The 'Nine of Bows, Respect'

Saturday, November 7th, 2015.  On my way from work yesterday I was in quite a tense mood and wanted to get home more quickly than traffic was flowing.  My impatience got the better of me and started to complain about everyone else's lousy driving.  I knew I was stirring up a stormy cloud of negativity but the disrespectful words and thoughts kept flying...as much as I wanted to stop I couldn't keep myself quiet.

Thankfully, I made the effort to go for a workout and worked the day's stress right out of my body and at some point last night I was in a lucid state so I made amends for my actions.  I acknowledged my angry outburst and disrespect for others and as soon as I did I felt a great sense of relief.  And here I publicly acknowledge the error of actions last night on the roads and apologize to the half dozen or so driver's who never heard my words but who were none-the-less hurled insults by me.  I am truly sorry for they may not have heard the words but their spirits surely did.

Spirit Is and today's Tarot Card and Tarot Energy is the "Nine of Bows, Respect: When nearing the heat of the sacred quest, motivation and integrity of human desires are challenged.  Ancient wisdom demands the seeker be humble and forgiving.  Respect for others and for the environment is required to proceed along the path to enlightenment.  There is no completion without overcoming the challenge.  To follow the path through the Wildwood is not without its  challenges and demands.  When entering any such environment, one must be prepared to face the dangers and natural perils that abide there.  Having empathy for the environment and being ready to deal with it respectfully and in a practical manner is to learn another lesson and take away fresh insight.  If we look deeper for meaning in the forces blocking our way, we often see how we have contributed to the problem and how we attracted these negative energies through lack of self-discipline, or mistakes made in the past.  The sign of an evolved spirit is someone who can acknowledge past failures or defeats without bitterness and self-torment and move forward through life with a positive outlook and wisdom gathered through struggle.  The Wodwose reminds us to treat the challenges of the Wildwood with patience and compassion, marking each scar or wound suffered during the struggle as a badge of honour, earned and overcome by inner courage, dedication and faith in the lore of natural justice."

Right off the bat, considering my impatient ways last evening while driving home I'm struck by this sentence:

"Respect for others and for the environment is required to proceed along the path to enlightenment."

And this one also hits home:

"If we look deeper for meaning in the forces blocking our way, we often see how we have contributed to the problem and how we attracted these negative energies through lack of self-discipline, or mistakes made in the past."

And in realizing my mistakes and the error of my ways, I hope that I'm "an evolved spirit" as I "can acknowledge past failures or defeats without bitterness and self-torment" and not only hope but undoubtedly know that I can "move forward through life with a positive outlook and wisdom gathered through struggle".  As I let my fingers stumble along the keys of this keyboard I'm filled with a feeling of "patience and compassion" as Spirits helps me make "patience and compassion" a deep rooted and integral part of my being.

I'm in a good place right now.  I have a great understanding of what I need to do in order to not only get on the path to where I need to go but start moving along it too!  I'm pretty much on the path now if I really think about it but I'm not moving.  I haven't started moving yet.

So a plan has been hatched so that I can get moving and the plan is this...over the course of the next six to nine months maybe even the next year I will psychologically prepare myself and my partner for my eventual move into my van, Serenity.  As part of this preparation I must divest myself of my many possessions that do not contribute in any way to my life.  Clothes, books, knick knacks, and the 1001 pieces of paper that are crammed into boxes and drawers that obviously have no meaning to me if they are stuffed into and overflowing many of these boxes and drawers.  As well, I'll clean out the storage locker that is likely filled with many things I do not need to keep as I have no use for any of them.

My relationship is strong enough to the point where we will both be comfortable with and accepting of my move into the van.  We are not separating or breaking up as there is an understanding that this is a long held dream of mine and something I need to pursue.  I'm not taking off on the down the highway or anything as I still have a job that I'm committed to for the next 12 to 24 months at least as the company is in a good period of transition and growth that I've become an integral part of.  So I will stealthily urban camp in my van as so many others are already doing around the metro Vancouver region.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.