, restful, and peaceful sleep, don’t remember much about dreaming but what a great rest I had through the night.  I awoke with reverence to the Goddess and God filling my heart and soul and giving thanks with all of my being.  In my mind I had repeating over and over again, “Waxing, Waxing, Growing, Growing, Diana’s power is flowing, flowing” as written by Scott Cunningham in his book Wicca A Guide for the Solitary Practitioner.

I sat with Tarot before going out onto the deck to breathe in the sweet fragrance of the mist soaked air.  I love the mist because it is not heavy like rain but rather like a gentle caress of moisture as it touches you as it seemingly floats through the air. Today’s visiting Tarot Card is “XIV Temperance: Mix things up a little.  Combining separate elements to create something new.  Moderation (not too much of each flavour).  Flexibility.”

I referenced the Collins gem book on Tarot by Rowenna Stuart and was struck by this “The Querant may be uncertain about her direction in life and consequently may be prone to impatience, indecision, and hasty judgements at this time.”  This is exactly what I felt as soon as I read that statement.  As much I think I know the direction I want to go in life I waffle about it and think myself, well maybe, maybe not, should I, should I not?  If I’m confused imagine the Goddess and God and the Universe around me.  What a waste of energies my indecision is causing.

I need to get down to business and really decide one way or another, what it is I want to do with my life.  This is the perfect time to do it too as I’m in between jobs and have the freedom to make a decision and act on it before I get tied down to another job that will again hold me back from truly and once and for all pursuing my dreams and real goals in life.

Oh, thank you Goddess and God for bringing me into the Light.

Blessed Be.

Get Smart Today

Gung Hay Fat Choy!  Chinese New Year, the Year of the Snake.  “This 2013 year of Snake is meant for steady progress and attention to detail. Focus and discipline will be necessary for you to achieve what you set out to create. The Snake is the sixth sign of the Chinese Zodiac, which consists of 12 Animal Signs. It is the enigmatic, intuitive, introspective, refined and collected of the Animals Signs. Ancient Chinese wisdom says a Snake in the house is a good omen because it means that your family will not starve.”

I had a decent day and out of love, compassion and caring, made homemade remedies and went out for over the counter drugs to combat the nasty cold my partner has come down with.  I hope I can stay healthy and avoid it.

We watched “Eat Pray, Love” last night and I thoroughly enjoyed the movie.  The movie never really appealed to me before but I read a little more about it on one of my favourite blogs (RV-Dreams) so we gave the movie a chance and I’m glad we did.  It touched me in many ways and lessons were learned and I’ve got a lot more to learn and work through in my life.  It’s intriguing to me how certain books, words, articles, new stories, or even movies can impact us when we least expect it.

With a little meditation this morning and much thanks to the Goddess and God I worked with Tarot and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “6 of Swords: Peaceful Recovery.  Serenity and the passage of time help to heal wounds.  Stormy emotions are given time to subside, allowing a plan for a solution to emerge.”  I also feel quite impacted by this, “. . .must address and resolve the root problem before he can move on.”  This from the Collins gem book on Tarot by Rowenna Stuart.

I think I need to allow myself to go deeper into meditation and allow  what might be some ugly truths about myself to come out so I can face them and then heal and move on.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Faith, Trust, and Courage

I was feeling kind of blue again upon awaking but meditating for a few moments with crystals in my hands and thinking about and talking with the Goddess and God soon dispelled the blues from my mind.  I was soon reminded of the comforting motherly figure who visited me in my thoughts and dreams last night and how I need not worry and cause myself stress about my present situation of being unemployed and under a small burden of debt. 

All is right in my world and I am in a good place is what I now feel with my heart and soul.  I am on the right path.  Three words that kept repeating over and over in my mind were faith, trust, and courage.  Faith, trust, and courage.  Faith, trust, and courage in myself.

Thank You Gracious Goddess and God.

And good luck to everyone on the east coast having to dig out of all that snow.  Be careful and keep safe and warm.  Blessings.

Spirit Is and Today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “Guide of Coins: Seeing the magic in the mundane.  Spiritual fulfillment from nature.  Finding joy in the ordinary.”

As I shuffled the cards outside on the deck birds were singing and nature was full of life.  No sounds of the city to be heard. . .for a quick moment in time nature was all that I knew and felt—the river flowing to meet the ocean, the birds greeting the morning in song, and Mother Earth wrapping her arms around me in a loving embrace.

Trust, faith, and courage. . .

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Turn Things Inside Out or Uside Down and V The Priest

I’m feeling a bit blue this morning however my heart is full of love, love from the Goddess and God.  I guess it’s because I have dreams and goals in mind and too impatient to wait for them to come to fruition.  As well, I realize the mistakes I made and had I done things a little differently I’d be feeling a lot better today.  But I’ve learned yet another lesson and this is a good thing.

My studied of Wicca and Tarot are coming along nicely and even though I may not be reading a book or meditating I am learning in other ways – meeting smiles on the street or in the store, nature tapping you on the shoulder to say a quick “Hello” or the simple act of making dinner and infusing it with love with a quick stir or two.

Thank You Gracious Goddess and God for the gentle reminders of your presence in my life.

I’m feeling a better now.

Today’s visiting Tarot Card is “V The Priest: The best way to help others is to help them make their own decisions.  Wisdom.  Advice.  A promise.  A ceremony or ritual."  

I got the sense when looking at this card that I needed to look at the larger picture, see things from a new and/or different perspective , to perhaps turn things around a little, turn things inside out to gain that new perspective, to put a bit of a different spin on the situation.  Hhhmmm. . .things are making a wee bit more sense already. . .

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be

Spiritual Fulfillment - The Guide of Coins

I had a decent enough day yesterday.  I had a cleaning and check-up at the dentist.  I made Oatmeal Raisin Cookies from a new recipe and I made Hamburger Pie for dinner, also a new recipe.

I did a bit of reading after dinner and then some research later in the evening just before hopping into bed.  I thought it would be a good idea for me to do some research and find out a few things about the animals that have made their presence known to me either out in the real world, through Spirit or through my dreams.  Oh, and I mustn’t forget through a plush toy, my rat.

So in addition to the rat, I’ve seen a turtle and a German Shepherd through Spirit, a Sparrow and a Crow in real life.  I’ll read through what I discovered and write about all of it in very short order.

I do not remember much dream activity last night other than trying to ride what appeared to be a stationary bike outside on a dark rainy afternoon.  Oh, a man also appeared in my dreams, kind of in the shadows and now I also remember a dream about food, a magick circle, and maybe a few family members, it’s a bit vague at the moment about who the people in my dream may have been but family members seems right to me.

Thank You Spirit .

Working with Tarot this morning out on the deck as a cool but warm wind gently caressed me.  Today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “Guide of Coins: Seeing the magic in the mundane.  Spiritual fulfillment from nature.  Finding joy in the ordinary.”

Yes, I must admit that seeing the Moon, Stars, Sun or feeling the falling rain, or the wind upon my face bring me much Spiritual pleasure.  This is the same for the pigeons, seagulls, and crows that dot the sky out the window every now and then or the Sparrows that flit about down around the corner as they seek out food and then retreat back to their homes in the shrubs that dot the street and bring a bit nature to the city.

It’s good to feel so alive.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Magick, Chants, Drums, Trances, and VI The Lovers

Happy Birthday to my Dad’s wife.

Last night my dreams were filled with music and magick and an eagle soared into my life through Spirit.  Amazing!  But before I realized all of this the first time I simply awoke from my dreams to use the bathroom.  Only when I slipped back into bed did I realize what I awoke from—magick and sacred circles and chanting, drumming, and trances.  My dreams were beautiful, peaceful, and serene.  Thank You Spirit.

Today’s visiting tarot Card is “VI The Lovers: A relationship is always a mingling of differences.  A powerful relationship.  Seeing both sides of an issue.  Flexibility." 

I’m trying to be more aware of and appreciative of my partner and the relationship I have with my partner.  I’m also trying to understand what my relationship is and what it means and where it is headed and/or needs to go.  I have love in my life, a close friend to share my life with, and a fairly balanced life.  I am blessed and have much to be thankful for.  With that being said I also have a dream or two to pursue as well as a goal or two that I must seek and accomplish and am in the process of doing all of these.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

10 of Wands. Celebrate Today.

Although I am living in the moment of this day, the 5 of October came to mind as I came to think about what day it was.  I think it may have some importance but then maybe not but I will make a note of this in my calendar none-the-less.

Spent the afternoon, running errands and enjoying a walk along Main Street, Vancouver before sitting for a coffee and a donut at Lucky Donuts at 49th Parallel.  Both were okay but nothing special.  It was a nice afternoon though for us to be together.

Upon returning home we simply relaxed before I warmed up some leftovers for dinner and boy was dinner ever good.  The third dinner we had from the original meal and that is usually the case with most dinners I make.  I tend to make enough for at least six people so it is great to freeze and enjoy it again later.

I slept well although I awoke around 2am and had a bit of a time getting back into sleep mode but sleep I did, sleeping in a little more these days as I getting out of bed now around 7:30am.

I relaxed a little this morning before working with Tarot and so it without further ado today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “10 of Wands: The Burden.  Responsibilities.  Obligations.  Overcommitting yourself.  Realizing that burdens are a part of life." 

I need to focus and know exactly what my goals and dreams are as I do believe that at times I sending out mixed messages to the universe as to what I want out of life as well as where I want to be in life and perhaps this is because I genuinely do not know.  I think I need to meditate more and focus on celebrating and living in the moment of each day.  I at times tend to want to live two different and separate lives at the same time, wanting to live each life but without sacrificing the other.  Life here in the condo where I am safe and secure and then life out in my RV, full of risk and adventure, the unknown, fear of the unknown, wanting security to be only a phone call or a short drive away.

Spirit Knows.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

10 of Swords and X The Wheel of Life

Sleep was not quickly forthcoming last night either for me or my partner.  We both got out of bed for awhile before getting back into bed and still finding sleep hard to find.  I had a dream about a physiotherapy and massage therapy session I went to that seemed more like torture and then awoke with a terribly sore back, could hardly move when I first got up.

Yesterday was a decent enough day as we went out to see “Anna Karenina”, what a beautiful movie.  After the movie we had a late lunch a noodle place before heading over to the quay for our afternoon coffee, then it was onward home, where we spent the rest of the afternoon and evening relaxing.

Oh yeah almost forgot I read an article about drumming, chants, and trances and hope to have a drum come into my life and as a part of this I also hope to find an artist or someone who can design Pagan and/or Wiccan inspired rubber stamps that I can put to good use in making handcrafted cards that suit my Spiritual Path and Beliefs.

So Mote it Be.

Today’s visiting cards fell away from the deck as I was in the process of cutting the deck three times.  They are the “10 of Swords: You Choose the Script.  You can choose to plug yourself into a negative viewpoint, or to unplug yourself from one.  The end of a bad situation.  Hysterical overreaction." and “X The Wheel of Life: If life on the rim makes you dizzy, move to the center.  Awareness of the circles of life.  Equanimity.  A change in fortunes.  Guidance from your future or past self."

This is an interesting pair of cards to have come visit for the day.  When I delve further into these cards I get the sense that I need to follow my intuition/instinct and gut feelings if you as I already know what I need to do to really create the life I want and simply or maybe not so simply act on it.  I have a strong sense of what I need to do and where I need to go in life however I also have a bit of fear creeping in about the unknown that this, that these decisions will bring into or upon my life.  Give me strength and courage Gracious Goddess and God to act on this knowledge and intuition I have and to face the unknown future that lies ahead.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

3 of Swords - Heavy-Hearted?

The fragrant rain-filled air was a perfect to breath in a good start to my day.  I love that I can go out on the deck and “just be” for a while as I commune with the Goddess and God after a night of sleep.  As I awoke today I immediately thought of the Goddess and God and my RV.  In my vision, I’ve parked my RV near a mountain. A rocky outcropping sits just behind my RV on one side while the beginnings of a forest are off to the other side.  A beautiful setting to be in.  The air is fresh and Spirit abounds everywhere.  Amazing!  Thank You Spirit.

Oh, I forgot to mention that yesterday morning while I was on the deck in the morning a single solitary crow was sitting on the corner of a tall building across the street making his/her presence known as I was shuffling my Tarot Cards and meditating with the Goddess and God.

Today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “3 of Swords: The Wreckage.  Feeling heavy-hearted after an emotional storm.  Feeling hurt or betrayed.”  My heart is heavy I guess most likely because I did not get around to doing a Imbolc Ritual as I wanted to as we were entertaining last night. 

I did set up an altar space on our dining room table afterwards but with my lack of energy and sleepiness I only chose to go through the motions of a ritual but I must admit it did feel great as a bit of energy was raised even without a full blown active ritual taking place.  Thank You Goddess and God for gracing me with your presence, as you always do.

Blessed Be.

Doors, Thesholds, Transformations, Walking into and with the Light

Happy Imbolc/Imbolg.

What a beautiful morning we have here in New Westminster.  The sun is shining and brightening the ever increasing foggy day as the fog rolls in and covers the blue sky and half Moon as she recedes to welcome the blazing sun into the day.  Frost covers the rooftops nearby however the air has a certain warmth to it.  Perhaps, Spring is not too far away, maybe just around the corner.  But for now my neighbourhood is being hidden away by the pea soup thick fog that is enveloping all of the buildings around us, the sun is out there I know but he is losing ground to the fog on this morning.

Thank You Spirit.

My dreams were filled with Spirit Familiars, a Spirit Guide and Doors, Thresholds, Transformations, and Walking into and with the Light.  I had a brief conversation with my Spirit Guide as we played in the snow.  I’m not sure what neighbourhood we were in however I guess I was waiting for a bus of sorts, a bus that my Dad and brother were driving to come and pick me up.  They did not take a direct route most likely so my Spirit Guide could introduce himself and let me know how to communicate with him.  But I was very excited and half awoke up and the dream fizzled out.  At least, I know who he is and somewhat how I can communicate with him.  As I headed off to bed half asleep, my Spirit Familiars were making their presence felt.  I realized I had a turtle come to me one night, as I was in a half awake and in a dreamlike stupor, the other day as I was out for a walk, what I believe was a sparrow landed on a railing and looked into my eyes, and years ago, I was drawn to a plush toy, I guess you can call him, my pet rat, I’ve had resting on my headboard for years.  Thank You Spirit.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is “0 The Fool: Accepting and exploring one's sexual identity is a journey of self-discovery.  Beginning a new and exciting venture.  Going beyond the limits of social convention.  A nonconformist."  I’ve been awakened and some knowledge and wisdom has been gleaned to me now I must rise to the occasion and incorporate it into my life and make changes that will allow me to flourish and take off in ways and directions I never thought possible.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Back in 1999

I've written about this before but felt I should revisit my introduction to Wicca and Witchcraft back in 1999 when I started a new job that became a short0lived career in 2005/6 when the the company I worked closed it's office in Vancouver.

The company I worked for only had three employees in the Vancouver office of which I was one however we were responsible a large volume of sales in the emerging phone card market.  One of the employees and I had many chances to converse about things other than work and eventually the subject of Wicca and Witchcraft came up.  We talked on and off about it until she departed the company a few years later.  She lent me a book about Wicca that I devoured and read from cover to cover, Wicca: The Old Religion in the New Millennium written by Vivianne Crowley and published by Thorsons, An Imprint of Harper Collins Publishers in 1996.

I also researched the internet and printed off a huge volume of all things related to Wicca and Witchcraft (it's 3 inches thick):

During the early 2000's I got a bit sidetracked for a few years but luckily met my current partner who I thank for rescuing me from pursuing and trying to live a false life and identity.  Unfortunately, I allowed myself to get involved in and attend an evangelical church that so disconnected me from Spirit that it took me a long time to recover the closed mindedness it set upon me.  However, each to their own, it did not work for me and I did not fit into it's mold.

Today is St. Brigid's Day and tomorrow Imbolc and how wonderful it is to observe these two days and honour the Goddess and God and lay out my plans and goals for the year and to celebrate the lengthening days and increasing light of the year.

I take this time to renew and rededicate myself to the Goddess and God and Wiccan path.  I am Wicca, I am a Witch and I give thanks for this.

Blessed Be.

Happy St. Brigid's Day

Happy St. Brigid’s Day.

I had a good day yesterday.  I made it to the gym and boy did working out feel good.  I came home relaxed a little, studied, went out to do a few errands, came back studied some more and soon it was time for us to head and meet a friend for dinner.

We took part in Dine Out Vancouver, where a participating restaurants create fixed priced menus offering a selection of their appetizers, entrees, and desserts.  We tried Le Parisien’s $28 offering and was it ever good.  My partner and friend had Mimosa Salad while I had the Leek and Potato Soup with Bacon for our appetizers; we all chose the Duck Confit for out entree, delicious and for dessert our friend had the crepe while my partner and I had the Lemon Tart, loved it.

The evening was very pleasant and we both enjoyed the walk to and from the restaurant from the nearest transit hub six or seven blocks away.  We got home later than we usually get to bed but it was such a great evening that we stayed up a bit longer so we could slowly wind down the day before slipping into bed where we drifted away into our dreams.

I awoke around 7am but stayed in bed until almost 7:30 as I communed with the Goddess and God and the Spirit of the Tarot.  Thank You Spirit.

Today’s visiting Tarot Card is the "7 of Coins: Chores.  Resting after a job well done.  Contemplating life's cycles and changes.  Planning your next move.  Clearing out what's unnecessary in your life to make way for something new."  I like this card however I feel that it does not quite fit with my thoughts or situation unless I am completely missing something as I do not feel like I’ve completed the task of clearing things out and am in no way prepared to start planning my next move but with that being said I will trust the Tarot and continue on with my day and reflect on the “7 of Coins” and the message he brings.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.