'XV Self-Hatred' and Learning to and Challenging Yourself to Be Yourself

Tuesday, January 19, 2016.  Thankfully, I had a much better night of sleep.  I sleep quite soundly and awoke feeling quite refreshed.

Today's visiting Tarot Energy is “XV Self-Hatred: The trap to avoid for all minorities.  Unconsciously accepting societal norms.  Low self-esteem."

Yes, I must admit I'm having up and down days.  This past weekend was full of ups until Sunday evening rolled around and new work day was approaching.  I was dreading awaking and having to go to work Monday morning.

However, as I awoke on Monday I decided to be very spiritual about the day ahead and the day turned out very well.  I'm having issues with going to a job when I'd rather be doing spiritual works and helping others along their spiritual journeys.  The job feels right at times and not so much at others especially the last week or so.  The job is rubbing me the wrong way but the money is good and helps me to manage my debts.

Aaaaaaggghhhh....

I've got caught in a trap and have a mundane job that is at a cross-purposes with the journey I need to be taking in my life right now.  Actually, it's I've been needing to take for a long, long, very long time.

If you've got ideas for your life, how you want to live your life, how you want to go about living give them some real thought even though they might go against the grain of society.  After thinking about them for awhile ask yourself just how outlandish are my ideas and is there a way that I mesh my ideas together with the rest of the world around me.  Is there a way for your blend in without blending in?  Can you earn a living and still be the person you wish to be?

It might be a challenge but what a worthy challenge it is to find a way to be yourself and live freely and happily with the rest of society.

Thank You Spirit.

Blessed Be.