Spirit Is My Life

A new month is upon us.  On Monday, I have a day of training with Elections BC.  I’ll be updating the Voter’s List for the Province of British Columbia as a Door-to-Door Enumerator for a couple of weeks.  If I survive this position I will take up the role as a part-time Office Support Worker through April and into May.  A nice way to be involved in the political/democratic process.

I slept fairly well and I just lost my faint memory of one of my dreams as I got to thinking about it.  I vaguely recall some young people...hhhmmm...I get a sense that it was a good dream...but I do remember having a bit of a frustrating day trying to watch streaming videos yesterday afternoon.  It took me almost three hours to watch a 42 minute episode of a television program I wanted to watch...argh...it got better with the next few episodes though...Thank You Spirit.

Speaking of Spirit, “Spirit Is My Life” is something I picked up on while trying to relax yesterday afternoon and this really makes sense as I’ve felt a great deal of peace and security over the last several days.  Having said that, I need to stay singularly focused on my true dreams and goals otherwise I’m fighting against the wind all for naught.  I cannot keep shifting my goals and dreams from one thing to another or I’ll never live life to its, to my fullest potential.  No more fear, faith and trust are all I need along with a little courage and perseverance.  Thank You Spirit.

Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the Youth of Swords: Curiosity.  Research.  Computers, e-mail.  Immature communication.  Spying (or "hacking")."  I must admit that this card is not speaking to me in a way I understand.  I’m at a loss for words here and feel like I missing the obvious.  Maybe that’s the point of the card, I’m looking to hard, relax and let Spirit speak to you and do its work.

Thank you Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Faith, Trust, and Courage

I was feeling kind of blue again upon awaking but meditating for a few moments with crystals in my hands and thinking about and talking with the Goddess and God soon dispelled the blues from my mind.  I was soon reminded of the comforting motherly figure who visited me in my thoughts and dreams last night and how I need not worry and cause myself stress about my present situation of being unemployed and under a small burden of debt. 

All is right in my world and I am in a good place is what I now feel with my heart and soul.  I am on the right path.  Three words that kept repeating over and over in my mind were faith, trust, and courage.  Faith, trust, and courage.  Faith, trust, and courage in myself.

Thank You Gracious Goddess and God.

And good luck to everyone on the east coast having to dig out of all that snow.  Be careful and keep safe and warm.  Blessings.

Spirit Is and Today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “Guide of Coins: Seeing the magic in the mundane.  Spiritual fulfillment from nature.  Finding joy in the ordinary.”

As I shuffled the cards outside on the deck birds were singing and nature was full of life.  No sounds of the city to be heard. . .for a quick moment in time nature was all that I knew and felt—the river flowing to meet the ocean, the birds greeting the morning in song, and Mother Earth wrapping her arms around me in a loving embrace.

Trust, faith, and courage. . .

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Belief and Faith

I slept very well last night so well in fact that I slept right through the night.  I was having weird but good dreams I guess involving our friends and neighbours downstairs. Then I started awaking and the dream faded into nothingness.

We have been experiencing a slight bug problem for th|e past several weeks and may have discovered why last night when after dinner and a shower I started cleaning out another cupboard that seemed to be housing quite a few bugs.  I discovered their breeding ground and home in a box of “red River” cereal.  At first when I peered inside the box I just noticed that the cereal was clumpy but then movement – aaahhh bugs.  So we emptied the cupboard entirely and washed it down leaving everything out overnight.  I put the things away and have not seen any bugs this morning.   Maybe they’ve taken up residence somewhere else.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “7 of Wands: Fighting the wind.  A quixotic struggle.  Winning against the odds.  Confrontation.”  I need to hold my head up, high, my courage strong, my will never-ending and my desire ever strengthening so I can overcome this ‘quixotic’ struggle once and for all.  I need to believe and have faith that I am succeeding, that my dream is alive and well and I’m living it this very moment.  My home is my RV most of the time and this home I’m in now is my refuge, my fortress, my security blanket when times get tough and I need to feel my partner next to me.

Thank you Spirit.

Blessed Be

Gainfully Employed But. . .

. . .it feels so wrong.

I like the company that I found employment with however being employed in this way or in such a manner feels wrong to me.  A certain part of me is happy as I am fullfilling the expectations of others but another part of me feels like I'm selling myself short by not following or fully pursuing my dreams.

This morning as I looked for and found my watercolour pencils and tested out a few colours I was filled with happiness and joy in knowing that this was me, this is what I enjoy doing yet I'm trying yet again to satisfy the expectations of others at the expense of dashing my dreams yet again.

Don't get me wrong though, I understand the need to be employed however I wish that employment to be for myself, me employing me and not having earn my keep through working for someone else, as in this case, a corporation.  It is a great company but again I'm not working for myself and again am putting my dreams on hold to satisfy others.

With that being said, I see this employment as temporary as I cannot fathom putting my dreams on hold for another three or four years in order to meet the expectations of others.  And in addition, the Tarot cards I've been visited by over the past months point to the need for me to have the courage to move forward for myself and yet here I am folding under the expectations and needs of others.  I need to rebuild my courage and stand up for myself and my needs and deal with the consequences as they come.  My needs have to be my priority.

It's so difficult to talk with anybody as everybody seems to be tied into telling me what I need and should be doing and that my dreams are unrealistic and it's better to look for work and do that instead of following my dreams.  I believe in my talents and abilities however my faith and trust in myself dwindles when others challenge and badger me into following the rest of the herd.  I need to have faith in myself and the courage to live my life for me.  I really need to be the author of my own life.

HELP!

Yesterday's visiting Tarot card is the "Man of Cups" and today's is "II The Intuitive".

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.