Thursday, May 26th, 2016. I'm in charge at the job so my days have been rather trying and stressful not always because they are that but because I worry so much about getting everything done that needs to be done on any given day and today was no different. But I survived and the company survived another day under my leadership or lack thereof. I'm not all that keen with being in charge. I simply don't like taking on the responsibility of managing someone else's business. I'd rather leave that responsibility to them or to someone else and solely be responsible for myself. It's deeply humbling that they entrust me with such responsibility but I'd still rather not be in such a position even if they paid me more. And more pay sure would be nice.
I hit the gym after work and even though I returned to the office after taking care of some customers feeling and obviously looking tired that tiredness was mostly gone by the time I got home and walked over to the gym. But when I returned home the air and energy in our place felt heavy so I sprayed some "Sacred White Sage Body and Room Spray" by Essential Oil Techniques around. What a difference. The air and energy were light, bright, and refreshing--just what I needed.
I awoke tired this morning, maybe from the dream or dreams I was having throughout the night. The one I remember was kind of odd to me as in it, we were in another condo tower that was fully constructed, not a particularly high floor but the building was swaying. However before being a part of that scene I was in the bowels of building watch a construction pound large metal pylons into the ground in an effort to stop the building from swaying. The dream came to a quick halt when the alarm serenaded us. I almost fell back to sleep.
I had a hard time working with Spirit and Tarot this morning as I had a hard time shaking off the sleepy state I was in so I struggled through it and the “Guide of Wands: Feeling possessed by a creative project or inspiration. Being inspired to help others. Doing what’s right" is today's Gay Tarot Energy.
And now that I have this card in front of me I'm vaguely remembering another dream or two that I had last night where I was indeed helping others, doing what's right for all, operating out of my van. I have an inkling that these dreams are a prelude of things to come...
And the creative project I have in mind, if you can call it that, is paying off my debts through finding new sources of income, new income streams that will provide me with the means to do this quicker and more efficiently so I'm paying the bank and credit card companies excessive amounts of interest...Spirit, Tarot, mystical research and chakras...a quick glance at a news headline reminded me not to forget about balancing my chakras...something exciting to do on the weekend...
Thank You Spirit.
Namaste.
Wednesday, May 25th, 2016. Was nice to hit the gym after work yesterday, missed one exercise as the lat pull down was busy. I'm sure I can do it the next time, likely tomorrow.
We had a relaxing evening I guess can't really remember doing anything in particular so I guess it was one of those evening that slowly disappeared into a sleep filled night.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is both “VIII Justice: Even today, gays can be the victims of “justice”. An unfair judgment. Being too judgemental or righteous. Feeling restricted by others’ expectations” and the “2 of Coins: Tai Chi. Flexibility. “Going with the flow”. Living in tune with your environment.”
This happened quite randomly as they both flew out the deck as I was shuffling and getting ready to cut the deck three times as I do each and every day and most times a card leaps from the deck I accept it as the card of the day.
I need to be more flexible and do a much a better job of living in tune with my environment. One area I need to focus on is paying more attention to my partner by being more engaged and actively listening to what he is saying as well as to be actually engaged in our conversation. Another area I need to pay attention to is daily living by being more engaged in my day-to-day activities--present moment awareness!
Being flexible and paying more attention to my environment will guard against me feeling so restricted or hampered by others' expectations of me. I'll do a better job of communicating with others and getting my points across in a more effective and meaningful manner. And this will not only benefit me as it will open the lines of communication and shed light on areas that need to be discussed instead of leaving them in the shadows.
Got to sign off here as we just returned home and its almost time to crawl into bed.
Thank You Spirit.
Namaste.
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