Saturday, May 3rd, 2014. One of the best days of week when one works a Monday to Friday job however Fridays are also good because it’s the last day of the work week and you look forward to the weekend.
My job is going well for the most part other than making some poor decisions when it comes to ordering milk but other than that, it’s a downright very good job to have and for now I think I need to keep it. Yes, I’m not doing what I’d like to be doing but I’m working on that. I also know that I need to do a better job of focusing on work as well as my personal life so I need to strike a balance between trying to enjoy my hobby(ies) as well as continuing to strengthen my relationship and work ethic and efforts.
First and foremost I know that I am spiritualist and this is truly my deepest passion. Working with Tarot, being a Tarot Professional is the career I most desire to have. Ventriloquism is a hobby as I do not see myself as an entertainer in that regard, not in the least bit. Making cards has been fun and a great experience but to be honest it’s not where my heart is. Model railroading has been a longing I have since as far back as I can remember, from my very first train set, maybe when I was seven years old. So this is what I’m working on when I can.
However, my spirituality must be at the top of my priority list when it comes to the personal time I have. For instance, today as I wait as my partner gets a haircut/style I will work with Spirit and Tarot and take note of the experience. Travel also seems to be linked to my spiritual endeavors, I just can’t deny this desire to travel and not simply travel for the sake of traveling but traveling with and for Spirit.
Thank You Spirit.
Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is “VIII Justice: Even today, gays can be the victims of “justice”. An unfair judgment. Being too judgemental or righteous. Feeling restricted by others’ expectations.”
I accept responsibility for my life, my actions, and my decisions however the past is the past and must be left and remain behind me. It is what it is and it’s time for me to move on and really live my life. I’ve made mistakes and I accept that but they are done and over with and no longer need haunt me as I allow them to do. This is time for change, not simply words and platitudes but time for real hard changes to take place.
It’s likely to be a bit of a rough ride but I’ve got to move my focus and my mind forward and look at the present and into the future with a realistic attitude and mindset. The present and the future are all that I can change and so this is where my focus now shifts to.
ATTEND TO THIS: the “5 of Wands: The Hockey Game. The project meets resistance. Testing one’s ideas against others. An enjoyable struggle. Competition in the marketplace.”
I’ve been battling myself and beating myself up for a long time regarding my past mistakes and poor decisions in addition to trying too hard to please my new employer while at the same time being fearful of making mistakes. Instead of believing in myself, my skills and talents I allowed myself to be driven by the fear of not knowing and failing in my efforts at this new job. I was working from a negative instead of a positive viewpoint. I am talented and skillful and this should be and is now my new focus. Focusing on my strengths and abilities instead of my past mistakes and operating on the basis of fear.
EMOTIONS/FEELINGS THAT MIGHT ARISE: the “7 of Wands: Fighting the wind. A Quixotic struggle. Winning against the odds. Confrontation.”
Instead of being in harmony and working co-operatively with the divine forces at my side I’ve been battling them instead with doubt, fear, and lack of direction and focus. I’ve been on the losing side of the equation because of my actions or lack thereof. Last night was a rough night for me as focused on my mistake instead of focusing on my improvements and accomplishments at the workplace. I am definitely more focused but can do better. I need to relax more and not fear the clock or crunch time of making the orders—easy enough to do as it really is not a difficult process. I’ again operated here on the basis of fear instead of my ability to do the job right. Operating from a negative viewpoint only brings negativity, this should be no surprise. So what’s done is done and today is the only Saturday, May 3rd, 2014 that I will have so today is my focus with a quick glance at what tomorrow may bring now that I’m co-operating more and working in harmony with the positive energy that is on my side waiting to help me achieve success.
Thank You Spirit.
Blessed Be.
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