To fully live, one must create a life, not merely react to it!

Sage of Swords -February 14th

The judge is sitting at his bench and weighing his choices.  Being a sage, he is sure to make a wise and sound decision without be too judgmental.  He might even be a mediator in a dispute.

Although the day was cloudy and rainy and continues to be so, as our evening slowly draws to a close it has been a great day overall.  I completed more entries into Simply Accounting and am pretty darned close to completing my paperwork for 2010.  I'm actually feeling quite good these days when I think of myself as a home-based business person.  I'm reading a book about selling crafts and it is part of the reason I'm feeling this way, I think!

The book is The Complete Idiots Guide to Selling Your Crafts and was written by Chris Franchetti Michaels.  I am hoping to be inspired by the book so that I can come up with good business practices that will allow me to sell my goods while traveling down the highways of North America in my RV.  Actually, I've got good ideas so far and I'm sure more ideas are on their way.  I need to create a logo for my business and this is the only area I find myself stumped.

XV Self-Hatred - February 15th

"The trap to avoid for all minorities.  Unconsciously accepting societal norms.  Low self-esteem.  Looking at a photo of a typical family:husband and wife and two children, a boy and girl and feeling that is just not you but knowing that is what is expected of you."

This same card, XV Self-Hatred appeared just five days ago on February 10th and it reappearing last night must have significance especially, considering the meaning of the card itself and my dreams and goals in particular.  I am falling into the trap I am longing to avoid and/or break away from.  I take it that my struggle is not going so well.  I do indeed then, need to take drastic measures.

5 of Coins - February 16th

"Hard Times.  Material difficulties.  Lack of money.  People in adversity helping each other."

I The Magician - February 17th

"To fully live, one must create a life, not merely react to it.  Creativity.  Ability.  Making something happen."

Friday, February 18, 2011

As I was working with Tarot and shuffling my cards in the midst of shuffling four cards flipped out of the deck together and the immediate thought that entered my mind was the significance of this happening.  I found my little "Fortune Telling Mat and laid the cards out as they appeared when they flipped over as a pack:

What's at Hand: X The Wheel of Life
Past Influences: Guide of Wands
Ponder This: 2 of Wands
What To Do: Youth of Wands

Since my mind has been on RVing and the direction of my life lately, and what to do about it, I thought that this spread is applicable to these two thoughts.  Also, as I looked back at the cards as they fell this week a storyline as what I need to do with my life has I do believe, developed.

But firstly let's discuss last night's cards:

X Wheel of Life: "If life on the rim makes you dizzy, move to the centre.  Awareness of the cycles of life.  Equanimity.  A change in fortunes.  Guidance from your future or past self."

Guide of Wands: "Feeling possessed by a creative project.  Being inspired to help others.  Doing what's right."

2 of Wands: "Confidence.  Being the king of your castle.  Preparing the ground for a new venture.  The dawn of an adventure."

Youth of Wands: "Focusing attention on something.  Reaching for a goal from a possibly shaky foundation."

Considering that the first card comes from the Major Arcan and the last three from one suit I believe this to quite the powerful message being sent my way and well received by me.  My life and living my life is at hand in this moment and I need to act in order to live.  Also, Wands are fire and the creative life so my life in all of its aspects must reflect that fire and creative life in order for me to live my truly and to the fullest extent possible.

The two appearances of XV Self-Hatred and the appearance of I The Magician are pointing at taking action and the steps necessary if I want to achieve and experience life as well as give my life to the world around me and affect and maybe even effect others along the way.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

VII The Chariot: "Among the highs and lows of life, make sure you enjoy the highs.  At the top of one's game.  Seizing an opportunity.  Having everything under control (barely)."

This has been an amazing week for me.  I have come to realizations and expanded my knowledge of Tarot, Intuition, and Psychic abilities.  The title of this blog comes from I The Magician from one of my Tarot decks and is something I plan to do with my life.  I am so glad I read it and read it this week because this past week has been one where each and every Tarot card revealed to me has had a huge impact on my life.

I give you many thanks fro choosing to read my blog.  Take care until we see each other next time. . .

Lot's of Catching Up to Do

I really did not think it had been so long so my last blog entry but here I am writing my next blog entry almost three weeks after the last one.

I thought I was going to do better at this but it looks like I still need to dedicate more time and focus to my blogging albeit after I dedicate time to all things in the metaphysical realm.

Since my last entry:

Jan 27th - Ace of Cups
Jan 28th - Guide of Wands
Jan 29th - 7 of Wands: thought of this card when going to bed
Jan 30th - Youth of Swords
Jan 31st - 2 of Coins:Tai Chi
Feb 1st- 6 of Coins
Feb 2nd - 9 of Coins
Feb 4th - Man of Cups
Feb 6th - V The Priest
Feb 7th - 9 of Cups:Serendipity
Feb 9th - Sage of Wands
Feb 10th - XV Self-Hatred

I'm sure there is a pattern in the cards whether as single card or a grouping of cards over a matter of days, a week, weeks, or a month or more but I will need to take some time to study and reflect on this if I expect to find an answer to my hypothesis.

I think an idea that just came to mind is a good one and I will strive to follow through with it and that is to do a weekly review of the cards that revealed themselves to me throughout the previous week.  I will make it a goal and see how far I get with it.

Since last night, Thursday, February 10th I've had a realization that XV Self-Hatred is a very telling card.  In fact all of the cards I receive each day I work with Tarot are sending me an overwhelming message that I still need to break free of the trap I still find myself in.  As much as I thought I had broken free of the chains that society has trapped me in could be further from the truth.  The chains are still wrapped around me and hold me back from the freedom I so...so desperately seek.  The chains tightly bind me and I need to take drastic measures if I am determined to find my freedom.

The 9 of Cups may make what I am saying a little bit off but I am not and the neither is the card wrong for it reflects my closeness to the freedom I seek on each of the days it decides to pop up.  I am so very close to the freedom I desire that I can taste it in my mouth and smell it with my nose but it is the next step that I must take that is proving to be the most difficult.  I am at the threshold of the prison door and all I need to do is step through it to the freedom that awaits me with arms open wide.

What is it that is holding me back?

Fear?

Being totally unprepared?

Fear of The Unknown?

Tonight's card, tonight being Friday, February 11th is the 5 of Wands:The Hockey Game.  The project meets resistance; testing one's ideas against others; an enjoyable struggle; competition in the marketplace.

An interesting appearance after my thoughts turned to the question(s) I asked just above.  Am I really fearful of something or am I just reluctant to head into the unknown.  Am I afraid of success, perhaps?

This evening, the evening of Saturday, February 12, 2011 I worked with Tarot and V The Priest revealed itself to me.  The Priest denotes that the best way to help others is to help them make their own decisions.  It is also about wisdom, advice, a promise, and a ceremony or ritual.

I spent part of the afternoon reading "Discover Your Psychic Type written by Sherrie Dillard and so far I have enjoyed all that I have read.  I stopped reading because I came to the questionnaire that she has designed to help people like me discover what my "psychic" type is so that I may be better able to develop my natural intuitive abilities, intuitive abilities that we all possess.  I cannot wait to answer the questions and find out what my "psychic" type is.  It is a very exciting time for me right now.  XV Self-Hatred has rejuvenated my spiritual self and I think I am closer to truly knowing what I need to do in this life.  How great it is!

Yes, the direction my life must take is becoming clearer and clearer each and every day and sometimes painfully so.  Decisions were made years ago and those decisions were probably not the best ones I could have made back then and most likely should not have made.  Leaving the church is still a good decision and my life is much freer because of that but I should have started doing what I am doing now back then and I would be a stronger person for it and in a much better place.  Even the RV would be in better shape than it is today.  But, alas I must not live in the past or with regrets and instead continue to live in this moment for it is the only time this moment will exist and I must be and am thankful for this moment I now have before me.

Monday, February 14, 2011.  Happy Valentine's Day.  I hope that this is not the only day we pay special tribute to our love of those that we love and who love us back.  May this be one of the 365 days that we hold our love and our loved ones dear and close to our hearts.

Last night, Sunday, February 13, 2011 just before going to bed and unfortunately a last minute decision I remembered to work with Tarot, almost an afterthought really, and the card that revealed itself to me is the 3 of Wands:Leaving the nest.  What must I now release that needs to venture out on it's own?