Under the Weather and Confused

Today I awoke when someone beside me was having a nightmare and I could not get back to sleep.  Awaking at 6:30am is alright but my partner had a difficult time sleeping last night and kind of kept me from sleeping as well.  So here I am trying to get on with my day, feeling a bit under the weather.

Today’s visiting Tarot Card is “XV Self-Hatred: The trap to avoid for all minorities.  Unconsciously accepting societal norms.  Low self-esteem".

This is what I wrote back on January 21, 2012:

“Collins gem suggests being trapped in a situation that is hard to break free from but recognizing one's bondage can also lead to actions being taken to one's self from that bondage.  The key is to focus on the positive, positive goals and what not that point into the right direction.  The key is not to deny the bondage or the weaknesses that it is pointing to!  I've allowed myself to sink too deep into what society wants of me and how society defines who I am and the person that I am expected to be.”

I’m still here in a world that does not accept square pegs struggling to find my way, to live life within the constraints that I’ve allowed to contain me for so long but I can’t do it anymore.  I’m in desperate need of new and ever changing surroundings and must somehow make it happen with what I’ve got, my meager talents and broken down, old, and dilapidated RV.

One thing I should make note of here is that I’ve trained myself, if you will, to come up with a single word or short phrase to describe the Tarot Card as soon as I see it and today’s one word description of “XV Self-Hatred” is “confused”.  Being under the weather and confused make for a great combination, I must say.  Should prove to be an interesting day.

Oh, please leave comments, if you wish.  I’d love to hear your input or contributions to what I write.  Thanks in advance.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.