The "7 of Wands" and Confronting Myself

The weekend has come and gone and a quick rain shower or two did nothing to dampen our enjoyment of the weekend.  I was actually able to work on my project for a very brief time and this was both good and bad.  I did get some work done however I rushed doing it and could have done a much better job of it.  Nothing looks bad or is terribly wrong, it’s not quite right but it’ll do.

I had a lot of time to think and contemplate and reflect and simply be this weekend and through all of this I’ve discovered that I’m afraid of and battle both myself and the success that can be a part of my life.  I stoke the fires of fear and doubt more than I should and am finding it very difficult to overcome this self-inflicted fear and doubt.  I mention this because when I work with Tarot and Spirit I see success in the cards, I sense success with Spirit, yet within me such ideas are very fleeting and never stick around too long.

Yesterday, while I was in my RV dropping off a few things I felt alive and full of life and had a great energy about me that filled me with a lot of hope and wash all doubts and fears aside however when I got home all of this disappeared.  I think I need a good spiritual cleansing and healing-too many old wounds and scars remain.  I need to truly heal and transcend these wounds and fears and free myself form the chains that hold me to old ideas and modes of thinking.

Thank You Spirit.

Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is the “7 of Wands: Fighting the wind.  A Quixotic struggle.  Winning against the odds.  Confrontation.”

I see this as a confrontation with myself and my own doubts and fears more than anything else.  I struggle to overcome me.  Many a time I am reminded of the talents that I have, the upbeat attitude, the outgoing spirit and personality I exude and yet I get caught up in my own anxiety and fears and shy away from my greatest goals and dreams when they are so close, within reach, and dare I say, easily attainable.

A battle is brewing within me and I need to confront my doubts and fears and find a way to overcome and transcend them if I truly want to make a life of my own.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.