We had another evening out with a couple of friends who treated us to dinner, an early birthday celebration for the two of us. Can't remember the name of the restaurant we went o but it was a noodle place on West Broadway near Cambie Street. We then had dessert at the Cactus Club across the street. Very nice of our friend to do that. We have a couple of nice friends and are very thankful to know them.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is “XV Self-Hatred: The trap to avoid for all minorities. Unconsciously accepting societal norms. Low self-esteem."
I no longer hate myself for what I think, how I behave, or what I do. I'm doing everything that works for me, that does not affect anyone in a negative way, that is not illegal and most all I'm doing more things that make me happy. I'm doing my best to be civil with the job I no longer desire to have while at the same time doing what I can to make it easier for me to quit and walk away from that job. It does not make me happy and one cannot always simply work because of the money aspect of it. Yup, I can really and truly say that I'm happy to be me.
Don't let others influence how you feel about yourself. Own your feelings and own your own self-esteem. Never let others affect you with their negative words. Yes, words can hurt but don't give the power to do so. Always present your spirit to others first and use your spirit and the power of Spirit to deflect any negative words or harsh criticism that comes your way. Take the power that is back from the rest of society and stand strong and learn to love and accept yourself.
Thank You Spirit.
Out with a friend this evening who is travelling in the few days and will be away during our birthdays so she treated us to early birthday dinners. The same will happen tomorrow evening with another friend.
Slept rather well I think last night and awoke a few minutes before the alarm so I tried to meditate a little, stumbled along but will get better each time I try a pre-totally awake and getting out of bed meditation.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is the “Guide of Wands: Feeling possessed by a creative project or inspiration. Being inspired to help others. Doing what’s right."
"Being inspired to help others" and "Doing what’s right" is always on my mind these days. This is why I'm doing what I can to follow my spiritual calling and offer my Intuitive Tarot services. I know that I can have a positive impact on people's lives by having a conversation with them through the gift and world of Spirit and Tarot. I feel my absolute best when I have a conversation with someone where that person is doing most of the talking and genuinely feeling that their words are finally being heard and have legitimacy. Most of the times I've conversations such as this the person has answered his or her own questions. And I find this very therapeutic and not only for them but for myself too!
Thank You Spirit for awakening me to my spiritual calling.
An odd night of sleep. Was sleeping but awake at the same time or so it seemed. Awoke many times with the last time about 90 minutes before the alarm. But I still slept but seemingly in an awakened state.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is “IX The Hermit: To fully understand something, sometimes you must escape it. Gaining perspective. Solitude. Study.”
I'm being told that I need to find some solitude away from all distractions including phone and access to social media as well as the internet so I can seriously meditate and clear my mind. I need to go camping very soon and since it's a bit early in the season to be camping I need to do some early morning meditations and have some quality time with myself and with Spirit. I really do need solitude and time for contemplation...a quiet place where I am not distracted by anything. And maybe I even need to take a step back from the pursuit of my goals for a day to create some space for contemplation, review and perspective.
I need some fresh new perspective in my life, that's what I need, good old fashioned perspective.
Thank You Spirit.
Mostly a lazy sit at home day. We did go out for an afternoon coffee and grocery run after dinner but what a relaxing day it was. Today will likely be no different considering that it is the beginning of March and snow is falling, falling here in the Metro Vancouver where we're usually basking in spring-like weather this time of year. Could be soggy and rainy but it tends to be warm and everything has turned green and our allergies have run amok. Climate change. It's predicted that this region will soon be experiencing the same type of weather as San Diego.
Before crawling into bed last night. I pulled The Celestine Prophecy off the bookshelf as I was thinking about the vibration levels of Spirit and Nature and my need to slow down my energetic vibration levels. I might even grab The Wizard Within so I can flip through its pages as well. I'm going to re-read The Celestine Prophecy though. But after I'm finished Spells of Blood and Kin of which I'm getting close to the end.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is the “6 of Swords: Peaceful Recovery. Serenity and the passage of time help to heal wounds. Stormy emotions are given time to subside, allowing a plan for a solution.”
Today, we might have to work through our dark and cloudy emotions which might simply be the result of our own struggles and not have to do with anyone else or our interactions with them. These are simply emotions that we riled up by our own doing. Now we have to work our way through them and see the shining solution on the other side.
Wounds heal especially when we allow them to. Feel the hurt and pain, acknowledge it, where it came from, how it happened but then start the healing process and let it carry you to a better place. Don't wallow in these low level emotions otherwise they get worse and more difficult to shake off and move away from. Get up, shake yourself off, stand tall and get on with living, you've much more living to do.
Thank You Spirit.
Memories of any dreams I had are hidden in the deep recesses of my mind. I had slight thoughts of the job as in one I no longer had as I swung my thoughts over to the gift of spirit, of life, of nature, of living that led to me thoughts about friends and even some acquaintances.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is the “3 of Cups: A Good Time. Happy, comfortable times together. Quiet enjoyment. Celebration."
Sitting by a water fountain on a hot summer day enjoying ice cream together, with cone in one hand, a balloon in the other as the carved figures atop the fountain are caught up in the revelry of drink, song, and dance. A joyous occasion to be sure.
This is about connection on a spiritual and emotional level, of moving beyond our humanity and connecting on a more cosmic and meaningful level. It's about happiness that comes from within ourselves, emotions that are a reflection of our true nature where universal, unconditional love reign supreme. It's about knowing each other beyond words or physical form, it's a connection that is deep and takes place in every atom of our being, we communicate through the love and energy that is life.
Thank You Spirit.
Took the night off last night. Didn't want to do anything. Ideally, I would have liked to been alone but I did my best to meditate and let Spirit be with me and accommodate being in a relationship. Definitely in need of some alone time. I was actually telling my partner this morning that I am in need of a hike and a nature fix.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is the “2 of Swords: Meditation. Closing your eyes to outer circumstances in order to gain perspective or to avoid a decision. Refusing to act.”
Decision made, I'm selling Serenity, my camper van either via consignment on the dealer's lot where I purchased her or through an auto auction. I'll be happy to break even and get the loan paid off and no longer have to deal with storage fees or extra auto insurance. Money saved, and freedom to better undertake my spiritual calling...
... the “2 of Swords" imploring me, imploring us to give some time to meditation but not at the expense of making a decision or taking action on some important matter in our lives. If we meditate at this time it must be to gain perspective and give us the will, strength and courage to make a well-thought out decision that leads to the right course of action.
As I was thinking about meditation this is where the thought of getting out in nature came to mind and in a specific area. I want to go back and visit the trees around Rolley Lake. This is where I felt the life force and energy of a few trees through touch as well as through the air and I also heard their sweet voices...once the weather is a bit drier...a visit to Rolley Lake is in order.
Nature, meditation, making a decision and taking action...a great plan to get things done and keep our lives in order.
Thank You Spirit.
Not sure of the dreams I had. I was dreaming about my Intuitive Tarot offerings as well as different methods of camping and/or RVing as I'm finding that the van, Serenity, as lovely as she is, is a bit expensive to operate. Will contact the dealership I purchased her from to ask them if they put it on their lot for me under consignment.
Spirit Is and today's Gay Tarot Energy is “XVI Revelation".
Unwelcome truths, time to break ourselves down into tiny, little pieces, discard the bad, then put ourselves back together. We, obviously, still have issues that we're not dealing with, truths yet, left to tell others. We can no longer be afraid to face these last few ugly truths about ourselves.
A free life laid bare is ours to live, no hang-ups, no more nagging shadows, no more lurking self-made demons left to haunt us. Just the unvarnished truth, bright skies, abundance of love. Being fully naked to the universe, totally laid bare, nothing left to hide or fear offers us a clean slate, a solid place to lay the foundation of our fresh start, the opportunity to do things right.
Thank You Spirit.
