The '9 of Swords' of Unquiet Dreams, Thoughts, and the Conflict They Bring

Wednesday, May 4, 2016.  Another decent night of sleep and awaking just moments before we were once again serenaded by the alarm.

Relaxing evenings tend to do that.  They are very conducive to sleep.  Playing with trains, being with Spirit and Tarot, and simply enjoying life make for a better night of sleep.

Spirit's time is now and today's Gay Tarot Energy is the “9 of Swords: Unquiet Dreams.  Stress.  Worries.  Mental tapes which play over and over.”

Sometimes this happens however last night was not one of them.  Well maybe not the usual cause of my "unquiet dreams".  And now that I've sat with the “9 of Swords" I realize I'm putting too much a narrow focus on and looking at "Unquiet Dreams" too literally.  I have unquiet thoughts during the day here and there and am in a state of conflict and have been for almost twelve years.  I'm in a relationship and I desire to be living out on the open road.  These two worlds don't mesh very well.  I have a camper van and might only meagrely eke out a life of living out on the road but I'm finding it more and more difficult to resist to the wanderlust that is calling my name even if it's only all in my mind.  At the same time however, I'm also very much enjoying my relationship and have been for the past twelve years.  How can I have and live both lives happily?  That's my conflict.

But I'm dreaming up possibilities and may be able to do a little living on the road without adversely affecting my relationship.

So as is the case most often with Tarot and Spirit we can find possibilities even when we think none are possible...the wonders of Spirit never cease to amaze me.

Thank You Spirit.

Namaste.