Help

I slept okay last night.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “5 of Coins: Hard Times.  Material difficulties.  Lack of money.  People helping each other.”  Yes, this is so true today as being unemployed yet self-employed does not produce a lot of income for oneself and so my partner is making up the shortfall in my income needed to cover my and a little bit of our living expenses, the car included.  

But I forge ahead knowing that I can do this if I just give it a real hard try.  I can create th elife I want, live part-time, sometimes full-time in a RV crafting and Tarot Carding my way through a journey I've been longing to take.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Perspective

I slept fairly well however I awoke around 4am again to go pee then the alarm sounded far to early at 6:30am.  I stayed in bed hoping to be sleepy enough to fall back to a doze but it didn’t happen so I got out of bed around 6:40.

Spirit is and today’s visiting card is the “2 of Swords: Meditation.  Closing your eyes to outer circumstances in order to gain perspective or to avoid a decision.  Refusing to act".  I think I am refusing to act in some areas of my life and this is slowly but surely changing.  I’m learning much more in the last few weeks than I’ve probably learned in years.  I’m discovering myself and who I am and what I want and desire out of life.  True wants and desires because of my discovery of myself.  I’m fascinated by what I am learning about me and who I am and what and how other people see me.  This is an amazing experience and is only going to get better. 

I was fearful at first as sometimes the darkness we fear is real however in my case they were only mere shadows and nothing to traumatic or devastating.  Learning about ourselves should be something we all endeavor to do as it is not only eye opening but life changing since we learn things about ourselves that maybe make us change directions or turn around and head back in the direction we came from.

Amazing!

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Balance

I slept well until about 4am, when I got back to bed from going pee, I guess I was too mentally alert or something so I did not fall back to sleep quickly.  After minutes went by my knees started to hurt something fierce so I lay in bed not able to sleep as I started to focus o the pain instead of ignoring it. 

Maybe I’m doing that during the day, focusing too much on the pain and not everything else such as Spirit.

Finally, after days or weeks maybe even longer I caught a glimpse of the Moon this morning and isn’t she a sight for sore, tired eyes.  What beauty and strong reminder to focus more on Spirit and Spiritual Celebrations such as the Sabbats and esbats.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “2 of Cups: The Dialogue.  A balanced relationship.  Being able to see things from the other’s perspective.”  Yes, my eyes are often closed to what others think especially when it comes to their opinions of my life and what I need to do with my life.  I can see things from their perspective I often do not acknowledge of their opinion even if I may be in somewhat agreement with it.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Daydreaming?

I slept well.  Don’t remember any sort of dreams I may have had but I’m sure something was happening in my mind as I slept as it sure feels like it was active.  I awoke feeling like I had a busy night yet I remember nothing of it nor was I awake and worrying but I feel mentally busy already and I just awoke.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “Youth of Cups: Youthful emotions.  Daydreaming.  Shyness.”  I’m feeling a little bit like this as I was mentally off in the distance as I was wrapping up my most recent Christmas Greeting Card Order, thinking about being camped in a wintry meadow, just a touch of snow and cold enough to keep it around for awhile. 

How nice.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Regrets?

I seem to have slept okay.  I awoke early but that’s fine with me.  I was having a strange dream regarding my crafting I think.  My stamping was life size so it seemed.  Or at least this is what I’m recalling now.  It was an odd dream though as I was surprised by what I was seeing and it appeared to be related to my craft work.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “5 of Cups: The Aftermath.  Regret over past actions.”  The appearance of the 5 of Cups is throwing me for a loop as it is not the card I was expecting to see not that I thought I knew which card was going to appear but the 5 of Cups surprises me.  However today’s card is the 5 of Cups and I know it will reveal more to me as this day progresses.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

Judgement and Self-Righteousness

I slept quite well through the night although I did awake several times just because.  I have no ideas as to why I opened my eyes or I drifted in and out of sleep but I did.   Maybe it is because the bed is no longer all that comfortable.

 Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is “VIII Justice: Even today, gays can be the victims of "justice".  An unfair judgement.  Being too judgmental or righteous.  Feeling restricted by others' expectations.”   

Yes, I’m still under that trap of trying to please everyone else but myself.  I want to behave and do things to appease others, to not rock the boat however it is costing my sanity, my dreams, goals, and aspirations, if even had any to begin with.  And yes, I can be self-righteous and more judgmental than I care to be but I conscious of this and am always struggling to keep these in check.  Such is my life today.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.

A Repeat Visitor This Week

Thirty more days and another year is over.  I’m not yet in my RV but I will be soon.  I need to make a change, a drastic change in my life or changes will take place that are beyond my control.  Maybe they already are.  I cannot allow myself to continue to go along with the rest of the herd, maintain the status quo.  I have to get on with my life, not the life of everyone else.  Brian Gore, George Leher, Howard and Linda Payne, and Rae Crothers need to be my examples.  They’ve laid out a rough course to help others get out of the starting gate and I need to get going.

I slept rather well last night.  I think I had a dream regarding my Tarot Cards, another possibly concerning animals and then one about Simmons Mattress Gallery, a former employer of mine.  I did get up to go pee and quickly fell back to sleep upon returning to bed.  However my eyes opened again around 6am a little earlier than I expected to awake but here I am none-the-less.

Spirit is and today’s visiting Tarot Card, a repeat visitor from earlier in the week, is “XIII Death: Endings are beginnings.  A phase of life is over.  Allowing time to mourn.  A part of yourself has outlived its usefulness.”  As I explained at the beginning of today’s entry change is coming in my life one way or another so I had better be prepared.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.