More distracted sleeping. Unnecessary worry creeping into my mind along with thoughts about the job that irk the heck out of me. I am quitting this job within the next month no matter what. I just cannot take working there anymore. I need to move on. I think I have to become my own sales person and start promoting myself as well as selling the Intuitive Tarot Services I have to offer--Tarot Readings and/or a traipse along the Fool's Journey.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is “XVIII The Moon: Sexuality pulls us into a different, non-rational world which is sometimes frightening, always creative. A sense of mystery. Creative ideas which gestate in the subconscious. Sexuality or sex.”
"Creative ideas which gestate in the subconscious" leaps out at me with some force today. Not sure what ideas of mine may be gestating in my subconscious but this is definitely the energy I'm feeling. Camping, tents, acting as my own sales person as I walk along English Bay and the seawall or as I stroll along Denman and Davie Streets. Ideas that need to stick, that drive me to be and to sell myself, to stand stall and be who I am without shame or embarrassment.
What creative ideas are percolating in your mind?
Thank You Spirit.
Distracted sleep is what I'm going through these days, rather nights as I do not always feel ready to get out of bed or even to be awake but job responsibilities are calling even though it's a job I'm leaving soon...very soon I believe.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is “X The Wheel of Life: If life on the rim makes you dizzy, move to the centre. Awareness of the cycles of life. Equanimity. A change in fortunes. Guidance from your future or past self.”
I should have written down or recorded my thoughts about “X The Wheel of Life" this morning as I've since forgotten what those thoughts were. And they seemed to really fit with the dreams I had as well as my waking thoughts.
I feel like I'm on the verge of walking onto a new path in life, a path that is more in tune with my spirit, soul and life purpose. Although, the name of this path is not totally clear at the moment I get a sense that I'll be doing more work through my website and blog and eventually through video and other social media platforms. The path feels more green and much kinder toward and much more nature driven. I guess, that “X The Wheel of Life" is creating a path for me so that I can move closer to the centre. Asking to slow down so that we can appreciate and celebrate life more.
Thank You Spirit.
I sense that I have a lot of brain chatter going on when I'm sleeping. Some of it I'm aware of however, I think it's going on all night long. I don't get a full feel for this or sense of this until the afternoon when a heavy desire to sleep falls on me. But as tired and sleepy as I feel I'm also feeling eager to write and talk about today's Tarot Energy.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is "I The Magician: To live fully, one must create a life, not merely react to it. Creativity. Ability. Making something happen.”
"I The Magician" is about consciously living life, to be fully engaged and aware of life, all life, to be a conscious conduit through which the universe can create, co-create with you, as well as expand, grow, and evolve through and with you. Today's energy is reminding us to take life seriously and to be serious about living our lives no matter what age are. Living an engaged life at any age will be more than worthwhile, it'll be full and rewarding and extremely satisfying.
It's time to make your life happen!
Thank You Spirit.
Seemed to sleep most of the night. Did awake a few times though. Many images of me sitting in front of a couple of large computer screens. And much mental chatter about my intuitive tarot offerings...$4750.00 in ten weeks was bandied about in my mind from a variety of voices...seemingly coming from around the world.
Oh, I did a Decision-maker spread for myself yesterday, doing my best to keep my skills exercised and in top-notch condition so that when I read for others I'm totally in tune with the energy of Spirit and Tarot and can confidently act as guide and facilitator between you, the cards, and Spirit. The spread was very revealing, compelling, timely and impacted me a lot.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is "VI The Lovers: A relationship is always a mingling of differences. A powerful relationship. Seeing both sides of an issue. Flexibility.”
I see balance and a great partnership that is built on a solid foundation of love, caring, compassion and understanding. A solid friendship built through solid and open communication where each is given a chance to speak and be heard by very attentive and keen ears of the other. Friendship full of love and tenderness and a deep sense of caring where words don't always have to be spoken in order to communicate with one another...a look, a touch, or timely silence is all that is needed.
Thank You Spirit.
Although I wanted to do absolutely nothing this weekend we ended up heading out to stroll along and have our afternoon coffee on Main Street and then do our weekly grocery run. Even though we did this is still felt like the lazy day I wanted. But I still want to stay home indoors doing absolutely nothing...as in not having to put on street clothes and heading out of doors. It did make sense to go out though, it was sunny after all.
I made another great curry dish for dinner, this time chicken. I feel very lucky, spoiled and special to be having such meals. I never thought I had it in me to make such a dish but it's super easy to do.
"4 The Green Man" led to some great insights and thoughts yesterday perhaps alluding to and today's Wildwood Tarot Energy, the "Six of Bows, Abundance: The Wheel turns and the time to enjoy the fruits and rewards of the summer season has arrived. Patience acknowledges the plentiful bounty which delivers gifts and rewards for your efforts. Now is the time to allow this generous feeling of well-being to flow freely through and around you, and to enjoy the pleasures and sustenance these healing and revitalising gifts can offer. Sometimes, after a period of stress and hard struggle, the process of healthy relaxation is vital to re-arm and re-energise the spirit in preparation for the challenges of the coming winter. The joy of sharing and gifting your own abundance with others is also a natural part of the process and brings its own inner peace and satisfaction. Your gifts to others will bring solace during the coming seasons and remind everyone that the Wheel continues to turn on its inevitable and stoical journey. Give thanks and accept the blessings of the changes that occur in life at this time. We share the bounty of the forest and commune with the Wildwood denizens in our everyday life."
The "Six of Bows, Abundance" will arrive slightly before or as we enter the summer season. This abundance is germinating now and will soon begin peeking through the soil as we water and fertilize the ground through our continued efforts, patience and perseverance. Blossoms may come early giving us an idea of just bountiful our summer harvest of abundance will be. Abundant enough to share with others thus allowing them to gather up seeds and plant their own gardens that they then too share with others.
Thank You Spirit.
Saturday, March 25, 2017 at 8:47pm. "4 The Green Man" from the Wildwood has been chattering away in my ear all day. And here and there as I listen and contemplate what he's telling me I come away feeling a bit confused. Confused in the sense of what to do with Serenity, my camper van. I do like camping a lot more than I think I do and likely a whole lot more if I simply go camping by myself. The significant other isn't much of a camper and finds it a bit odd to go out and sit in a campsite to pretty much the same thing you can go at home. Getting rid of the van does make sense to a degree I suppose but then what do I do about going camping as I love the security and the comforts that Serenity has to offer and she is my home away from home.
And then "4 The Green Man" is also telling to simply quit my job and go for it. This has been re-enforced by a page out of the current Issues magazine I picked up yesterday. On that page is an article and an ad about a "DREAMBUILDER Program" being offered by Florence Rickards. I checked out her website and was struck by a statement she made that is on her home page:
"Listen to your heart, pay whatever it costs, and don't look back. Because the price you will pay to realize your dreams is small, compared to the price you must pay for permitting your dream to die."
I love the world of Spirit and Tarot and love RVing and I want nothing more than to help others through the gift of Tarot and make a little bit of money doing it. Is this too much to ask for? I didn't think so either. Thanks for your vote of confidence.
I even created a new budget for myself based on the income I aim to earn monthly through people's trust in me. It's not much different from the income I'm earning now working for someone else. I want to do this and should do it knowing that not only do I Not want my dreams to die but I don't want my spirit to wither away and die either and this is what it's doing right now...
...so I declare with every atom of my being and loudly and proudly that under the "Wizard Oron" banner I offer "Intuitive Tarot by David B", David B being the one and only me!
Thank You Spirit.
Slept alright but would have liked to have slept longer. But then again getting up earlier gives me more alone time which is good as I spend more time with Spirit...leaning to better be able to live and look at life through spiritual eyes, knowledge, wisdom, love and understanding; as well as to hear and listen to life with spiritual ears; and then to speak through and with the voice of Spirit. For I am a conscious living example of Spirit made manifest through which Spirit can live, grow, evolve and expand in the physical world. I live life as life lives me.
Spirit Is and today's Wildwood Tarot Energy is "4 The Green Man: generous in his bestowal of creative, fertile energy and he will move you to a new level of confident and assertive dynamism. This is a time for both giving and receiving the natural flow of life both inwardly and outwardly. Be prepared to find a new and thriving drive to begin projects, relationships and even new ways of living your life and fulfilling your world. Now is the time to experience being at the apex of the cycle of life. Enjoy it!"
I am Wizard Oron reaching out with Intuitive Tarot by David B. I'm a facilitator, a guide as you explore your relationship with the world, with life, with others, even with yourself through the Spirit and Energy of Tarot.
Accept, feel and use the energy and power of the Green Man as he fills and energizes you with a fresh, new desire to go out and express yourself in the world. The Green Man is providing you with the ability to make something happen but you have to do your part and take action to get the whole process moving and giving it the momentum it needs to succeed.
Thank You Spirit.
Discovered a message on LinkedIn last night from someone that thinks my skills and talents might work for a company they represent. Curious...hhhmmm...message sent on my birthday...is the universe trying to tell me something? Perhaps.
Oh, and something happened when I gave a boost to the battery in Serenity, my camper van. The battery popped after the van started but when I turned the van off after about fifteen minutes, she wouldn't turn over again. When I attempted a second boost, that didn't change...drat! As I spoke with the dealer and they have a promotion on right now will buy the van back...not a perfect deal for me but gives me room to breathe and contemplate better on what type of camping and outdoor life I'd like to live in relation to camping...tent, an RV and what type RV at that, a trailer, or simply sleeping out in the open under the stars?
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is the “3 of Swords: The Wreckage. Feeling heavy-hearted after an emotional storm. Feeling hurt or betrayed.”
The only reason I can think of for me to be feeling hurt or betrayed is the fact that Serenity will not start even when I tried boosting her battery the second time. In fact now that I think back to yesterday I did react emotionally to the whole experience and was very disappointed, sad, and let down as I hopped in the car and drove away. RVs and camping can make me quite emotional as by now I thought I'd have been living in a RV for many years already but I'm not quite there yet.
But I need to really figure out what type of RV best suits me and do so logically and rationally rather than emotionally so I'm rushing to make another purchase that proves to be a wrong fit. I really like the idea of driving a home on wheels as in getting out of the driver's seat and walking into my mobile residence. But I also like the idea of having a separate unit such as trailer that I could tow with a good off-road vehicle that I can take out and explore with...so confused. But I'm getting sidetracked here.
The “3 of Swords" is reminding me to keep my emotions in check when thinking about such things as RV's as it requires more than emotions to be sure the RV lifestyle is really for me before thinking about buying another RV before selling Serenity, my camper van back to the dealership. I know it's the right thing to do as I'd also be doing it if I owned her out right. And I also need to keep my emotions in check when it comes when it comes to Intuitive Tarot career/business something I'm willing to engage in seven days a week if I have people to work with. Emotions don't always allow me to think clearly then my head gets into the clouds and into more wishful thinking than thoughtful insight and planning.
I need to get stay focused on my Intuitive Tarot services and getting the word out that I'm ready to work with people who want to explore the world of Tarot with and maybe find answers to questions or get a little bit of advice or some guidance. I'm feeling way more spiritual these days and am quite excited about working with a few of my decks with others. The Wildwood Tarot has gave me a nudge yesterday so I'll be conversing with this deck in the morning.
Thank You Spirit.
Had dinner out and took in a puppet show last night. Dinner was at The Reef and the puppet show, The Daisy Theatre performed by Ronnie Burkett was hilarious. And the Cultch is a very cool venue. But you really have to go into such a performance with an open or you might just find yourself being offended by his R-Rated jokes and language. What a great surprise and great night out. Birthdays are still worth celebrating.
Spirit Is and yesterday's Gay Tarot Energy was "VI The Lovers: A relationship is always a mingling of differences. A powerful relationship. Seeing both sides of an issue. Flexibility.”
A great reminder on my birthday of what a special, dynamic, and truly awesome relationship I'm in and just how great my partner is. And I'm truly thankful for this and find myself deeply humbled to know that it is twelve years in the making and still going strong.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is the “Guide of Cups: Messages from your heart. Altruism.”
It really is all about helping other people. That's the life I'm living from this day forth. Remembering and bringing back to life the gift I've had and hid away for over twenty years. I'm a conscious conduit for the universe, the infinitely creating, infinitely expanding cosmos that is life itself. I am a "Listener", and ear of Spirit, an ear of Life, a Tarot Intuitive, a guide and facilitator between you and Spirit as you open the door of your life and your spirit to the universe, to Spirit and to Life itself.
Listen to your heart this day, listen intently, hear it's beat, listen more deeply, hear it's voice, take to heart it's message...nourish the life of others by giving of yourself and your time, be the support and loving friend they maybe don't expect of you. Be on their side, yet, also the voice of reason and empowerment. Help them feel their own inner strength and hear their own inner voice of reason, knowledge, wisdom and understanding.
It really is all about helping others...
Thank You Spirit.
Decided to focus on taking care of another pressing matter yesterday so I didn't make any effort to write a single thing yesterday. I've decided to sell Serenity, my camper van. I'm not putting the van to very good use and in the even I really want to get out camping I'll simply set up a tent for now. Not what I envisioned how I'd be camping but for now it's really the best option. Owning a van that has a big V10 engine is not the most economical way to enjoy the great outdoors and as I just mentioned I don't get out enough to warrant such an expense, three times over the past eighteen months and one of those times was being parked in my sister's driveway.
And realistically speaking, I've kind of warmed up the idea of setting up a tent and getting outside more. Mind you not a small one or two person tent but tents that some manufacturers refer to as Cabin or Chalet Tents. They can sleep more than one person, upwards of 6, 8 or even ten people and they are tall enough to allow one to stand up in them. Standing up in a spacious tent is very appealing to me. Some tents are even designed to be set up in sixty seconds. Others, twenty minutes. So I have options, one is even laying in a storage locker, a two person tent but will do for now, I suppose.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is the “Youth of Wands: Focusing attention on something. Reaching for a goal from a possibly unsteady foundation.”
I am focusing attention on something and that is getting rid of my debts. Eighteen months ago I was well on my way to being debt free then I decided most impulsively to buy a camper van and here I am those eighteen months later worse off than I was all those months ago. A poorly thought out decision and rather rash decision made in spite of a couple of people encouraging me to give it more thought and time.
Decision made though and now months later and many lessons learned it's time to part with the van and get back on track both financially and spiritually. I have much spiritual work to do and lot's of it I can do on my own. The other comes into play when people seek out my Intuitive Tarot services and I sit down and have a conversation with them through the world of spirit and tarot.
It's time to get myself on a solid foundation and better build up my life from there. I've come a long way and have much to be thankful for and to celebrate but I have much more important and productive spiritual work that I need to do.
Thank You Spirit.
Spent a great afternoon and early part of the evening with my sister, her husband and her daughter as well as my brother and one uncle who joined in with the effort to support my niece and the hockey team she play's on. They lost but some of us found the game to be more entertaining than any NHL game we might have watched.
After the game we went back to my sister's hotel room before heading down the road to White Rock for a stroll along the strip as pier and of course a visit to the rock that gave White Rock it's name.
Then we suggested a restaurant for dinner, one we've had very good service combined with good food. This experience was anything but that.
We were sat down in a busy restaurant and forgotten about. After waiting about fifteen or more minutes we asked an employee who's responsibility was who knows what about our server, someone came to our rescue, after paying our bill at the end of the long evening in Charlie Don't Surf, I saw that her names is (N.....). (N.....) was very apologetic throughout the evening and did her best to appease us. When we were taking care of our bill, she apologized more and let us know that the hostesses were seating people without letting anyone know that new tables were coming into an already busy section where a combination of servers were sharing tables, sharing tables without knowledge of who was to serve which table. The food was subpar for the most part and nothing close to what we had before.
Then we returned my sister and family to their hotel before heading home ourselves.
Spirit Is and today's Pagan Tarot Energy is the "Eight of Swords: Our Witch is faced with a difficult situation indeed. Blindfolded and tied up, she is surrounded by a circle of swords. Her coven mates surround the outside of the situation - they are there for support but not for direct help. She is imprisoned and must find her own way out. The exit is unblocked and right in front of her, but she has no way of knowing that. You may be feeling alone and powerless. While this is a situation you must face alone, your loved ones are with you in spirit and will help whenever and however they can. Most importantly, your way out is not difficult. Continue walking confidently on your path and it will take you straight to freedom."
Interestingly enough last night I had a dream where I gave my notice at the job, a month's notice effective April 1st so I could take up my spiritual calling as a Tarot Intuitive offering my Intuitive Tarot services to those seeking something...and then the "Eight of Swords" appears and shouts to me that I need to "Continue walking confidently on your path and it will take you straight to freedom." And as I let this sink in travelling to summer fairs and markets and community gatherings and celebrations filled my mind...hhhmmm...Spirit is onto something here and I need to give in to Spirit's nudge to not only go on a journey but to be the journey where I'm living life, life is living me and I'm the experience having an experience...
I also awoke this morning with an inkling that I should gather up a few things for my sister, so I'm giving her a Rider-Waite Tarot Deck, a Pagan Tarot Deck, a white sage smudge stick, a Chakra Stone Kit, and a "Spirit" candle. Oh and my Learning the Tarot book by Joan Bunning as well as the companion book to the Pagan Tarot.
Thank You Spirit.
Addendum: I really do have much to celebrate, to be happy about and to be thankful for.
I'm in a loving relationship. I have a loving and supportive family. I live in a beautiful home, I own an RV for all intents and purposes and I'm in a conscious relationship with Spirit, the world, Tarot and all that is life and energy, both seen and unseen. Oh, and I'm building a model railroad just like I dreamed about as a kid.
Thank You Spirit.
Slept so perfectly well last night. And just before awaking I had a dream where I was managing the kitchens and lunchroom's of a place that was entirely white including the clothing people were wearing and even some of the people themselves appeared to be as white as snow. Everything blended in together.
Spirit Is and today's Pagan Tarot Energy is the "Ten of Chalices: In this happy scene, our Witch, her young man, her grandmother, her daughter, the priest and priestess who initiated her, and her dear friends are gathered in a formal toast of thanksgiving. Her friends wear special coloured robes representing the elements (yellow for air, red for fire, green for earth, and blue for water). A rainbow overhead, puppies, kittens, babies, and flowers add to a scene that couldn't be happier. If your life isn't fulfilled with puppies and flowers, if you're not surrounded by the people who matter most to you, plan a party and invite them over. If you don't have a particular event to celebrate, celebrate the general abundance and beauty of life and each other. By telling others how special they are to you, you'll open the door for your own happiness. Everyone needs a love fest once in a while. Make it happen."
Today is a day of celebration the "Ten of Chalices" is welcoming us to this day with the energy of love, joy, happiness and a desire to celebrate life just because. And I can easily get into such a celebratory mood as my sister, husband and niece are in town and we're all going to get together, enjoy and celebrate each other's company. It's too bad my nephew had to work this weekend and couldn't come down as well. Besides, it's still a birthday week, one birthday just passed and another one is coming up.
Sure life is not all roses and sunny days but people always seem to be able to find a way to be happy and express their love once in awhile. They, we can always pull it up and out from the depths of our being when we allow Spirit to express and expand itself through us. Let Spirit shine through you today and you'll be sure to find yourself in a celebratory mood.
Thank You Spirit.
Mixed dreams filled the night...Intuitive Tarot and the job, the job that no longer suits me but pays the bill for now. But I'm moving on and transitioning to my spiritual calling and that is using Tarot as a means of showing people how we are a part of the infinite and ever expanding universe, constantly looking at us to be its conduit for its outward expansion and need to express itself in the physical realm.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is “XX Beyond Judgement: Self-acceptance must come before liberation. Freedom from others’ expectations. Trying to make conditions better for others. Altruism. Pride. Self-acceptance.”
"Self-acceptance” lept out at me with every step I took today and continues to do so now. As I went about the duties of the job, I felt disconnected from it and the company that I shall say only temporarily employs me as I do not foresee being there much longer. The connection I've had with this job feels as if it has been severed.
For I am me, I am who I am and I think, believe and look at life in a certain way and do not have to defend or explain myself to anyone. I accept myself and am now looking at, toward how I can best harmonise with the universe and be a shining example of all that is, all that has created us, that is as much a part of us as we are a part of it. I want to be all that I can be so that people feel and become empowered from what they see of me.
Thank You Spirit.
Slept very well, as I am becoming more aware of and more comfortable with my role in this world, in the cosmos. I'm in a great state of being, in a great state of knowing that my life is a journey unto itself where my life is not only the journey but life experiencing itself and moving in a most spiritual manner and direction.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is the "Sage of Coins: Working with resources rather than trying to control them. A mature appreciation of the natural world. Patience."
How fitting it is for me to see the "Sage of Coins" as I'm really wanting to do my best to integrate and balance my life with the ebb and flow of nature, to really align my energy with that of the natural world. Then I can more easily fulfill my role as a unique expression of the cosmic life force here in the physical world, being a conduit for the universe to continually expand through. This is I happily read from the March 2017 issue of Spirit of Mind magazine.
Harmonizing with the natural energy of the universe and allowing it work through me as well as working with it allows me to expand my life, to grow and evolve, to bloom in abundance, prosperity flowing into and through me, nourishing and enriching not only my life but also those with him whom I come into contact with...family, friends, people I meet as I fulfill my spiritual calling, immersing myself into my natural state of being.
Thank You Spirit.
Watched a movie, Kedi, about cats in Istanbul, cute documentary about the status of cats in the city and how they've become an important part of the city's culture. Although most of the people don't necessarily own any of the cats portrayed in the movie they do take care of them even going so far as to bring them to the veterinarian when they are need of care or making meals for them, sometimes dozens of cats at a time. Loved see the city and the love that people have for the cats and the fact that cats have been part of the city since the beginning.
We also had dinner, birthday dinner at Denny's at Davie and Thurlow in Vancouver.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is the “Youth of Cups: Youthful emotions. Daydreaming. Shyness.”
When the sun is out I do find myself daydreaming a lot and youthful emotions are emanating from every atom of my being. And sometimes shyness sneaks in when we meet new people or find ourselves in unplanned social situations. It's all good and every now and then it's nice to reconnect with our youthfulness that is still within us wanting to show itself more often than we let it.
So let your youthful self shine through, be playful and be shy, daydream like the teenager that you are today. Don't worry about it. Give yourself an hour to be and to feel young and playful again. Open your mind to the wonders, dreams, and possibilities that filled your mind as it wandered off during a boring class or when you just didn't to do your homework. Maybe, just maybe a wonderful surprise or new insight is waiting to be discovered, it's your to discover, why not go for it.
Thank You Spirit.
We had a relaxing day again yesterday and as I hoped the weekend seemed to tick by at a rather slow pace. We had lunch out and then met a couple of friends downtown for coffee, tea and cookies while we chatted about our planned trip in the fall. We then headed over to Cardero's later for drinks and a quick bite to eat, a bit of an early dinner for us but we had no problem eating the delicious food that arrived on our table.
Upon returning home around 8pm or so we decided to have another quick bite to eat, a bowl of oatmeal, so good. Haven't had it in such a long time...need to do oatmeal more often but perhaps for breakfast instead of an after dinner dessert.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is the “8 of Cups: Farewell. Moving on. Leaving behind a person, a situation, or a part of yourself."
"Leaving behind a part of yourself" is really jumping out at me today. Over the course of this past weekend I've had many spiritually driven epiphany's with one coming to me when my eyes caught a glimpse of a homeless man (I know his name but will not use it) who, although many times was laying on the sidewalk after having had too much to drink was now struggling to walk with a walker and has lost a significant amount of weight...tears welling up in my eyes.
Thinking about others came to mind and how I can best help people without making them feel embarrassed or ashamed. Then I read a few pages from the latest of issue of the Science of Mind magazine I picked up a few weeks back and discovered that I am much more, much greater, and more important to the universe than I thought I was.
Realizing and accepting this has created a mind and energy shift within me that is greater than I felt back in 1999/2000 when then I realized I could have very real spiritual experiences through mind, voice, and sight.
I've been slowly remembering how to have those connections as I abandoned them briefly from about 2002 to 2006 when I got involved in an evangelical church that did more to close my mind than open it to the wondrous world of divinity that is not and cannot be defined or bound by any type of religion or religious dogma. I am. I simply am...the purity of existence, one part of the all, the source that experiences life through each of us.
And may partner said something during our time with friends that caught me by surprise and showed just how much he loves me. When we were talking about of trip in the fall along with the upcoming travel of our friends my partner stated that I should retire so that we had more time to travel than the two weeks of vacation that I have. Retire or do something so we can enjoy more trips together.
I'm leaving behind the part of me that gets depressed about getting up and going to the job that no longer suits me or serves my needs, intents or desires. I'm leaving behind a part of the me that is only an inactive dreamer and wishful thinker. I'm leaving behind the part of me that is too inflexible and only thinks that he has to be this or that. Such as having to travel in an RV, where he now has camper van that has only been used a mere three times over the past eighteen months...not money well borrowed or well-spent for that matter. Time to move on...
I am open-minded, flexible, a man of action, with my eyes, heart, mind, body, soul, spirit, my all open to all possibilities, opportunities, the infinity of life and all existence. I am!
Thank You Spirit.
Daylight Savings Time is here so it's now 7:56 instead of 6:56 Sunday morning. I realistically think that we could simply stop with the clock changing twice a year and see no problems erupt if we do.
So far it's a very relaxing weekend, even doing our weekly grocery was not a pain as the store was not busy although, the self-checkout scanner was giving us more problems than usual. We swapped roles last night as my partner cooked dinner and I washed dishes. It's nice to taste someone else's cooking, always seems to taste better than if we make it ourselves.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is the “3 of Swords".
Although I do not feel that this “3 of Swords" does not apply to me at this very moment, it maybe pointing to a time later in the day. However, having said that this “3 of Swords" is a reminder not to wallow in self-pity or self-loathing. We must deal with our emotions by controlling them to the best of our abilities and the best way we can do this is by accepting that we have control over and control the way we feel.
In this instance, if we get emotionally wounded today, we can feel and acknowledge the hurt but then move on before the negativity of such emotions drag us down and steer us away from the healing needs to take place. We need to keep our hearts and minds clear so that the necessary healing comes to us and helps us to see that although we may be emotionally scarred we are still strong and resilient enough to carry on and move forward with our lives.
Thank You Spirit.
Had a very lazy evening last night. Didn't even get to the gym. Thought I could but I bruised or pulled a back muscle or two on Thursday at the job and it's a bit tender. Maybe I'll try going for a workout tomorrow morning.
I fell asleep with certain thoughts and images on my mind and awoke with those same thoughts and images. I thought I was simply awaking a few minutes after going to be but it's morning so I decided to crawl out of bed.
Spirit Is and today's Pagan Tarot Energy is the "Ten of Swords: Determined to spend no more sleepless nights, our Witch takes on her problems head on. The broken swords represent problems or situations that needed handling. Some need to be broken down for easier handling, some needed to be thrown in the garbage. She has learned that she has far more control over her life than she ever realized. You, too, have control over your life and the way you think about and approach things. Whether external circumstances control you and your happiness is up to you. How much power are you willing to give other people or insignificant situations? Magick is largely intent or will. Make up your mind to be strong and in control of your life and your magick."
Don't despair for the Pagan "Ten of Swords" is here helping us to empower ourselves to take control of our lives and circumstances. We have all the power we need to overcome our problems that once broken down into little pieces are nothing that we can't handle. Control over our lives is our own. I have the intent and will to be me, to be empowered, to overcome, and to accomplish and so do you!
Embrace your power, embrace your magick and make your life happen your way!
Thank You Spirit.
Another week come to an end. The weekend is here and hopefully it passes by very slowly.
Slept very well until about ten minutes before 5:00am then I did my best to meditate. Can't even recall dreaming but I'm sure I did.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is the “7 of Coins: Chores. Resting after a job well done. Contemplating life's cycles and changes. Planning your next move. Clearing out what's unnecessary in your life to make way for something new.”
"Contemplating life's cycles and changes", "Planning your next move" and "Clearing out what's unnecessary in your life to make way for something new” all jumped out at me today. I can see this as being a prelude to some serious spring cleaning in my life so that I can make really good plans for the coming days and weeks ahead. Life is ever evolving and changing and I feel "change" in the air. It's better to plan and be prepared and have a willingness for or to change then the process will be just that much easier.
And I need to rest. The job has been far too busy for me and I'm in need of a raise to compensate me for all the added responsibilities I have. But then of course, I've quit the job, at least in my mind anyway. I'm a Tarot Intuitive and available for Intuitive Tarot sessions as long as we can agree on a time.
Thank You Spirit.
We had another evening out with a couple of friends who treated us to dinner, an early birthday celebration for the two of us. Can't remember the name of the restaurant we went o but it was a noodle place on West Broadway near Cambie Street. We then had dessert at the Cactus Club across the street. Very nice of our friend to do that. We have a couple of nice friends and are very thankful to know them.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is “XV Self-Hatred: The trap to avoid for all minorities. Unconsciously accepting societal norms. Low self-esteem."
I no longer hate myself for what I think, how I behave, or what I do. I'm doing everything that works for me, that does not affect anyone in a negative way, that is not illegal and most all I'm doing more things that make me happy. I'm doing my best to be civil with the job I no longer desire to have while at the same time doing what I can to make it easier for me to quit and walk away from that job. It does not make me happy and one cannot always simply work because of the money aspect of it. Yup, I can really and truly say that I'm happy to be me.
Don't let others influence how you feel about yourself. Own your feelings and own your own self-esteem. Never let others affect you with their negative words. Yes, words can hurt but don't give the power to do so. Always present your spirit to others first and use your spirit and the power of Spirit to deflect any negative words or harsh criticism that comes your way. Take the power that is back from the rest of society and stand strong and learn to love and accept yourself.
Thank You Spirit.
Out with a friend this evening who is travelling in the few days and will be away during our birthdays so she treated us to early birthday dinners. The same will happen tomorrow evening with another friend.
Slept rather well I think last night and awoke a few minutes before the alarm so I tried to meditate a little, stumbled along but will get better each time I try a pre-totally awake and getting out of bed meditation.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is the “Guide of Wands: Feeling possessed by a creative project or inspiration. Being inspired to help others. Doing what’s right."
"Being inspired to help others" and "Doing what’s right" is always on my mind these days. This is why I'm doing what I can to follow my spiritual calling and offer my Intuitive Tarot services. I know that I can have a positive impact on people's lives by having a conversation with them through the gift and world of Spirit and Tarot. I feel my absolute best when I have a conversation with someone where that person is doing most of the talking and genuinely feeling that their words are finally being heard and have legitimacy. Most of the times I've conversations such as this the person has answered his or her own questions. And I find this very therapeutic and not only for them but for myself too!
Thank You Spirit for awakening me to my spiritual calling.
An odd night of sleep. Was sleeping but awake at the same time or so it seemed. Awoke many times with the last time about 90 minutes before the alarm. But I still slept but seemingly in an awakened state.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is “IX The Hermit: To fully understand something, sometimes you must escape it. Gaining perspective. Solitude. Study.”
I'm being told that I need to find some solitude away from all distractions including phone and access to social media as well as the internet so I can seriously meditate and clear my mind. I need to go camping very soon and since it's a bit early in the season to be camping I need to do some early morning meditations and have some quality time with myself and with Spirit. I really do need solitude and time for contemplation...a quiet place where I am not distracted by anything. And maybe I even need to take a step back from the pursuit of my goals for a day to create some space for contemplation, review and perspective.
I need some fresh new perspective in my life, that's what I need, good old fashioned perspective.
Thank You Spirit.
Mostly a lazy sit at home day. We did go out for an afternoon coffee and grocery run after dinner but what a relaxing day it was. Today will likely be no different considering that it is the beginning of March and snow is falling, falling here in the Metro Vancouver where we're usually basking in spring-like weather this time of year. Could be soggy and rainy but it tends to be warm and everything has turned green and our allergies have run amok. Climate change. It's predicted that this region will soon be experiencing the same type of weather as San Diego.
Before crawling into bed last night. I pulled The Celestine Prophecy off the bookshelf as I was thinking about the vibration levels of Spirit and Nature and my need to slow down my energetic vibration levels. I might even grab The Wizard Within so I can flip through its pages as well. I'm going to re-read The Celestine Prophecy though. But after I'm finished Spells of Blood and Kin of which I'm getting close to the end.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is the “6 of Swords: Peaceful Recovery. Serenity and the passage of time help to heal wounds. Stormy emotions are given time to subside, allowing a plan for a solution.”
Today, we might have to work through our dark and cloudy emotions which might simply be the result of our own struggles and not have to do with anyone else or our interactions with them. These are simply emotions that we riled up by our own doing. Now we have to work our way through them and see the shining solution on the other side.
Wounds heal especially when we allow them to. Feel the hurt and pain, acknowledge it, where it came from, how it happened but then start the healing process and let it carry you to a better place. Don't wallow in these low level emotions otherwise they get worse and more difficult to shake off and move away from. Get up, shake yourself off, stand tall and get on with living, you've much more living to do.
Thank You Spirit.
Memories of any dreams I had are hidden in the deep recesses of my mind. I had slight thoughts of the job as in one I no longer had as I swung my thoughts over to the gift of spirit, of life, of nature, of living that led to me thoughts about friends and even some acquaintances.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is the “3 of Cups: A Good Time. Happy, comfortable times together. Quiet enjoyment. Celebration."
Sitting by a water fountain on a hot summer day enjoying ice cream together, with cone in one hand, a balloon in the other as the carved figures atop the fountain are caught up in the revelry of drink, song, and dance. A joyous occasion to be sure.
This is about connection on a spiritual and emotional level, of moving beyond our humanity and connecting on a more cosmic and meaningful level. It's about happiness that comes from within ourselves, emotions that are a reflection of our true nature where universal, unconditional love reign supreme. It's about knowing each other beyond words or physical form, it's a connection that is deep and takes place in every atom of our being, we communicate through the love and energy that is life.
Thank You Spirit.
Took the night off last night. Didn't want to do anything. Ideally, I would have liked to been alone but I did my best to meditate and let Spirit be with me and accommodate being in a relationship. Definitely in need of some alone time. I was actually telling my partner this morning that I am in need of a hike and a nature fix.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is the “2 of Swords: Meditation. Closing your eyes to outer circumstances in order to gain perspective or to avoid a decision. Refusing to act.”
Decision made, I'm selling Serenity, my camper van either via consignment on the dealer's lot where I purchased her or through an auto auction. I'll be happy to break even and get the loan paid off and no longer have to deal with storage fees or extra auto insurance. Money saved, and freedom to better undertake my spiritual calling...
... the “2 of Swords" imploring me, imploring us to give some time to meditation but not at the expense of making a decision or taking action on some important matter in our lives. If we meditate at this time it must be to gain perspective and give us the will, strength and courage to make a well-thought out decision that leads to the right course of action.
As I was thinking about meditation this is where the thought of getting out in nature came to mind and in a specific area. I want to go back and visit the trees around Rolley Lake. This is where I felt the life force and energy of a few trees through touch as well as through the air and I also heard their sweet voices...once the weather is a bit drier...a visit to Rolley Lake is in order.
Nature, meditation, making a decision and taking action...a great plan to get things done and keep our lives in order.
Thank You Spirit.
Not sure of the dreams I had. I was dreaming about my Intuitive Tarot offerings as well as different methods of camping and/or RVing as I'm finding that the van, Serenity, as lovely as she is, is a bit expensive to operate. Will contact the dealership I purchased her from to ask them if they put it on their lot for me under consignment.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is “XVI Revelation".
Unwelcome truths, time to break ourselves down into tiny, little pieces, discard the bad, then put ourselves back together. We, obviously, still have issues that we're not dealing with, truths yet, left to tell others. We can no longer be afraid to face these last few ugly truths about ourselves.
A free life laid bare is ours to live, no hang-ups, no more nagging shadows, no more lurking self-made demons left to haunt us. Just the unvarnished truth, bright skies, abundance of love. Being fully naked to the universe, totally laid bare, nothing left to hide or fear offers us a clean slate, a solid place to lay the foundation of our fresh start, the opportunity to do things right.
Thank You Spirit.
