XV Self-Hatred and Overcoming the Past, Living in the Present, and Walking into the Future

Saturday, February 15th, 2014.  Aaahhh…how nice it was to sleep in a little today.  A surprise dinner out at a great local Italian restaurant (Salvatore's La Spaghetteria in New Westminster) that was abuzz of chaotic energy when we walked in and eventually settled down to a calm and almost peaceful energy made for a fantastic evening of remembering why we companions, friends, and so  much in love.

A short walk home to relax and digest the meal we had was the remainder of our evening before turning into bed.

Quite often over the past week or two I’ve had the experience that I’ve been in my RV, almost as if I was living in my RV on a full time basis.  Every once in a while I catch myself where for just a split second I’m standing or sitting in my RV.  My bed is made; I’m preparing a meal for myself or working on one project or another.  All this experience in what seems like the blink of an eye.

Thank You Spirit.

Spirit Is and today’s visiting Tarot Card is “XV Self-Hatred: The trap to avoid for all minorities.  Unconsciously accepting societal norms.  Low self-esteem.”

Last night I accepted the errors I’ve made in life, the wrongs I’ve committed, and the bad situations I’ve created for myself and perhaps am still dealing with.  Along with this reflection I’ve accepted these truths as real and wrong and of my own doing; accepted responsibility for them and being accountable for them and now I’m moving on.  I’ve dispersed this black negative energy to the cosmos to be cleansed and purified as I wash myself with the purity and love of the energy that is all around me, that flows through every atom of my being; that is and always will remain a part of me.

I focus on the highest ideal of myself, of who I want to be, of who I am and do not look back.  I move on having transcended my missteps with a renewed focus on my goals, dreams, and desires.  I’m still young enough to achieve them quite realistically I’ve already them in a sense by overcoming my past, by living in the present and following the map and directions to where I want to be in life.

Thank you Spirit.

Blessed Be.