'XV Self Hatred' and Accepting Ourselves as Contrarians and Doing Our Best to Live As Such

Sunday, May 15, 2016.  We planned on going on a hike or a bike yesterday however upon further research and reading about our chosen destination we decided to scratch it off the list as the trails may have partial closures as they travel around a lake created by a hydroelectric dam that is undergoing upgrades.

So we made the decision to head to Wreck Beach knowing that the possibility existed that we might not stay as the weather was a bit mixed as we hiked our favourite trail to the beach.  However, the weather at the beach was perfect.  I didn't go into the water as very few people did.  My partner had to as the challenge was on as others dove into the chilly water.  This is our earliest visit to the beach as last year we didn't go until around June 1st.

We grabbed Subway sandwiches on the way to the beach so that was lunch.  Then on our way back home we stopped at MyCup Coffee  & Tea in Kerrisdale for our afternoon coffee before taking care of our weekly grocery run.  I had one of their date squares--scrumptious.  I'm going to try to replicate them the next time I make them as they use other grains and seeds in addition to oats.

We relaxed the rest of the evening and dinner was simple as we grabbed a barbecued chicken and some prepared salads as part of our grocery run--delicious.  Then a bit of reading, practicing Spanish, and running an engine around my layout a time or two and finally off to bed.

Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is “XV Self-Hatred: The trap to avoid for all minorities.  Unconsciously accepting societal norms.  Low self-esteem."

I'm not an exact fit when it comes to living normally in society.  I just don't fit into the mold that we're all supposed to fit ourselves into.  I'm most certainly a contrarian.  I like reading about lifestyles many people are living that fall outside the boundaries of society such as I've read in "Countryside" magazine or the book "The Contrary Farmer" by Gene Logsdon.  Or even articles that appear in "Mother Earth News".  And then there's the RV lifestyle that is always grabbing at me and calling my name.  

I don't like sitting still.  I like to be moving and exploring and talking about the many different and unique places that we get to call home or drive through here in North America.  I truly do have to muster up a lot of energy and strength to resist taking off down the road and never looking back instead of going to a job that rubs me the wrong way each and every workday!

But I also have to be and really am truly thankful and grateful for what I have.  For I am very blessed and very fortunate to be living the life I'm living.  I live in a great home, am in a loving relationship, take part in a hobby I love--model railroading, have a great spiritual life, and own a camper van--at least once it's paid for.

So find out who you are and come to terms with it.  Can you accept and love yourself for who you are even if you find yourself at odds with the rest of society.  We can't all fit in and I'm quite okay with not fitting in and I'm doing my best to function as best as I can within society.  But I'm now at the point where I am finding it more difficult to fit in and want to do more to live life my way.  It's slow progress and requires a lot of patience almost more than I have but I'm doing my best to live as the contrarian I am.  Maybe you should too!

Thank You Spirit.

Namaste.