5 of Swords

Boxing Day, at least in Canada and the United Kingdom.  A huge shopping day for the bargain hunters.

I slept poorly last night as I was awake every hour from midnight until 2 and then awake from 2 until 4am then awoke at 6:44am and decided to get out of bed and do the check-in for our flights to Boston.  What a process that is.  The airline has many fees associated for things that I think should be standard operating or customer service practices.  Our seats are confirmed but not fixed and may change before the flight.  If I wanted to have guaranteed seats for each of us that is an extra $75 per person.  Our checked baggage is $56.  We were sitting in different rows of the plane with one us being seated in what is called “economy plus”, a $44 seat, no thank you to that.  So we are checked-in but still have to go through a check-in process at the airport.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “5 of Swords: The Tennis Game.  Being overly competitive.  A game which gets out of hand.  A pattern of always needing to win, or to lose.”  I’m like this in most areas of my life.  It’s purely a subconscious thing that pops out every once in awhile because I have a strong dislike of winning or losing situations whether it’s a game or a simple conversation that gets out of hand.  I’m going to change that about myself right now.  Let it be.  Zen.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Brightest Blessings

I suppose I should start off and say Merry Christmas to all or better yet Brightest Blessings to all.  Slept quite well last night considering the unending throbbing pain that came and went in around my knee.  I awoke once or twice however quickly fell back into sleep mode with nary a thought entering my mind.  Nary has an inkling of a dream come to mind now come to think about it.  I seemed to be filled with much peace and love throughout the night though.  A faint memory of people milling about is now in my mind, a dream or a distant memory or a new thought.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “10 of Coins: History.  A knowledge of and an appreciation for history.  Seeing your concerns in a larger context.  Seeing your life as a story; who is the author.”  We watched a CNN documentary, I guess one might call it about the early Christians and I believe while watching I was contextualizing my life in reference to this interpretation of the early Christians and the beginnings of churches.  I’m not sure where I’m going with this as my thoughts are now lost and I am at a loss for words.  I guess the important thing for me to remember is that I need to always maintain control of my life and the recorded history of my life.  I need to live and author my own life and story and live my life for me.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Creativity

Christmas Eve.  We had a quiet day yesterday really.  We did not do a whole lot of anything but we did go out and do some shopping for food and then a last minute gift for a friend who is coming over for dinner and fun tomorrow.  We hit Price Smart Foods on Marine Drive in Burnaby for our usual then we took the train down toward Commercial Drive to hit DeSerres for our gift, then Commercial Drive for a bit of cheese – Manchega and Myzithra picked up from Santa Barbara Market.  Oh, and we had coffee and Continental Coffee before coming back home.

With it being Christmas Eve, I lit some Frankincense and Myrrh incense before working with Tarot.  Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “Guide of Wands: Feeling possessed by a creative project or inspiration.  Being inspired to help others.  Doing what's right."  I was thinking about the RV, and traveling and working from my RV more specifically last night and upon awaking this morning.  Not sure where I'm going with this however I feel that my "presence" in life needs to be mobile so what better way than to be mobile than traveling in a RV, a motorhome?  I need to get on with "my life" and do what I am needed to be doing in life.  I got to get moving.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Faith

We had what I’ll term a “busy day”.  Mid morning we met my brother, aunt, and two uncles for breakfast/brunch around 11am.  We sat at the Knight and Day Restaurant at King George Blvd and 96th in Surrey until 2pm eating, visiting, and chatting and having way too much coffee.  We made it home and relaxed until our next scheduled event between 6:30 and 7pm at Taverna Greka here in New Westminster to join 12 or 13 others for dinner and to celebrate our friends 39th birthday.  Both food and company were great.  We left this event around 9:30, maybe 10pm.  We made it to bed around 11:30pm after relaxing a bit after our long five minute walk home.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is “XV Self-Hatred: The trap to avoid for all minorities.  Unconsciously accepting societal norms.  Low self-esteem.” 

I must always strive to be myself and not become part of the societal flock that is blind to the fallacies of the life they/we all lead.  I must believe in myself and my desire to be a craft’s person and a totally self-employed, self-sufficient individual living my life my own way and not by or according to another person's standards or expectations.  I say this because our birthday friend showed everyone the card I made him and the card and I received rave reviews.  I have talent and I must have faith in myself and what I can and desire to do.  I’m an RVer, craft’s person, ventriloquist, spiritualist, writer and traveler.

Thank you Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Knowing Oneself

I know I was dreaming last night however do you think I can remember anything of them?  I vaguely recall dreaming about an acquaintance we know or so I think, could be a total stranger, even myself for all I know.  Answers, answers, answers seem to be the word to describe this dream though.  This is the overall impression I have of my sleep last night.  And as I was thinking about the last statement the thought that came to my mind is one of me looking within myself and exploring every nook and cranny that makes me up as a human being.  It was like tearing something apart in order to get a look inside to see what makes it tick, like a clock or watch, perfect analogy.  I was looking within myself to see what makes me tick.

With that being said, Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card dropped from the deck as I was shuffling, “II The Intuitive: To be true to oneself, one must know oneself.  Looking within for answers.  Meditation. Intuition.  Exploring that which is normally hidden.”  What I remember of my dreams quite accurately reflect today’s Tarot Card and if I combine this with what I read and take from my horoscope I need to look at the larger picture of what I want life to be and just let it be.  I apparently cannot allow myself to get too hung up on the details and simply go for it.  Things will work out with me simply doing, instead of fretting.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Merry Yule and a Joyous Winter Solstice

Merry Yule and a Joyous Winter Solstice to all.

The 21st of December has arrived and we are all apparently still here, still alive and well, at least for the most part.  Dreams of Spirit, RVs and Tarot Cards seemed to be what I remember about my sleep over the past couple of nights.  Spirit is strong and reverberating throughout my body and surroundings.  Spirit is indeed alive and well for those who are willing to acknowledge Spirits presence in and about their own lives.  Spirit is and there is no denying it.

Today’s visiting Tarot Cards are “XX Beyond Judgement: Self-acceptance must come before liberation.  Freedom from others expectations.  Trying to make conditions better for others.  Pride.  Self-acceptance.” and the “Man of Swords: A rational, scientific approach.  A thorough investigation.”  I believe that in order for me to overcome feeling the need to worry about and fit into others expectations of me I need to do thorough research into how I can gain liberation and freedom through self-acceptance.  This means looking within myself and dealing with anything dark and ugly that may be lurking in the dark shadows and far recesses of my mind.  I need to find myself inside of myself in order to be liberated and free.

Thank You Spirit and again Merry Yule to all.

Blessed Be.

Overnight Shopping Trip to Seattle

On a snowy Wednesday morning, the 19th of December we set off for our overnight trip to Seattle.  As we drove the snow became heavy and thick and we were questioning ourselves as to whether or not we should continue on with our journey.  The roads were empty so onward we went.  As we neared the border and customs the snow let up and it became somewhat dry.

We quickly crossed the border and were truly on our way down to Seattle.  As we approached Everett, the rain started and got heavier the closer we got to Seattle and so did the traffic that was moving at a snails pace.  But we made real good time as it only took us about two and a half hours to make the trip.  We arrived at the hotel very early, about five or six hours before check-in however they let us check-in early.

Seattle was wet for our visit but we still did our best to enjoy ourselves and our shopping which we did and completed all in one place - Pike Place Market.  I discovered Tenzing Momo where I picked up a book, magazine and some great incense.  My partner made purchases at Ed Newbold, Wildlife Artist and Raven's Nest Treasure.

Spirit Is and:

December 19, 2012 - Wednesday's Tarot Card of the Day is the "2 of Swords".
December 20, 2012 - Thursday's Tarot Card of the Day is the "4 of Coins". 

Wednesday's dinner was had at the El Borracho Taqueria y Cantina.  We had our Thursday breakfast at Starbucks just around the corner from our hotel, Hotel Vintage Park before heading back home in the rain, ah such is winter in the Pacific Northwest.

Blessed Be.

A Two Tarot Card Day

Had a decent night’s sleep, did awake for a pee but fell right back to sleep again and awoke at about 6am.  Did my usual morning routine before sitting down with Tarot.

Spirit is and today is a two Tarot Card day.  Today’s two visiting Tarot Cards are the “Youth of Swords: Curiosity.  Research.  Computers, e-mail.  Immature communication.  Spying (or "hacking") and the 9 of Cups: Serendipity.  Satisfaction.  Everything is going well.”  These two cards almost seem to be in conflict however at the same time they work well together for me today.  As I am curious by nature and for the most part things are going quite well, could be better but patience as things are in a state of change right now. 

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Comfort

May the Spirits be well.

I had a rather sleepless night last night and awoke with a few new areas/joints/bones that bother me, where I may also have a slight bit of pain.  I could have probably slept more if I simply let myself go however I was getting tired of being in bed and sleeping for a bit, then awaking, then sleeping, then awaking so getting out of bed seemed like the best option.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “3 of Cups: A Good Time.  Happy, comfortable times together.  Quiet enjoyment.  Celebration."  I can always handle this kind of energy or atmosphere in my/our home or if I go and visit someone or somewhere else. 

Thank You Spirit. 

Blessed Be.

Sleepless Night But I'm Still Happy This Morning

I had a bit of a sleepless night as I allowed my mind to wander and frivolous thoughts rule my head.  Instead of just "being" I instead focused on these thoughts and gave them power to take sleep away from me and keep me awake for a couple of hours after I simply got up to go pee.

However, Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card leaped from the deck while I was shuffling it and is the “3 of Wands: Leaving the nest.  Seeing progress.  Something or someone you have nurtured must now strike out on their own."  What could this “something” be that I may have nurtured and now needs to strike out on its own?  Or even the “someone”?  Could this “someone” be my partner?  Or me?  The “something” confuses me but I’ll do a little research and see what I can find out.

Hang on a minute while I do that, okay?

Okay, I’m back and back with a better understanding of my visitor, the “3 of Wands”.  Perhaps, my creative talents, specifically in making handcrafted greeting cards will offer me much more success, more success down the road, than what I am seeing in this moment.  Greater success awaits me.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Directing Passions

I had a decent night’s sleep but did not sleep through the night as I did the previous four or five nights but I feel well rested and awoke around 6:30am.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is “XI Strength: Directing your passions, rather than suppressing them, is the key. Finding healthy outlets for powerful energies."  If I truly heed this advice I will find much success and happiness in life so I will try my darndest to heed this advice and direct my passions into making cards, being Spiritual, practicing and performing ventriloquism, and traveling and writing, especially writing from a ??? perspective.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Love and Compassion

I had another beautiful night’s sleep again.  I don’t think I moved through the night as I was still lying on my back when I awoke and looked the clock, 6:38am.  I decided to get up but not before I moved a little and closed my eyes.  Opened my eyes again, still 6:38, then maybe when I first looked it was 6:36.  I got myself up and out of bed and the water going for mug of instant coffee and the espresso maker filled and ready to go when someone else gets out of bed and we have breakfast.

I only vaguely recall a little of my dreams last and in the one I more vividly remember, barely is where someone pointed out that I needed to wipe my mouth with my napkin and where I remember taking some time to look at the napkin and what I wiped from the corners of my mouth.  In another vague memory of a dream I feel more than remember that it was spiritual in nature, that I was amongst, for lack of a better description, heavenly beings, a very peaceful, serene, and loving environment.

Thank You Spirit and Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “Guide of Cups: Messages from the heart.  Altruism.”  I feel quite loving and caring this morning.  I was starting to feel a little different last night as I was reading the introduction of the Gnostic Bible on Google Books as this book contained information that although at times was confusing, evoked from me new thoughts and ideas that floated around in my heart and mind.  Quite interesting.  Then this morning I awake feeling full of love and caring and compassion.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

XVIII The Moon

Another good night’s sleep with active or maybe just one active dream.  What was that dream about again?  I remember being in some residence other than our own and going upstairs to use the bathroom when someone else came out of another bedroom to do the same thing.  Perhaps, my Dad?  My partner's brother?  Boston?  I cannot be sure as the hallway was dark and the person was covered by shadow.  I’m sure I was having another dream of sorts maybe even connected to what I just described but it has been filed away somewhere in my subconscious mind for now.  Was it related to me making cards or was it somehow linked to travel, my RV?  Hhhmmm. . .

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is “XVIII The Moon: Sexuality pulls us into a different, non-rational world which is sometimes frightening, always creative.  A sense of mystery.  Creative ideas which gestate in the subconscious.  Sexuality or sex".  What can I make of ‘The Moon’?  Well creativity was in abundance yesterday as I was contemplating card designs from a couple of stamped images that I was working with so that fits.  A sense of mystery also was percolating in the air yesterday and even today as a dream I remember having that I can no longer describe with words but can only rather feel at the moment has for some reason mysteriously slipped into the netherworld.

I love the Moon.  Seeing the Moon in the sky especially a Full Moon is breathtaking, energizing, wisdom giving, soul lifting, and spiritually revitalizing.  

The Moon is.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

The Hockey Game

I slept fairly well last night but appeared to be having a lucid dream regarding a hedgehog that turned into a dog as he began to pee on the bed of either my sister or ‘C’, a friend of mine.  I suppose it would more likely be 'C' as I think he is the person who has expressed an interest i having a hedgehog for a pet.  This dream stretched on endlessly or so I thought.

Then I awoke a little after the dream and drifted in and out of sleep until sometime between 5 and 6, when I initially looked at the time on the clock I think it was 5:28 or 5:38 but I stayed in bed for a little before getting up.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card fell out of the deck while I was in the shuffling process, the “5 of Wands: Hockey Game.  The project meets resistance.  Testing one's ideas against others.  An enjoyable struggle.  Competition in the marketplace". 

This may be related to my card making enterprise, my study of Wicca, the RV, or even my relationship.  All four feel like they are somehow in the mix when I look at this card.  Making cards is not a struggle but I often compare my cards to others; studying Wicca and getting the RV back together and on the road are enjoyable struggles but getting the RV up to snuff has been going on for too long, and studying Wicca is just a lifelong process that will never cease but I do need to start practicing my faith now; and then my relationship is perhaps facing competition in the marketplace in some regard, don’t know how but this is just an inkling I have that is there hiding in the shadows, just out of sight.  I have no idea what this means but that's the thought I'm having.  Weird. . .

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

A Rational and Scientific Approach

I had another great night’s sleep.  Another weird dream and I’m not sure who was involved however I was trying to use a bathroom perhaps at my Mom and Dad’s old place or maybe it was on a train but the door would not latch properly and as I was struggling to lock the door a woman tried to come in claiming to have to really go.  She quite a beautiful black woman.  I eventually convinced her that I was not giving up the bathroom until I used it and she disappeared into the doorway across the hall and I successfully locked the door and did my own bathroom business.

As I was paging through “Sage Woman” magazine I was scanning through the books they recommend at the back of the magazine and one particular title caught my attention and I do not think that this is the first time I’ve been stopped and made to think about this book.  It is “The Path of a Christian Witch".  I just may need to purchase it as it makes sense to me as well to accept Jesus of Nazareth and Mary of Magdala as my God and Goddess.  A while back as  was communing with the Gods, Jesus' name parsed my lips as eventually did Mary's and I've been pondering this since then.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “Man of Swords: A rational, scientific approach.  A thorough investigation.”  I think this is for me to look at my future in this regard as I do want to have a life in an RV however I am on shay financial ground right now and am quite secure where I am however dissatisfied I may be living a stationary life right now it may be the best solution for the immediate future.  As is looking for a part-time job.  I think I could handle three days a week but no more as I am quite happy now with my crafting.  I’m in a good place, experiencing a bit of “Zen” really and I quite like it and do not want it to stop.

Thank You Spirit!

Blessed Be.

Belief and Faith

I slept very well last night so well in fact that I slept right through the night.  I was having weird but good dreams I guess involving our friends and neighbours downstairs. Then I started awaking and the dream faded into nothingness.

We have been experiencing a slight bug problem for th|e past several weeks and may have discovered why last night when after dinner and a shower I started cleaning out another cupboard that seemed to be housing quite a few bugs.  I discovered their breeding ground and home in a box of “red River” cereal.  At first when I peered inside the box I just noticed that the cereal was clumpy but then movement – aaahhh bugs.  So we emptied the cupboard entirely and washed it down leaving everything out overnight.  I put the things away and have not seen any bugs this morning.   Maybe they’ve taken up residence somewhere else.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “7 of Wands: Fighting the wind.  A quixotic struggle.  Winning against the odds.  Confrontation.”  I need to hold my head up, high, my courage strong, my will never-ending and my desire ever strengthening so I can overcome this ‘quixotic’ struggle once and for all.  I need to believe and have faith that I am succeeding, that my dream is alive and well and I’m living it this very moment.  My home is my RV most of the time and this home I’m in now is my refuge, my fortress, my security blanket when times get tough and I need to feel my partner next to me.

Thank you Spirit.

Blessed Be

Expectations

I enjoyed most of the day by myself yesterday as my partner was busy at his workplace marking final exams.  I really enjoyed “My” time and hope to have more in the coming days, weeks, months, and years.  I really do value “aloneness” these days and perhaps a relationship is just not the right thing for at this time.  I enjoy life with my partner for the most part and we have created a beautiful and comfortable home together however something is lacking.  I need more freedom than a stationary home offers and having an RV and all of my possessions with me wherever I go is very appealing and desirable to me.  I need to do it more than I want to do it.

I even made a quick visit to my mobile house on wheels yesterday and thoroughly enjoyed the experience of just being in my RV and not even doing any type of work or organization.  I love my RV.  Oh, when I opened up her door and peered inside I was surprised again at how spacious she looks without the dinette.  My decision to create a work space is the right one.  I was fretting about that the other night and now I have been shown that it is the right thing to do.  And she is dry inside.  I could find no noticeable water leaks during my quick look around the once leaky areas of the RV.  Whew!  Of course, I still have another ‘dead’ battery to contend with.  Stupid, I say leaving the lights on like that.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is “VIII Justice: Even today, gays can be the victims of "justice".  An unfair judgement.  Being too judgmental or righteous.  Feeling restricted by others' expectations.”   Yes, I’m still suffering from trying to live up to or meet other people’s expectations of how I should “work” or at least look for work and what I’m supposed to do in life.

I can no longer fit into this mold and need to strike out on my own.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Mish Mash of Thoughts

I slept well until around 2am where I awoke in a start and was awake as I could be.  I used the bathroom, had a drink of water and then lay in bed with my thoughts, thoughts about purchasing my RV, of how much work is needed on my RV, why I should not have purchased my RV, and on, and o these thoughts went.  Soon these thoughts became dreams and here I am again awake with regrets but hope all at the same time.  I want to fix her up but again I’m stuck with how to do all of this in secret and how to get up and say to my partner “Hey there.  I want to move into my RV and start traveling.  See ya later.”

It needs to be done.  I need to march to the beat of my own drum as does my partner.  We need this, him more than me as I’ll likely struggle to survive where he will blossom and become all that he deserves to become when I’m not in his life holding him back from his grandeur.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the ““5 of Cups: The Aftermath.  Regret over past actions.”

Thank You Spirit!

Blessed Be.

Help

I slept okay last night.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “5 of Coins: Hard Times.  Material difficulties.  Lack of money.  People helping each other.”  Yes, this is so true today as being unemployed yet self-employed does not produce a lot of income for oneself and so my partner is making up the shortfall in my income needed to cover my and a little bit of our living expenses, the car included.  

But I forge ahead knowing that I can do this if I just give it a real hard try.  I can create th elife I want, live part-time, sometimes full-time in a RV crafting and Tarot Carding my way through a journey I've been longing to take.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Perspective

I slept fairly well however I awoke around 4am again to go pee then the alarm sounded far to early at 6:30am.  I stayed in bed hoping to be sleepy enough to fall back to a doze but it didn’t happen so I got out of bed around 6:40.

Spirit is and today’s visiting card is the “2 of Swords: Meditation.  Closing your eyes to outer circumstances in order to gain perspective or to avoid a decision.  Refusing to act".  I think I am refusing to act in some areas of my life and this is slowly but surely changing.  I’m learning much more in the last few weeks than I’ve probably learned in years.  I’m discovering myself and who I am and what I want and desire out of life.  True wants and desires because of my discovery of myself.  I’m fascinated by what I am learning about me and who I am and what and how other people see me.  This is an amazing experience and is only going to get better. 

I was fearful at first as sometimes the darkness we fear is real however in my case they were only mere shadows and nothing to traumatic or devastating.  Learning about ourselves should be something we all endeavor to do as it is not only eye opening but life changing since we learn things about ourselves that maybe make us change directions or turn around and head back in the direction we came from.

Amazing!

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Balance

I slept well until about 4am, when I got back to bed from going pee, I guess I was too mentally alert or something so I did not fall back to sleep quickly.  After minutes went by my knees started to hurt something fierce so I lay in bed not able to sleep as I started to focus o the pain instead of ignoring it. 

Maybe I’m doing that during the day, focusing too much on the pain and not everything else such as Spirit.

Finally, after days or weeks maybe even longer I caught a glimpse of the Moon this morning and isn’t she a sight for sore, tired eyes.  What beauty and strong reminder to focus more on Spirit and Spiritual Celebrations such as the Sabbats and esbats.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “2 of Cups: The Dialogue.  A balanced relationship.  Being able to see things from the other’s perspective.”  Yes, my eyes are often closed to what others think especially when it comes to their opinions of my life and what I need to do with my life.  I can see things from their perspective I often do not acknowledge of their opinion even if I may be in somewhat agreement with it.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Daydreaming?

I slept well.  Don’t remember any sort of dreams I may have had but I’m sure something was happening in my mind as I slept as it sure feels like it was active.  I awoke feeling like I had a busy night yet I remember nothing of it nor was I awake and worrying but I feel mentally busy already and I just awoke.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “Youth of Cups: Youthful emotions.  Daydreaming.  Shyness.”  I’m feeling a little bit like this as I was mentally off in the distance as I was wrapping up my most recent Christmas Greeting Card Order, thinking about being camped in a wintry meadow, just a touch of snow and cold enough to keep it around for awhile. 

How nice.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Regrets?

I seem to have slept okay.  I awoke early but that’s fine with me.  I was having a strange dream regarding my crafting I think.  My stamping was life size so it seemed.  Or at least this is what I’m recalling now.  It was an odd dream though as I was surprised by what I was seeing and it appeared to be related to my craft work.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “5 of Cups: The Aftermath.  Regret over past actions.”  The appearance of the 5 of Cups is throwing me for a loop as it is not the card I was expecting to see not that I thought I knew which card was going to appear but the 5 of Cups surprises me.  However today’s card is the 5 of Cups and I know it will reveal more to me as this day progresses.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Judgement and Self-Righteousness

I slept quite well through the night although I did awake several times just because.  I have no ideas as to why I opened my eyes or I drifted in and out of sleep but I did.   Maybe it is because the bed is no longer all that comfortable.

 Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is “VIII Justice: Even today, gays can be the victims of "justice".  An unfair judgement.  Being too judgmental or righteous.  Feeling restricted by others' expectations.”   

Yes, I’m still under that trap of trying to please everyone else but myself.  I want to behave and do things to appease others, to not rock the boat however it is costing my sanity, my dreams, goals, and aspirations, if even had any to begin with.  And yes, I can be self-righteous and more judgmental than I care to be but I conscious of this and am always struggling to keep these in check.  Such is my life today.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

A Repeat Visitor This Week

Thirty more days and another year is over.  I’m not yet in my RV but I will be soon.  I need to make a change, a drastic change in my life or changes will take place that are beyond my control.  Maybe they already are.  I cannot allow myself to continue to go along with the rest of the herd, maintain the status quo.  I have to get on with my life, not the life of everyone else.  Brian Gore, George Leher, Howard and Linda Payne, and Rae Crothers need to be my examples.  They’ve laid out a rough course to help others get out of the starting gate and I need to get going.

I slept rather well last night.  I think I had a dream regarding my Tarot Cards, another possibly concerning animals and then one about Simmons Mattress Gallery, a former employer of mine.  I did get up to go pee and quickly fell back to sleep upon returning to bed.  However my eyes opened again around 6am a little earlier than I expected to awake but here I am none-the-less.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card, a repeat visitor from earlier in the week, is “XIII Death: Endings are beginnings.  A phase of life is over.  Allowing time to mourn.  A part of yourself has outlived its usefulness.”  As I explained at the beginning of today’s entry change is coming in my life one way or another so I had better be prepared.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.